Please, don't judge me; I'm just a very warm person with her physical needs who do something with it.
I'm a fat black old woman, in a few weeks becoming 62 and divorced 14 years ago. It was a hard time, after a marriage for 23 years I was abandoned for another woman by my husband. Never expected it and it took a some time to recover from it. My marriage was childless and after my husband left me, life seemed very lonely. I was always a very direct physical woman and over the years I thought I accomplished to the sexual needs of my husband. I still call him my husband although another woman own him now, he still is mine, I think.
I picked up my life again, tried to find peace in my new circumstances and provide some happiness. The only thing I couldn't provide was the warm intimacy with my husband. May I thought I grew over it; I didn't. I missed it a lot and I began to look around. As I told you, I'm a very plump woman, call it awesomely fat. I'm very massy, not just in the hips but everywhere. I'm not the type to attract the eyes of the beholder but more the type for those who won't go for the common type.
I'm aware what attract most of the eyes are my huge boobs; in my earlier days I've considered to made them some sizes smaller but my husband wouldn't let me. I gave up diets because over the years I've used to my excessive fat figure. What I do is take the necessary care of myself; I never go on the street without make up and proper dressing. I'm living in the sunny state and mostly wear light garments. Dark red and dark green or yellow fits me the most. Once in a while I visit a beauty salon where I have my hair done, my nails done and get rid of the unwanted hair in my face.
I was jealous of all the couples I saw when I was out. And I was jealous of the younger single women because I thought they anyway had a better chance to find someone to fulfill their needs as I did. When I was sitting on one of the many tea gardens and looked at the young men passing by; some skinny, some well build. I was thinking what plenty of opportunities they would have in future to enjoy their sexual urge. I often imagined how it would be if one of these young men would pleasure me. And what most titillated me were the young white men; I imaged their hard white dicks on my dark black skin and often dreamed of it. And as the time passed, the fantasy grew.
I've noticed sometimes young white men were looking at me; or, better said, at my large boobs. Some very young, in their twenties, some in their thirties. It could be that my growing fantasy had part in it because I began to observe these young white men more. I sure wanted to give them the opportunity to play with them as long as they were willing to grant me in my needs. The urge of fulfill this wish of my made me hot brained. I puzzled how I could realize my fantasy. I saw just one option, suggesting them I wouldn't reject if they like to play with them; my black large boobs were available to fulfill their wishes.
And that's what I did; surprisingly it worked. I always wear blouses and leave the upper two buttons open so there's a fair sight at the cleavage of my large black boobs. And when I see such a young white man staring at them I first made an every day talk with him; searching of some interest from him for me. And as he do, it's rather easy to take him home with me. When I notice certain incertitude at the young white man on the way home I divert him; it's easy. I look at him unperceived and rejoice myself with the thought what delightful things to do with the young white man.
Think what you want, but like may others I can't ignore my sexual needs. And I'm certain; some females of my age feel the same but haven't got the daring to give in to it. And I did and it's very rewarding for me. Don't misunderstand me, I don't pick up every day some young white man of the street, I don't think there are that many who fancy an old fat overweight black woman like me. I only got seven of these young white men in eleven years. The last young white man visits me over a year now. Sometimes he stays over for the night. I'm aware and experienced enough to know I don't get that lucky that it's forever. After it's over it stays quiet for quite a while until some other young white man has interest in my awesome boobs. And if so, I savor the moments without worrying about what become later.
When I take some young white man home we first always take a shower. That's something I find important, hygiene. When we undress in the bathroom there's always that high-strung tensing. When I notify the young white man is a bit nervous I try to ease him. Half undressed I ask him to help me to remove my underwear. The first piece he removes is my big bra. I have ones with hooks on the front. For me useful because I can't reach behind my back because of my excessive old fat body. Once unhooked my heavy huge black boobs pop out of my big bra. One thing I noticed, they're all tit grabbers; fixed on my huge boobs, not really know what to do with them. These wobbly, fleshy dark peaces of meat of mine are very sensitive and the way they are pulled, kneaded or sucked by some deserve better. The young white men need education from me for that part.
And they are all the same; they've got a lot in stock, usually impatient at the first time. When we are completely undressed, I obtrusively feel his magnify hard dick pressing against my huge black fat belly. For me, not to let it be a routine, I choose to vary in different ways.
When I notify the young white man has big need I let him penetrate me quickly. I usably have an little stool standing in the shower and, while leaning back against the shower wall, I place one foot on that little stool to be accessible to let this young white man release himself from that big need. I know that it will be rewarded later. Fortunately I become wet already between my fat black thighs when I found a young white man and take him with me.
Thinking of what would happen within the next hour arouse me a lot. By the moment we're in the shower I'm always thrilled to feel his stiffness slid between my big fat black pussy lips; I've take care it's always smoothly shaven. I don't want to scare them off by my gray pubic hair. It's mostly quick, but when this horny young white man started to pump me, I desirous joined him; feeling my huge black ass bumping against the wet shower wall excite me tremendous.
Sometimes, when I notify the young white man is shy, I turn around and bend forwards to the shower wall and let him take my old fat black pussy from behind. I know he doesn't want to be watched while getting rid of his lecherous need. I know, when he's done with it, he become more freely. In that case I let the shower flow, feeling the splashing water upon my massive back and ass and the flowing over my face. It's then a different kind of feeling when I feel the young white man's hard rod stick inside of me. Because the water running over my head distracts me and it gives some other experience to be penetrated. Mostly, when I stand in that position, I can feel the arms of the young white man reach around my wasteful upper body, grabbing my dangling large black boobs. I like it when he does so.
Mostly within the minute I can hear the cry of liberation from the young white man. At that moment I got filled, filled with pleasure and with a lot of sperm from the horny young white man. When I look at his happy face I know I have a lot of pleasure to become. In both cases it's important I clean my old fat black pussy very good; I try to press as many semen out of it because I have some other delight in mind.
Sometimes I like to take the horny young whites hard on between my big mouth lips, it depends. Once a young white man had such a gorgeous dick I liked to suck this delicious right away. I went on my knees in front of him and start to massage his gorgeous. I also then let the water flow; I know it give some distraction to the young white man to last it some longer before he drops his load into my mouth. I usually extensively lick his dick first from the bottom up to the top and down again before I put my big mouth lips around it. With my tongue I explore the swollen head, nibble on it and begin to suck it.
I know some woman don't like it but I find it pleasing when the young white man place both hands on my head; guiding me to satisfy his urgent need. Also the cry of liberation announces me to get ready to receive his semen into my mouth. I know he's watching me at the moment his load squirts into my mouth. Afterwards I raise my head and give him my biggest smile. Knowing he like it and giving him the idea that he overflowed my mouth with his sperm I open my mouth a little, letting his semen dripping out of it; just enough. Just enough, because I also know he will be exited to see me swallow it. And I will give him that pleasure, knowing he would be more willing to do special pleasurable things with me later. So I bend my head a little more backwards, open my mouth a little more so he can see his hot sticky production in it and swallow all of it. And when I tell him after that it tasted exceptional I'm guaranteed for some special treatment later on. I take care that I brush my mouth explicitly afterwards.
I see all this as a foreplay, the real pleasure and fulfillment of my needs need to be come yet. And I don't mean it selfish; I know the young horny white man will divert himself with my old fat black body extensively. I'll always be aware that the young white man becomes what he wants.
After we leave the shower and dry us, it's time to explore each body detailed; mostly we went to the bed room but every now and then we stay in the bath room. It depends how horny the young white man is after he spilled his first donation or how strong my urge is. The first time however, we stay in the bathroom.