The warm summer night air washes over my skin as I step out of the ice cold interior of Sarah's car and onto the driveway. Waving goodbye, I watch as she backs out and pulls off, disappearing down the street. I let out a long happy sigh. We had recently made our relationship official and I couldn't be happier.
I turn and walk up the driveway, approaching the back door and opening it carefully. It's pitch black inside and I hear nothing but silence. Mom and Stanley must already be in bed.
After shutting the door behind me, I flick on the lights to discover the dirty dishes from dinner still left scattered on the table as well as the pots and pans used to cook the meal on top of the stove.
My mouth falls open in disbelief. I had texted mom earlier, letting her know that I wouldn't be home for dinner, going straight to Sarah's place once we left work. She'd responded that it was ok, but evidently, Stanley had decided that didn't mean I could skip out on my chores.
I stare at the mess, taking it all in. Suddenly, I felt very tired. My phone tells me it's just past midnight, and I debate whether to leave this all for tomorrow morning but quickly decide against it, fearing Stanley's reaction when he discovers I haven't done what he's expected of me.
Sighing, I roll up my sleeves and begin running the hot water before moving everything into the sink. If I hustle I can get this done in under half an hour. I truly hate washing the dishes, but I fear Stanley too much to risk disobeying him. He's capable of more than I can even comprehend.
My thoughts start to wander as I fall into the usual rhythm of doing the dishes. I hadn't needed to do them yesterday since mom and Stanley went out to dinner. I overheard him telling her it was a reward for "putting up with that dipshit for a week", meaning Tim.
When I'd taken him to the airport yesterday morning before work, he asked me if there was anything wrong with mom.
"What do you mean?" I asked nervously, caught off guard by his sudden inquiry.
"She just seems so distant lately," he pushed his glasses up the bridge of his nose as he stared out at the highway. "Is she still upset that we had to push back the wedding?"
"I'm not sure," I said carefully. "She hasn't said anything to me about it."
"Well I can't think of any other reason other than that, can you?"
I offered a casual shrug, my eyes focused intently on the road ahead of me.
"You know, I've been so busy with work and hanging out with Sarah, I haven't been home a lot," I answered, desperately trying to evade his questions and too afraid to answer any other way.
As much as I hate what mom is doing to him, I'm more worried about what the repercussions will be if he finds out.
"Well, I get why she's upset then, I really do. But I'm just trying to get everything squared away at work, that way I won't have to travel as much once we actually do get married."
"Right," I told him, internally worrying if they'll even get that far.
"Maybe when I get back I'll do something to lift her mood. Take her out to a movie or a nice brunch."
He sat next to me quietly pondering to himself until we arrived at the airport. As I watched him go, I couldn't help but think just how in over his head he was, and that it'd take more than just brunch to unhook Stanley's claws from mom.
With the last of the dishes clean, I shut the water off and head upstairs for bed, leaving behind my thoughts on Tim, mom, and Stanley.
Mom's door is still shut when I leave for work the following day and when I get home early that evening I'm surprised to find the house silent and empty.
A note on the table catches my attention and I lift it up to read.
"Kyle,
Stanley and I are spending the day up at the lake. We probably won't be back until tonight, so I took some leftovers out of the freezer to defrost in the fridge. See you later.
Love, Mom"
Frowning, I crumble the note and throw it into the trash can before opening the fridge. The lasagna she had taken out of the freezer was still half frozen, making a loud thunk when I drop it onto the counter.
I text Sarah to see if she wanted to come over and hang out, but she already has plans with some of her friends to go out to dinner and then a movie afterward. So I ended up spending the evening by myself, playing video games after heating up and choking down the lasagna, which is a bit freezer burnt.
When I go to bed shortly after eleven, mom and Stanley still aren't home yet, but the last time they went to the lake they hadn't gotten back until late at night, and after finding the video of them having sex on the dock up there, I understood why. So I don't think too much of it as I fall asleep.
The sound of my phone buzzing on the nightstand wakes me groggily from my sleep. Bleary eyed and confused, I glance at the clock to see it's very early in the morning, the soft glow of pink sunlight filtering in through the blinds.
My phone stops buzzing and I turn over, resenting whoever had called and woken me up. Today's my day off and I definitely don't want to be awake this early when I don't have to be. A few minutes later, just as I'm on the cusp of falling back to sleep, my phone starts vibrating again.
Letting out an annoyed groan, I reach behind me, fumbling to grab it and not bothering to check who's calling before I answer.
"Hello," I mumble a bit angry.
"Kyle?" It's Tim. "I'm so sorry for calling you this early, but your mom's not picking up."
"What?" I sit up and run my eyes, trying hard to keep the annoyance out of my voice.
"Your mom. I tried calling her last night like usual but she didn't answer, nor did she a few minutes ago. I just wanted to check if she's ok."
I sigh heavily, "I'm sure she's fine."
"What do you mean? Isn't she there?"
I pause, realizing I slipped up in my half awake state of annoyance.
"Um..."
"Can you just put her on the phone please?"
I try and fail to remember if I heard her come in last night, then reach over to part the blinds and look out the window. Stanley's truck is still absent from his driveway.
"Uh, Tim, I think she might be slee--"
"Just wake her up if that's what you're worried about."
I open my mouth but no words come out.
"Hello? Kyle? Can you just give her the phone, please?"
His incessant impatience leaks into his voice and suddenly it's all too much. My resentment of everything finally boils over; mom's carelessness, her relationship with Stanley, his behavior, even Tim's naivety, all of it, combined with the fatigue of having been woken up so early and forced to try and cover for mom and Stanley, makes my blood simmer.
Anger rockets through me, and in my fed up state, it eclipses all other logic and emotions in addition to emboldening my recklessness.
So, enraged, I open my mouth and carelessly blurt out, "She's not here!"
"What? Where is--"
"With Stanley, she went to the lake with him yesterday and hasn't come back."
"Stanley? That guy from next door?"
"Yes!" I practically shout in exasperation.
"But why--?"
"Ask her," I cut him off harshly. "Im fucking tired of this shit. Stop pestering me with questions so I can get back to sleep!"
I end the phone call in anger and turn off my phone before tossing it back onto the nightstand. Rolling over, I pull the covers up to my chin and angrily shut my eyes, but any attempt to fall back asleep fails, my anger too great to let unconsciousness tug me back under.
But my anger gradually starts to fade, being replaced with a slow boiling dread over my actions, and soon I'm on the verge of panic as I imagine the consequences of what I said to Tim emerging.
What did I do? What the fuck did I do?!
My mind races with all the possible outcomes of this situation now that I've thrown a bunch of cards out onto the table. Will Tim confront mom now? Or Stanley? What would they say? Admit it? Deny it? Then what?
I feel overwhelmed, too many scenarios flashing by and too many conflicting emotions battling inside my chest. Small tears roll gently down my cheeks as I sniffle softly. I feel better letting it out, so much so, that I inadvertently fall asleep at some point after shutting my eyes.
My dreamless sleep is interrupted by the sound of the back door shutting, startling me awake. I sit up quickly and glance at the clock. It's mid morning, and I've been asleep for almost two hours.
Getting out of bed, I open the door and walk into the hall. I can hear mom moving around in the kitchen, so I tentatively climb down the stairs, cautious of what she might say to me when I approach her.
"Morning, sweetheart," she says after spying me creeping around the corner.
"Hey, mom," I say gently. "Where've you been?"
"Didn't you get my note?"