Rose's 24 hours expired while we were out to dinner. I had relented and allowed her to run back to the house to change clothes. I was surprised when she showed back up at Barney and Betty's house still wearing the blue see through blouse. She now had a beautiful blue lace bra underneath. She had changed from the very short spandex skirt into a straight skirt that came to within a couple of inches of her knee.
Betty had changed into a summer sundress with a very low scoop neck that showed a generous amount of cleavage and flared skirt. We headed off to a restaurant featuring fine American food dining. Once there, we began to discuss the plan for the video studio in earnest until Betty stopped us and looked at Rose.
"I want to know more about this new arrangement you two have suddenly discovered."
I looked at Rose.
"Go ahead. I want to hear where your mind is at as well."
Rose looked a little uncomfortable. But she managed to pull herself together and started telling Betty what she was feeling.
"Jack is the love of my life, and I really don't want to go on without him. He knows that in my younger years, I wasn't the prim and proper type. When we were dating in college, I was a bit of a wild child."
She looked at me and smiled as she continued.
"Jack wasn't exactly a choirboy either. When the kids came, we had to cut back a lot on those kinds of activities. As the kids got older, the responsibilities got more demanding and our social and sexual life was pretty much a hit or miss proposition. After we both retired and the kids were gone from home, I guess we were just so ingrained in that life that we had forgotten a lot of what we use to enjoy."
Betty broke in excitedly.
"I want to know more about this previous lifestyle when you were younger."
"Later. I will give you all the sordid details. Anyway, Jack seemed content. I, on the other hand, began to want more out of the rest of my life. I wanted to enjoy the kinds of excitement that we had felt when we were in college. "
Barney drank from his drink and looked at Rose.
"So, what kinds of things were you looking to revisit?""
"Like I said, I was a bit of a wild child in college>"
I broke in to elaborate.
"Wild child" would be an understatement. She was a full-blown free spirit in every sense of the word. I was a little wild. I drank and caroused with my frat buddies. She, on the other hand, didn't find a thing that she wouldn't try. If she liked it, she would probably try it twice."
Rose looked at me and I thought she was going to toast me. However, she looked back at Betty and Barney and continued.
"Jack is right. I was all about the experiences. I wanted to try everything."
"She did too. I smoked my first joint because she got us invited to a party off campus at what I would call now a flophouse. It was a bunch of the stoner crowd. When we got there, there were already bodies all over the place, in various states of inebriation and undress. We finally found a bunch upstairs in a bedroom, just hanging out all over the room, passing joints sound."
Rose sighed.
"I was already deeply in love with Jack, and I figured if I didn't experience as much as I could while I was in college, I might never have the chance again."
Barney chugged his beer and looked at Rose.
"Give me an idea of the kinds of things you dabbled with."
Rose looked sort of embarrassed.
"Well. We tried grass, of course. We all drank a lot. Some of our friends were getting pretty heavy into the fetish scene and we went to a couple of the parties. As I recall, Jack was astounded and then became quite interested in the whole BDSM scene. There was lots of group sex and exhibitionism. I don't remember us ever participating in those kinds of scenes, but I know that when we were around it, I found it arousing and erotic."
"What Rose means to say is that my middle-class MId-America upbringing was still in full force. I was pretty sure she wanted to jump into some of that, but I resisted pretty adamantly. I have to admit she did abstain from any of that. I think."
I looked at Rose and saw her eyes drop and a bit of a blush come to her cheeks.
Barney and Betty saw it as well. Betty was the one who pressed the subject.
"Rose. You need to tell us something else?"
She hesitated for a few minutes and then continued.
"I managed to get to a couple of those sorts of events without Jack's knowing."
She looked at me plaintively.
"I just had to know what it was like. We weren't married. We weren't even officially engaged. I didn't think it would hurt anything. And it didn't. "
Barney interjected.
"So, you went ahead and tried the group sex thing and, I suppose you did the exhibitionist thing as well?"
Rose nodded, her face somber.
"Among other things."
Barney's eyebrows went up."
"I think we need to hear about that as well."
Rose looked pained now.
"I tried cocaine and meth. A couple of times. At one of the parties some passed a jointed laced with X. I don't remember much about that except I woke up much later, naked and very sore. I got my first taste of being tied up during one of the parties. I had my first lesbian encounter while I was high on cocaine."
Barney pressed on.
"Why didn't you tell Jack before now?"
"Embarrassment."
"Embarrassment because of what you did, or how you treated Jack?"
Rose looked up with a surprise look on her face.
"Exactly... Somewhere along the line I got it into my brain that Jack would find me disgusting or perverted or something like that. I don't know what put that in my brain. And I couldn't talk to him about it because I was afraid, he would not love me anymore."
I started to protest, and Barney held up a finger to quiet me.
"And what has changed in the last week?"