Phil Anderer has the unamiable task of correcting my spelling, fixing my grammar, and making my random thoughts make sense. Once again, thanks goes to his patience.
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In the quiet of the night, around 2am, Frank stirred from his sleep, the call of nature beckoning. As he navigated his way back from the bathroom, the moonlight spilled into the bedroom, casting a gentle illumination over Alice. The covers had been tossed aside in her sleep, revealing her in a state of peaceful repose.
Frank paused at the edge of the bed, captivated by the serene image before him. He found himself straddling two worlds in that moment. Memories of a similar scene with Rose years ago flooded his mind, stirring a blend of nostalgia and longing. How he wished he could encapsulate moments like these, to revisit them beyond the confines of memory--capturing not just the visual, but the warmth of the room, Alice's scent, the texture of the cotton sheets beneath him.
This night marked their first-time making love, a milestone in their relationship. Frank cherished the thought, knowing the uniqueness of a first experience could never be replicated. His mind, however, couldn't help but wander to the concept of 'last times'--those poignant farewells that often pass unrecognized until they're part of the past.
Shaking off the melancholy, Frank redirected his thoughts to the initial moments of intimacy he shared with Rose, finding solace in the continuity of life's intimate milestones. Each 'first time' carried its own beauty, a reminder of the capacity for renewal and the enduring nature of love.
Frank and Rose had spent a few weeks returning to their secluded spot by the lake. It offered them a measure of privacy they didn't have anywhere else. Frank had roommates and Rose still lived at home. The spot was at the end of an old logger's road. A road led down the side of a cliff face, but a short cover of trees blocked the view from above. Frank would park the car at the end of the road, blocking it. Anyone arriving by car would need to walk the rest of the way, giving them time to cover up if they had been unfortunate enough to not have heard the car coming. All other views would need a pair of binoculars and a few hours of hiking.
This privacy had allowed them to be relaxed and spend time exploring each other's bodies. Frank had received his first blowjob. A pleasant surprise as Rose had built it up by telling him exactly what she was going to do.
"I am going to take you into my mouth," she had told him. "Then I am going to gently suck. You will slide in and out of my warm mouth, then I am then going to swallow what you give me."
It was a process that didn't take all that long. Just thinking about her words had taken him most of the way there. At the pivotal moment, he had grabbed her head and pulled her tight. For that he had received a slap on the tummy. Rose had realized it was an involuntary reaction and wasn't at all upset.
There was one thing she did get upset about. She had swallowed his ejaculate and licked clean the last few dribbles. Then she lay down beside him again and leaned in for a kiss. For a moment Frank hesitated. She had just had his sperm in her mouth; he wasn't sure if he would taste it or if he even wanted to.
"Frank!" she snapped. "I just put your dick in my mouth and let you use it like a vagina. You are getting squeamish about a kiss. It's ok for me to swallow your stuff, but not for you? See I have already swallowed it all."
She opened her mouth for him to check; she was genuinely annoyed by this. He didn't look, instead he looked down in shame. She was right and he felt foolish about it. He apologized and made a point of giving her a deep kiss. There may have been a slight residual taste, but he was sure he was just imagining it.
Frank was also schooled in the art of pleasing Rose with his mouth and fingers. He had spent hours with his face between her legs, an act he really enjoyed more so for Rose's reaction. Bringing her pleasure like that really made him feel good.
She had no problem kissing him after. In fact, she made a comment that tasting herself on his lips made her super excited. It was physical proof of what he had just finished doing. Frank didn't fully understand but enjoyed the sentiment all the same.
It was one of these afternoons together when they had their first time. Both were relaxing after taking turns pleasing each other. Like the teenagers they were, they really couldn't get enough. Sometimes Frank worried about driving home afterward, he was so exhausted.
Rose was casually stroking his hard cock when she asked him a question.
"You know I have been with others?" Rose asked him. "You don't have a problem with that, do you?"
Frank and Rose's relationship blossomed in an era marked by paradoxical social norms--where boys were pressured to boast of sexual conquests to assert their masculinity, while girls faced scorn and the derogatory label of "sluts" for engaging in similar behaviors. This societal double standard left little room for nuance or understanding, raising the perplexing question of how these expectations were supposed to align. Who were these boys supposed to be with, if not the very girls society was quick to shame?
In the midst of these conflicting messages, Frank's view of Rose stood as a beacon of respect and admiration. He never succumbed to the derogatory labels of the time; to him, Rose was above such base judgments. The thought of Rose's past lovers hadn't crossed his mind much before. Whether they had loved her in the way he did was unknown to him, and though a part of him wondered about it, he realized that, in the grand scheme of things, it didn't truly matter. At that moment, his focus was on the love they shared, untainted by the judgments and expectations of the world around them.
Frank shook his head to Rose's question.
"Good!" she told him. "Maybe they were just practice so I could please you.
"Frank, I want to try something, share something new with you. Do you trust me?"
Frank nodded; she had his cock in her hand; he would have nodded if she was sharing plans to rob a bank together.
Rose reached into picnic basket they had brought and scraped a dollop of butter onto her finger. She then wiped it all over Frank's cock and started to stroke.
It felt wonderful, the lubrication made Rose's hand feel like her mouth. Frank made a mental note to try this at home during his morning shower session. He wasn't sure how he was going to sneak butter into the bathroom, but it was worth the risk.
After a couple of minutes, Rose had a look of certainty on her face, like she had just concluded something.