September 6, 2000
Today was the first day of school. I'm in college now. I'm a college kid. Can you imagine? It's so weird, all of these totally new people. And the classes, I have two one day, and three the next. Such a total change. I met a lot of people in my major today, I guess we'll probably be in a lot of the same classes together. Maybe we'll get to be really good friends and hang out on the weekends, things like that.
One of my teachers is super cute. He's got short black hair that hangs just over his left eye, and he constantly has to brush it away. Soo sexy. Too bad he's a teacher. Maybe I'll find a boyfriend in all of this mess.
November 9, 2000
Sorry it's been so long, but school takes up a lot of time now. Homework, papers to write, and friends to hang out with. You know the drill. My grades aren't that bad so far, but my one class is really killing me, the one with the super hot teacher. His tests are so hard. I'm going to have to talk to him about some extra credit.
I met a guy. His name is Tony, and he's from San Francisco. Don't ask me why he came all the way to Buffalo to go to college, but here he is, and I've got him. Tall, tan, and very good looking. He's also really funny and really easy to get along with. My friends are all jealous. Especially Cindy, she thought that he would fall for her and they would be together now. Oh well, poor Cindy.
I shouldn't say that, Cindy's a great friend, she's just a little stuck on herself every once in a while. I guess she can afford to be, since her dad owns most of Chicago and she always gets what she wants. Hmmm, my life seems so boring next to hers or Tony's. Hope college spruces it up a bit.
December 24, 2000
Tony came down to meet my parents before going home to San Fran, and they loved him. He brought them small gifts for Xmas, and they were so like "you shouldn't have." He was so proud of himself. Major brownie points. I'm going to miss him during this break. I can't wait to get back to school and see him again.
My parents were so proud of my grades (all A's) that they bought me a new computer for my apartment. This way, I can do all my papers at home instead of at the school's library. I'm not complaining.
You know that class that I was having problems in? And how I said I got all A's? There was a small catch. Oh god, I really can't believe that I really did this, but I slept with the teacher to get the A. He was going to fail me, and then I would lose my scholarship. I can't afford an apartment and full tuition by myself. When I asked what I could do to help my grade, he told me that he would tutor me at his place. And when I got there, well, we didn't too much studying, at least, studying of the material for his tests. Oh, he was so good though. I felt so alive, and so wanted when he touched me. And I'd be lying if I said that I didn't want it. I can't even count the number of times I daydreamed about him during his class.
Maybe if I didn't daydream, I would have gotten better grades. But earning the A was pretty fun, too. I feel a little guilty about it, because of Tony and all. I can't tell him, he would leave me no questions asked. And I don't want that to happen. So right now, it's just our little secret.
March 7, 2001