Dear diary, what a week it sure has been, and I mean that in a good way, even a great way. The kids were at my best friend's house for the past couple days, and my husband at his friends house helping him take care of some things while he recovers from a broken leg.
With the house to myself, I thought that would give me time to get some stuff done without any distractions. Well, I did get a lot done, but I had one hell of a distraction. I'm even arguing with myself as I write this, whether or not I should even write it down. It would be a disaster if someone else got their hands on this and read it. The hell with that I guess, I have to get this off my chest. As I set here replaying the last 24 hours in my head I can't even believe it happened myself, and I was there. It all started when I called a relative of my husband's to come and help me with getting in some wood for our wood furnace. Now mind you, that's not a huge deal by itself. Jeff, a distant cousin of my husband's is here off and on quite often, so it's not anything out of the ordinary. The thing that was unusual was that my husband wasn't here, like he always is when Jeff is around. That's probably for good reason because I've always had a crush on Jeff, of course, I would never say that to anyone. I guess that's why I never went out of my way to ask him to help me with anything while no one was here. I knew how it would have ended. I still don't know why I did it this time, I guess lust, or passion, or something got the better of me, because before I knew it I'd sent the text. Not even a minute later his reply "I'm on my way." That's when my heart started racing. I argued with myself right up until he stepped onto the porch. What do I do? Should I even have texted him? Should I let this happen and see where it goes? I can call or text him again and say never mind or something. But it was too late. I heard his boots step onto my porch and knock on the door. No turning back now, I thought as I reach for the doorknob. Opening up the door I'm met with him dressed in a flannel button up shirt with a similar jacket, jeans, and work boots. I quickly ask him to come in and get warm as I brush some of the snow off him. It's really coming down out there isn't it, I said trying to make small talk after the hellos were done. It sure is, he said as he was walking over toward the stove warming up his hands. We make some small talk over a cup of coffee standing by the warmth of the stove. Man, it really is coming down out there isn't it, he says looking out the window. Maybe I should go get started on that wood for you, he said putting his jacket back on. Yeah, do you remember where we keep it at. I think so, he replied, as we walk out the door.
Making our way out to the wood pile, him following me, I get up the courage to abruptly stop in front of him and bend over. He bumped into me and grabbed my hips as if we were in the doggy style position. Oops, sorry I thought that was a shovel buried in the snow. I didn't want either one of us to trip over it. That's okay, he said his hands still on my hips as I stood up.
Rounding the corner of the shed a large pile of snow comes into view. That's the wood pile, I said pointing at the large mound of snow. I thank all the snow from The Sheds roof fell and covered it. Yeah probably, he said grabbing a shovel starting to dig out the firewood.
We made some more small talk while digging out the firewood pile for what seemed like a half hour maybe longer. Okay, I think I'm pretty much got it, he said throwing the last bit of snow to the side. He looked at me, do you have a wheelbarrow? Looking over at him putting down my shovel, if I do I don't know where it is.
A naughty thought runs through my head. Before I have a chance to talk myself out of it I look at him and say, I think there is one over by the old parts car I might need help getting it out though. Not a problem, he says taking off his gloves. If you don't mind, I got to take a leek first, he said kind of shy. Now that's not a problem at all I got to go too, I say laughing a bit.
There's no need going back to the house just for that, I say to him as we walk over toward the old car at the rear of the property. No, he said looking around finding trees and brush cover the borders of the yard, nothing around but woods, I say going to the side of the car. He has his back toward me no more than a few feet away. I hear him unzip and only Imagine what he's got in his hand on the other side. I pull down my pants, not really hiding myself at all, knowing full well that when he turns around he's going to get a look.