"Carl, when we go to the snow this winter, can I write my name in the snow?"
"What?"
"Well you watched me pee this morning. This winter, can I stand behind you, hold him, and when you pee, write my name in the snow?"
"Yes you can and then after that I'll bend you over a jet ski, slip deep into you and we will ride it all over Lake Tahoe hitting every bump we can find."
She giggled and blushed again, "I don't think I will ever be able to think of as many naughty things to do as you can."
"Who cares whose idea it is as long as it feels good and I can be with you."
"I want to hear and try all of your ideas."
That gave me an opening to bring up something that had been bothering me. "I'll show you how to operate my computers. How to read erotic stories off the Internet. Even where I post some of mine with all my "ideas." But, I also want you to get out some while I work. Don't just hang out around the house."
I liked it when she was home. I love to watch her. Go to her. Feel her. Taste her. But I knew how selfish this was.
Day after day went by. We made love and slept together every day. We were getting good at it. She loved to wrap herself around me and sleep. I was falling in love with her and it was making me very sad.
Janie made me sit one day. "Something is wrong. What is it? Have I done something?"
"O my God, no, you have not done anything wrong. You are wonderful. You have filled up my life. It's that I have fallen in love with you. I want you for my own and I know that can never be."
She looked devastated and shocked. "Wait, why can't it be? It is what I want and what you want. I want to be with you."
"Janie, I've thought and thought. There is so much in life. Wonderful completing things. Things no one should miss. I am too old for you. You would miss too much with me. With me, you would not build a family, have children, have someone your own age to share interests with. My body will be getting too old to please you by the time you are in the mid-thirties prime of your life. It makes me very sad. I am so greedy when it comes to you. Sometimes when you lay asleep in my arms, I dream. In my greatest fantasy, you have it all β family, loving husband, youthful fun, everything; and, still, in my dream, you come back to be with me every once in a while. We make love and I see the happiness and fulfillment in your eyes. You tell me about your family and I know you still love me."
She was crying, "Are you asking me to leave?"
"Absolutely not. I want you to stay. Stay forever. I want to love you and have you love me. But I also want you to promise to go out and be with people your own age. I want you to promise that if that special someone comes along, you will leave me, take the chance to build a life and have a family of your own."
She was smiling through her tears, looking a lot older than eighteen. "You think too much and are one pain-in-the-ass person to love. I worry too, that I'll bore you and you will want the company of someone older. We have to accept what is. I promise to do what you've asked but don't bring it up again. I want you. I'll love you even if I spend time with people my own age. I know you love me and that it won't change if you spend time with people your age." Her eyes sparkled and she added, "If there are any other people that old."
I had her over my knees in a second. She kept taunting me, "Is the mean OLD Daddy going to spank his little girl's little ass?"