Annabelle and James: Part III
The Storm is With Us
Prelude
Annabelle will sit on the deck of a little boutique cafΓ©. She will look out across the harbour, at the white sailed boats passing each other by. She will be aware of the way her heart thrums in her chest, the tell-tale tingle in her fingertips betraying her anxiety. Her excitement.
She will hear her phone receive a message, and will excitedly look to it, before remembering that the person she's hoping is texting doesn't have her number. Instead she will see the name 'Oscar'.
He will say -- I'm coming around tonight. You up for it?
She will feel a sad, shameful pull at her heart, and text back -- Not tonight. Sorry.
A moment later, another text -- You away for a seminar or something?
She will consider lying. Instead, she will say -- No.
She will turn her phone off, and when she looks up she will see the person she was waiting for. Her heart will flush with joy, and she will wave him over, feeling like the young girl from decades ago, before Oscar...
Lunch
I slept with Annabelle on a Monday evening. We fell to the floor, clawed and pulled at one another, and eventually settled into a long, sweaty embrace on the scratchy carpet, looking out on the city harbour. After our bodies had cooled, we got to our feet and dressed. We exchanged one long, final kiss at the door before Annabelle opened it, and we had to go back to what we were before: a university a lecturer, and one of her students. She sent me ahead, and I didn't see her again until the following Friday. Four days of wondering if it would happen again, of wondering if she regretted it, of hoping I hadn't made some enormous mistake. Four nights of lying in bed, thinking about the curves of her body, the warmth of her mouth and the ragged way she panted after she came. Of touching myself to those thoughts...
Friday came, and when I stepped into her classroom, we made brief eye contact, before she looked away furtively. My heart sank, and I started to prepare myself for the conversation I was sure was coming. It was a mistake, it was dangerous, it can't happen again.
I was surprised when partway through the lesson, during a quiet moment while we were meant to be studying for the nearing exams, she called to me. "James, would you like to talk about the email you sent me? I have found some resources that might help you."
I looked up with a start, and saw her standing by the door. She was looking me straight in the eye, and smiling. She was wearing pants today, and a jacket over her blouse. I wondered if she had decided to dress more conservatively, to try not to encourage me further.
Once outside, the classroom door closed, she looked quickly around at the empty corridor, then asked, "Would you have lunch with me tomorrow?"
I blinked. Rather stupidly. "Uhm."
She waited patiently, a small furrow in her brow. Concern? Anxiety?
I nodded, "Uh, yeah. I'd really like that. Where would-"
She was already pressing a piece of paper into my hand. The sudden touch of her skin sent a jolt to my stomach, and her fingers lingered, knuckles brushing against my palm.
"We can talk then," she said quietly. I felt her thumb run over the inside of my wrist, light and almost unbearable. "Don't be late," she whispered. Then turned away, leaving me stunned in the corridor.
The note went straight into my pocket and didn't come out until I was on the train home, hours later. The entire time I had felt it there, sitting like a lead weight. I finally unfurled it, and found her clean, looping handwriting:
The Boatshed in Swansea. 12:30. I'll be sitting on the deck.
She had drawn a little heart underneath.
I couldn't help smiling down at it. I suddenly felt very excited for the weekend.
I spent a ridiculous hour in front of the mirror, fretting about what to wear. Ordinarily I didn't stress about that sort of thing, but this would be Annabelle's first time seeing me outside of a classroom. What did I want her to see?
The button up blue shirt, to show I clean up nicely? No, too much of an affectation.
The bowler shirt? No, too casual.
The sleeveless... forget it, absolutely not.
I tried to simplify it. Jeans. Clean, maroon t-shirt. Boots. What did all that say about me outside of class? I couldn't tell you, I was too close to running late at this point to care.
The place she had asked to meet me was a forty-five minute drive south, taking me out of the city. Swansea was a small touristy village on the coast, and it was a perfect day to visit, with the sun out, balanced by a soft cool wind. I did see dark clouds in the rearview mirror, but they were well away. I didn't think it was likely we would catch any rain, not for hours at least.