The two people know who they are.
They had only been chatting about it for a little over five minutes and already Jonathan could sense her reluctance. One moment she was so certain and the next all her insecurities forced their way forward again. He wasn't confident either and her tentativeness only tempted him to leave things just as they were. He didn't want to spoil anything but knew the chance for them to take things further was too good to miss and purposely he put the ball firmly in her court.
Jonathan:
You can't keep changing your mind, Kate. It has to be something we both decide to do and then stick with; you know that. I'm not about to force you into anything but I really do want to be with you.
There was a pause he tried to ignore.
Kate:
Yes, ok, yes I'm sure. We've talked about it on and off for almost three months; I really want to do this too.
Jonathan:
I'll make the arrangements. It's going to be wonderful but however much I want to be with you I can't make your decision for you, you understand that don't you?
Kate:
Yes, I know, it's just ... I don't want to spoil what we have; do you think that'll happen?
His fingers flew over the keyboard as he thought about all the things the two of them had discussed from one end of the country to the other.
Jonathan:
No I don't, not if we don't want it to. Like you said we've talked a lot and I hope from that you know me well enough to realize I won't force you to do anything.
Kate:
I do, it's not you, it's me, it's always been me and my insecurities, you know that. I still can't understand what it is you see in me.
They had exchanged photos the first time they 'met' six months earlier and Jonathan thought she was beautiful. Since then their conversations had been getting steamier and steamier.
Recently divorced, Kate had wandered into a chat room he frequented. They had struck up a conversation on her second visit and had soon moved on to private chats on MSN.
At first she had been shy, the messages stilted, cautious, but gradually her inhibitions and fears receded. He remembered the first time their words had gotten a little hot, had saved the entire dialogue and read it many times since.
Kate:
Are you still there?
Jonathan:
Yeah, I'm sorry; I got distracted thinking about you and what I want to do to you. You're beautiful, hot, and I want to be with you, touch you, kiss you, it's as simple as that.
A blushing smiley appeared on the screen and he laughed.
Kate:
Oh you. I'm still worried you're going to be disappointed. Maybe we should keep things just the way they are.
Jonathan:
Kate, no! No way, you agreed, please.
His answer was typed almost immediately. Kate could go round and round in circles for hours and he had no intention of letting her do so this time.
There was silence for a minute or two and, his heart beating a mile a minute, Jonathan waited, wondering what was going through her mind but not having the confidence to ask.
Jonathan:
Kate?
Kate:
Yes?
The one word showed her hesitancy, she had said once 'why use one word when fifteen will do.'
Jonathan:
Turn on your cam.
He waited, watching for the instruction to appear on the screen, clicked 'accept' and then, after a few seconds of nothingness, she was there her face clouded with anxiety. He sent his own invitation so she could see, however many miles there were between them, that he was there for her.
Jonathan:
Please, Kate, let's do this.
He saw her concern but she nodded her head as she began to relax gradually and he breathed a sigh of relief.
Kate:
Ok. Arrange everything, let me know and I promise I'll be there.
Jonathan:
You won't regret it, Kate, I'll make sure of it.
Kate:
I have to go, but I'll write, ok?
Jonathan:
Oh, ok.
He inserted a sad smiley.
Jonathan:
Are you sure you're ok?
Kate:
Yes, don't worry. I won't let you down, I promise.
The webcam blinked off and he was alone. Running a hand through his short hair as he let out a deep sigh he began to think. Maybe she was right, he didn't want to hurry her but he had a feeling if they didn't do this now they never would, and a chance at happiness for both of them could be lost. Of course, they might equally decide a one-night stand now and again was all they wanted from each other.
He ran his hand down to his throbbing cock. She always made him so hard, even if they only talked, and, as he had told her, the chance to be with her, touch her, kiss her, God, he could almost cum just thinking about it.
Clicking on his favourites Jonathan found the hotel he had chosen for their first meeting. Set in acres of beautiful gardens he could imagine them walking out to a deserted bench, sitting to talk, moving closer to each other. They would kiss, slowly, gently at first and then more passionately. She would move her hand over his erection, running her fingers up its length as their kisses continued. Canting his hips would help her touch all of it as his own fingers brushed her breasts, causing them to harden beneath her clothes, making her moan into his mouth.
"Ohhh, fuck, I've got to stop this or I'll never get anywhere booked." He resolutely removed his hand and pushed the images he had created to the back of his mind. It was still early enough for him to put a call through to the hotel and he quickly punched in the number wondering how far in advance their main suites would be booked up.
~*~
Kate's breath caught in her throat as she looked at the scene before her. The hotel, set up on a hill above beautiful gardens, had a turreted section, sweeping horseshoe shaped steps leading up to huge double doors, and an exterior befitting its history as a vital fortress and stronghold.
She had been gazing at the view for just a few minutes when she realized she was no longer alone.
"So, what do you think?"
"Oh, it's amazing, thank you, Jonathan." She smiled at the man who had come quietly up beside her.
"You are even more beautiful in person." She felt herself being pulled closer to him and then his lips touched hers for the first time and, unable to stop herself, she stiffened slightly. "It's ok. Just relax." His voice was soft, loving and she nodded as he captured her lips once more. This time she melted against him as he gently, tenderly kissed her.
"Shall we go and announce ourselves then? We can get into the room now."
Already there was a huskiness in his voice and Kate watched as Jonathan checked his watch before nodding. For the entire train journey she had been certain he wouldn't turn up, wouldn't look as he had in the pictures, or would see her and say 'sorry, I don't want to do this any more'. Even though she had seen him on the webcam her self-esteem was so low she was sure she had been duped.
He took her hand and eased her along the path as she grasped her overnight bag tightly against her, trying to calm her breathing and not spoil anything.
"Good afternoon, Sir, Madam, welcome to the Royale."
"Hi. We have a booking, Mr and Mrs Lyndon."
Kate managed not to gasp, a married couple, she hadn't thought of that. In fact, she now realized, she hadn't thought about the practicalities at all, all she had focussed on was the chances of one of them, probably her, being a disappointment.
"Oh yes, of course, Sir, The Suite Royale." The receptionist smiled at both of them and then handed over an ornate key with a large tag on it.
"Thank you." Jonathan looked at Kate, winking as he did so and she felt herself smile.
"A porter will take your bags. The restaurant begins serving at 7.00 and finishes at 11.00. Enjoy your stay at The Royale."
A young man, smartly liveried, touched Kate's bag and she surrendered it. Jonathan had a similar sized case and both were carried for them as they were directed towards the lift.
Not a word was spoken. Jonathan's hand on her back was a reassuring presence and Kate realized her doubts were already disappearing. She turned slightly so she could look into his eyes and all she saw was the honesty she had recognized on line. Leaning against him she moved so her mouth was next to his ear.
"Thank you."