Please, don't judge me; I'm just a very warm person with her physical needs who do something with it.
I'm a fat black old woman, in a few weeks becoming 62 and divorced 14 years ago. It was a hard time, after a marriage for 23 years I was abandoned for another woman by my husband. Never expected it and it took a some time to recover from it. My marriage was childless and after my husband left me, life seemed very lonely. I was always a very direct physical woman and over the years I thought I accomplished to the sexual needs of my husband. I still call him my husband although another woman own him now, he still is mine, I think.
I picked up my life again, tried to find peace in my new circumstances and provide some happiness. The only thing I couldn't provide was the warm intimacy with my husband. May I thought I grew over it; I didn't. I missed it a lot and I began to look around. As I told you, I'm a very plump woman, call it awesomely fat. I'm very massy, not just in the hips but everywhere. I'm not the type to attract the eyes of the beholder but more the type for those who won't go for the common type.
I'm aware what attract most of the eyes are my huge boobs; in my earlier days I've considered to made them some sizes smaller but my husband wouldn't let me. I gave up diets because over the years I've used to my excessive fat figure. What I do is take the necessary care of myself; I never go on the street without make up and proper dressing. I'm living in the sunny state and mostly wear light garments. Dark red and dark green or yellow fits me the most. Once in a while I visit a beauty salon where I have my hair done, my nails done and get rid of the unwanted hair in my face.
I was jealous of all the couples I saw when I was out. And I was jealous of the younger single women because I thought they anyway had a better chance to find someone to fulfill their needs as I did. When I was sitting on one of the many tea gardens and looked at the young men passing by; some skinny, some well build. I was thinking what plenty of opportunities they would have in future to enjoy their sexual urge. I often imagined how it would be if one of these young men would pleasure me. And what most titillated me were the young white men; I imaged their hard white dicks on my dark black skin and often dreamed of it. And as the time passed, the fantasy grew.
I've noticed sometimes young white men were looking at me; or, better said, at my large boobs. Some very young, in their twenties, some in their thirties. It could be that my growing fantasy had part in it because I began to observe these young white men more. I sure wanted to give them the opportunity to play with them as long as they were willing to grant me in my needs. The urge of fulfill this wish of my made me hot brained. I puzzled how I could realize my fantasy. I saw just one option, suggesting them I wouldn't reject if they like to play with them; my black large boobs were available to fulfill their wishes.
And that's what I did; surprisingly it worked. I always wear blouses and leave the upper two buttons open so there's a fair sight at the cleavage of my large black boobs. And when I see such a young white man staring at them I first made an every day talk with him; searching of some interest from him for me. And as he do, it's rather easy to take him home with me. When I notice certain incertitude at the young white man on the way home I divert him; it's easy. I look at him unperceived and rejoice myself with the thought what delightful things to do with the young white man.
Think what you want, but like may others I can't ignore my sexual needs. And I'm certain; some females of my age feel the same but haven't got the daring to give in to it. And I did and it's very rewarding for me. Don't misunderstand me, I don't pick up every day some young white man of the street, I don't think there are that many who fancy an old fat overweight black woman like me. I only got seven of these young white men in eleven years. The last young white man visits me over a year now. Sometimes he stays over for the night. I'm aware and experienced enough to know I don't get that lucky that it's forever. After it's over it stays quiet for quite a while until some other young white man has interest in my awesome boobs. And if so, I savor the moments without worrying about what become later.
When I take some young white man home we first always take a shower. That's something I find important, hygiene. When we undress in the bathroom there's always that high-strung tensing. When I notify the young white man is a bit nervous I try to ease him. Half undressed I ask him to help me to remove my underwear. The first piece he removes is my big bra. I have ones with hooks on the front. For me useful because I can't reach behind my back because of my excessive old fat body. Once unhooked my heavy huge black boobs pop out of my big bra. One thing I noticed, they're all tit grabbers; fixed on my huge boobs, not really know what to do with them. These wobbly, fleshy dark peaces of meat of mine are very sensitive and the way they are pulled, kneaded or sucked by some deserve better. The young white men need education from me for that part.
And they are all the same; they've got a lot in stock, usually impatient at the first time. When we are completely undressed, I obtrusively feel his magnify hard dick pressing against my huge black fat belly. For me, not to let it be a routine, I choose to vary in different ways.
When I notify the young white man has big need I let him penetrate me quickly. I usably have an little stool standing in the shower and, while leaning back against the shower wall, I place one foot on that little stool to be accessible to let this young white man release himself from that big need. I know that it will be rewarded later. Fortunately I become wet already between my fat black thighs when I found a young white man and take him with me.
Thinking of what would happen within the next hour arouse me a lot. By the moment we're in the shower I'm always thrilled to feel his stiffness slid between my big fat black pussy lips; I've take care it's always smoothly shaven. I don't want to scare them off by my gray pubic hair. It's mostly quick, but when this horny young white man started to pump me, I desirous joined him; feeling my huge black ass bumping against the wet shower wall excite me tremendous.