He said, "My! My! Ms. Aayra! we are on the same floor! and you still didn't notice me" and we laughed and headed to our rooms.
As I entered my room, I freshened up and got naked and wore the bath robe. My usual way of retreating for the day whenever I am travelling for work- getting naked and sleeping nude. I just loved doing it as I couldn't do it at home. I didn't feel like reading and hence I walked over to my bed, took off my bath robe and snuggled into my blanket naked.
As I lay blank on my bed, my mind started wandering and I was reminded of the first time I met Alex.
It was two years ago. We met in one of our overseas conferences and had instantly hit it off. We had similar thoughts on solving a few of our company's business problems. We were paired together in one of those random teams during a team activity and we had a blast working together for 3 days.
He was a handsome man and super smart too. I, being a sapiosexual, liked him very much. Not just that, there was something about him that was so attractive. He was a chivalrous guy and he carried a charm around wherever he went, that made people comfortable with him. He had his way around women and had the most infectious smile. During one of our activities, I watched him extract information from a receptionist just by giving her a smile and talking to her with such a strong eye contact that everybody was stunned by him as nobody was able to break her before.
I still remember after this victory how he looked at me and winked, showing off what he had done and I gave my usual proud smile of having such a great team member to work with, internally feeling for the girl who had melted away around his charm. Such was the rapport we shared, a very friendly and professional bond, lot of respect for each other's work and knew when to break the formality and have fun. Five days of ultimate fun and it flew like hours.
We had an amazing time on and off work too. Hilariously laughing and teasing people during our casual team dinners and late-night drunk gossip sessions with everyone. We had built such a great friendship in five days that we could pick up each other's cues and I felt confident and liberated around him because he let me be me and was not intimidated by a powerful strong woman. He was a happily married man (why wouldn't he be? any woman would be super happy with a guy like that for a husband) and I was happy in my marriage too. While he knew girls around him were hitting on him and going out of their way to do favors to him, he never took advantage of it and used to use me as his shield when a girl got close because unlike others, he would not get any special treatment from me.
The day we were departing, we took some time to have a cup of coffee with each other. I remembered that day very vividly because that was the day, he told me he had started getting attracted to me. He said that he felt I was an incredibly beautiful, strong and confident woman. But what he admired most was the way he felt around me. He said I made him feel exactly how his wife had made him feel when they first started dating. I remembered he had told me that as a respect to our newfound friendship he felt he must confess this so that he does not feel guilty later. We both were married, it's not like something would happen between us.
I was surprised at the way I reacted cause instead of feeling awkward, I realized I had started enjoying what he was telling me. That was when I realized that somewhere deep down unknowingly, I was attracted to him too.
He shared his contact details with me and gave a casual hug and as he was walking away, I felt my heart sinking. I could not understand what was happening to me. I tried to distract myself with other stuff. But throughout my flight back home I caught myself thinking about all the amazing time we had together. This was very unlike me. Even after I reached home, I realized I could not stop thinking about him.
After three days of this, I realized it was getting out of hand and I must put a stop to this. That was when I deleted his contact details and told myself never to contact him for the sake of my sanity. I felt it was just a crush and I must not let it grow. As I kept reminiscing and realizing why I lost touch with him, my phone beeped and got me back to present day.
When I checked myself, I realized that I had been touching myself all this while thinking about him. This was nothing new to me. Considering the way things were going with me for the last one year. I had been extremely dissatisfied sexually and it had started eating me up from within. I love my husband and he love me too. But the passion had been missing for years now. I kept telling myself, things will improve but he had been more and more disinterested in sex.
Initially I felt maybe I am at fault. But I checked myself and realized it's not me. As I never let myself go. I still looked as hot as the day he met me. And I had made every possible effort to spice things up in bed, even going out of my comfort zone to please him. Giving him an amazing and surprise blow job in the middle of day, dress up like a stripper and give him a lap dance, tie him up, blind fold him and have at it, role playing... I had tried every trick in the book. But nothing seemed to work with him. There were tons of times when I communicated my dissatisfaction to him, and we ended up fighting. But then, nothing changed. I had given up, like how a faithful wife would do, thinking that why should I spoil the friendship we have for a few moments of physical gratification.
But I had underestimated how dissatisfied I was. I never felt sexy anymore no matter what I wore, and this feeling has crept into my mind. I had started getting hot dreams during the night and I would wake up extremely wet every single day. I had started daydreaming about strange men pleasuring me on bed and using me like a fuck toy, I would unknowingly touch myself while asleep and I was surprised how much satisfaction that gave me. So, this was nothing new to me. But the newness was in the fact that as I was thinking about Alex, I was dripping profusely. I decided not to waste my arousal and my 'alone-night' and please myself to this feeling. After all, nothing was going to happen between us...
The next morning, I got up and got ready as usual. But I observed that there was an unusual jump in my gait. I was happy and excited, and I didn't know why. I spent more time in front of the mirror and realized I had picked up a hot red lipstick to apply. I checked myself and realized it would be too bold for a conference. What was happening to me? What was I doing? Come on Aayra! Wake up. You are losing control. Stay strong.
As I walked over to the conference hall, my eyes seemed to be searching for Alex. I kept checking myself and telling myself "Aayra! Stop behaving like a teenager. You are married for God's sake!"
As I was torturing myself with this pep talk, I felt a tap on my shoulder, and I turned around to face Alex. Aah! As sharp as ever. He looks so sexy all the time. Wow! Aarya! Stop it. This is a professional environment. Stop staring at him and greet him.
"Hey Alex! Good morning! How are you today?"
"Why are you so formal? We just met last night. Chill!"
I laughed at his response and he said "It's the last day of the conference. What are your plans post lunch?"
"Nothing much. I was thinking of going back to my room and finishing some work."
"Work! Work! Work! All the time! You have not changed one bit! ohh! It's been two years since we spent some time. Let's meet up post lunch. We will catch up, talk and spend some time together buddy! Where did your fun side go?"
I laughed nervously thinking how I will get out of this now. While I was thinking of an excuse, it felt like he read my mind and said "No excuses! You are keeping me company and that's it!"
Before the mature Aayra could respond, the impulsive one inside me said "OK. Sure".
I could not focus one bit during the entire conference, and I was secretly waiting for this to get over so that I could spend some time with Alex.
Finally. It was lunch time. People were saying their goodbyes, exchanging business cards and leaving. Alex walked over to me and said "Let's go to the room, change up, get comfortable and meet at the reception in 30 mins. I know a nice cozy place we can go to."
I said ok and we headed to our rooms.
I went to my room and I got dressed in comfortable wear. My hands reached to the hot red lipstick again. It was time! The impulsive Aayra needed a bashing now. The mature Aayra took over "Aayra! This is nonsense. You know nothing is going to happen. He is married. You are married. Think about your husband for God's sake. You love him. You need to be in check. Alex is a good friend. If you behave weird today, he will notice, and it might get awkward. You don't want to risk your friendship with him. Do u?"
The impulsive Aayra understood after being given a threat of losing Alex's friendship. She reigned it in and she was in the best behavior for the next few hours.
Alex and I were foodies and we went on an eating spree, cracking jokes, reliving the past time and had an amazing time together. After all the fun, when we finally sat down on the riverbank to witness a beautiful sunset, my phone rang. I picked up.
