When I had him clean, and I inspected very carefully to be sure he was, I didn't want to risk another spanking, I stopped, assumed my "KNEES!" position, and waited to see what would come next.
"Stand up, Judy," he said, his voice soft.
I stood, eyes downcast.
"Look at me," he said.
I looked at him, meeting his eyes and holding them, struggling to not cry or cringe or anything stupid.
"You think I'm a monster, don't you?" he asked in a reasonable voice.
I said nothing, afraid to speak but fearing not to. I was frozen and I thought, not for the first or last time, of the phrase "deer in the headlights," although I felt more like a mouse frozen at the sight of the snake.
He smiled and very gently brushed an imaginary hair from my face with the backs of his fingers.
"It's okay, Judy," he said, "you can speak freely."
"May I stand?" I asked.
He smiled and offered his hand. "Of course, you may," he said.
I stood, wincing as I did at the pains I had, especially as the muscles in my ass worked.
"And I may speak freely," I asked, daring to meet his eyes.
"Please," he said, and his smile was infectious.
I took a deep breath and started.
"Yes," I said, "I think you're a fucking monster. I think you're a fucking DEMON. I wish someone had killed your mother before you were born to save the world from the true bogeyman. You got me drunk, took those fucking pictures, threatened me with the destruction of my life and my family, you summoned me on an impossible schedule," I was crying by now, and my voice was rising in pitch and volume, "you strapped my ass when I failed to meet that schedule, you made me call my husband while you fucked me up the ass and then made me lick you clean and now you wonder what I think? You ARE A FUCKING MONSTER!"
He was smiling as I ranted and when I wound down he did the fingertips to my forehead thing again, brushing a nonexistent hairs away.
"All of that is true," he said, "but if you do as you're told you can also have this."
The kiss was beyond good, it was perfect. His lips knew just how to press, his tongue knew just where to touch, and his hand knew every spot. My treacherous body responded as he knew it would.
"And this," he said, his lips nuzzling my neck, robbing me of any ability to draw breath.
"And this," he said, his fingertips lightly brushing down my belly, playing in my soft pubic hair, and teasing my clitoris sending electric jolts to my nipples.