Dear diary. No that doesn't work! I so wish we men could talk about emotional stuff the way girls do. So I haven't got a buddy that I can talk to about really personal stuff, and I guess, few men have, but I have to tell this to someone and I've never kept a diary but this seems the least embarrassing way. Even if it's just for my old age so that I can reminisce.
So where to start? Well not at the beginning, that's way too far back. Let's just say I am a married man, in his fifties with a rather ordinary sex life. We love each other, for sure, but the 'rip your clothes off' passion melted somewhat while we were bringing up our two children. We fell into the routine of occasional dinners at the pub followed by a slightly inebriated shag and we were both content.
I have to admit to being slightly more the leader, in our younger days, and somewhat regret their passing but I get shagged about once a week and the rest of the time make do with a wank. OK, so if I'm writing this down maybe I should say 'masturbation' but wank is more truthful.
Now wanking, there's a lost art and so much underrated! A good wank puts the world to rights, specially if there is no chance of the real thing. I suppose I started wanking at a very young age but sort of refined it when away on business. You know, buy a copy of Mayfair, look at the sexy open leg shots, read the 'True confessions' page and shoot your load into a hanky.
So that worked for a while. Then along came the internet! Well I watched my fair share, but the standard 'cocks in cunts' really wasn't very realistic or even titillating until I discovered Xrated. They have their fair share of teenage lovelies being pounded by some stud with the endurance of super man but that also got boring.
Much better was the cuckold section. I don't know why, but I really got off to videos of some guy filming his wife being fucked by, usually, a black guy. I suppose it was her fantasy to be filmed by him, or a gift, or maybe even a submissive gesture, either way it got me going. Many a god wank there, but then I discovered Total Amateurs.
This was a seismic shift in porn. If you don't know it, then basically it's a live shoot, in real time, usually between a girl trying to earn money for whatever reason and the resident stud. It really is hot! And the way that Gracie orgasms is unbelievable, wet, noisy and genuine!
Anyway, enough about wanking. What I'm saying is, I'm just Mr. Average with an average life and an average number of kids living an average house: I'm fine. Then life changes: big time.
I usually go to the gym on a Thursday and some time ago I was doing just that. I came home from my session, to my average home, to take a shower and let the evening go by. I stepped out of the shower and started to dry myself when into the bathroom walked this vision: a real fantasy! It looked just like my wife. Well it was her but not her, if you see what I mean.
Physically it was her but she was wearing a black suspender belt, black seamed stockings, silky black panties and a dynamite bra. I don't know about you but I find the naked female form much less erotic than the mature version clad in suggestive underwear. Anyway, in walks this fantasy woman and starts vamping me, hands on hips, crude talk the lot. I'm just getting over the shock when she sinks to her knees, my balls in one hand, pulls back my foreskin and starts giving me this really expert blow job. Lucy does not do blow jobs! Actually I wasn't even sure Lucy knew about blow jobs!
The blow job continues. I'm really getting carried away, my cock is as stiff as a poker and she has me as far down her throat as she can without actually swallowing it. I feel the familiar sensation of an approaching orgasm. I must have made some sound or other 'cos she pulled back a bit, pressed the knob of my dick against the roof of her mouth with her tongue, sucked like fury and I just had no choice: I let go. I came and I came and what's more, she swallowed the fucking lot: Lucy! My wife of twenty plus years! First blow job, to orgasm ever and she swallows!
From there on it just kept getting better. She got a new hair style, both top and bottom! She has everything waxed off down below and, I have to say, it looks stunning. We even refer to it differently now, it's not her pussy or any of the old euphemisms and vagina certainly doesn't do it justice.
We refer to her sex now as her cunt. Once we got over the angry use of the word, it really is beautifully concise. Cock for a man, cunt for a girl. It sums up perfectly, those outer lips that moisten provocatively, swell and open with mounting excitement to reveal the petals of that beautiful flower of the inner lips, crowned by the clit. The petals themselves spread slowly revealing the opening that is at the very heart of her sex. It's a beautiful place and deserves a beautiful name.
It's a word we never used to utter but now we use it all the time as in, 'Your cunt looks beautiful.' 'May I kiss your cunt?' 'My cunt is hungry for you.' And so on. See? It's a lovely word, but I digress.
It turned out that she had borrowed some books from a girl friend and she gave me one to read, My Secret Garden, wow is that hot? I can tell the pages she really found exciting because she left markers for me to find and our sex life has really taken off. We never realΕy talked about it before but now we are much more open and recently she asked to be taken anally. Lucy, asking for anal sex!
It all started when we got a bit over excited one evening. We had just finished a particularly active session of cow girl, which is one of my favourites. I just love having free hands to roam over her back, buttocks and breasts while watching her grind her clit against the base of my cock. The mental image of her with her hands behind her neck, breasts bouncing as her excitement mounts is enough to bring me to erection right now.
Anyway, we rolled over for a bit of missionary to finish. She was so wet as I slid my hands under her bum that my fingers were covered in her juices and I started to probe her other hole. She squirmed, but in an excited way and made no objection, so I slid it gently in as I continued with my leisurely thrusting. She went frantic! Started bucking around, groaning and moaning and clasped me tightly round the neck, pulled my head to her ear and whispered.
"I want it in my bum. Put your cock in my tight little bum. Please, I want to try it." Or something like that. What? Was this Lucy? We disengaged to squeals of delight as I gently removed my finger. I rolled her over, knelt between her legs, pulled her hips towards me and, lubricated by her juices, slowly pressed my cock into her bum.