The next day Cathy got a phone call from Tracy.
"Hey," she said, "don't let Trish freak you out. She's uh, a little too into it sometimes. You know? She forgets that this is a pretty freakin' wild set-up she's got and it's not so easy to just jump right in."
"Did you?" Cathy asked. Tracy had always seemed rather sensible and normal to Cathy. The idea that she was involved in this with Trish confused Cathy. If it had only been Trish, Cathy would not have been so tempted. But with Tracy being involved, it made it seem somehow more acceptable. Marginally so, anyway.
"It took some time," Tracy replied. "I guess if I was satisfied at home though, I never would have been tempted in the first place. What Trish did was make me aware of how much I still wanted it."
"Yeah," Cathy agreed. Her own experience with Tony had only come about because there was something missing in her sex life.
"Anyway, don't lose sight of that," Tracy went on. "I know she comes on strong, but I really meant it yesterday when I said I was getting the best sex of my life." There was a long pause. Cathy felt compelled to say something, but had no idea what.
"I really did get off on it," Cathy said at last. "Giving him that blow job. I can't believe that I didn't remember how much I liked--no loved--doing it."
"Yeah, that's kinda my point," Tracy said. "We're missing things that we shouldn't be. We're doing without things that were once so important to us." There was another short pause.
"You know," Tracy continued, "when my kids were little, I didn't have time to notice. But once they were all in school full time, well, I've started feeling like things were missing. At first I thought it was the kids themselves I was missing. And I guess I was to a large extent. But I also started realizing that the kids distracted me from noticing the other things that I didn't have anymore. I guess when Trish started showing me those videos, I was already well aware that I needed something more. I have to admit though, I wouldn't have ever guessed I'd get mixed up in a thing like this!" She laughed.
"That's just it," Cathy told her. "If it was just a little something on the side that we were talking about, I probably would. At least--I mean, I know I already did it and all. But that would be, well, I won't say normal. But at least not so... so... involved," Cathy couldn't put her finger on the right words. She knew what she meant, but couldn't think of a way to express it to Tracy .
"I understand," said Tracy . "The whole thing freaked me out a bit at first too. But the reason I still do it is that you can't get all of this just from an affair or a fling. Yeah, it's a bit over the top and all, but now that I've gotten used to that, I live in a state of constant sexual turn on. If I'm not over at Tony's getting laid, I'm watching the videos and masturbating. I mean, you know how I feel about giving blow jobs, right? And I'm doing it anyway because the whole thing is such a mind-blowing turn on that I can live with a minor inconvenience once in a while to keep it going."
Cathy realized that Tracy was, in her own way, pushing Cathy as much as Trish had. Why did either one of them really care if Cathy was in on their games or not? Cathy wasn't going to spill the beans, obviously. She had been filmed giving a blow job, so Trish and Tracy didn't have to worry about that.
If the whole thing was so great, why did they need to get Cathy in on it? It would continue to be awesome without her, right? She said as much to Tracy .
"Well," Tracy replied. "For Trish I think it really is an obsession. She's obsessed with blow jobs. Watching them, not giving them, that is. Every girl that works in her store she wants to tape and anyone else she can get as well. You were quite a lucky find for her," Tracy added.
"Anyway, you, me and Margaret are the only ones besides her cashiers that she's gotten so far. I think she's said something to Amy and maybe even Kim and Janet, but I don't know how far she's willing to go. But she really does want to get anyone she can on tape. She's really obsessed with it."
"What about you?" Cathy asked.
"Me? I think that I just want to have someone with me who isn't obsessed. Who makes it feel okay to keep doing it, because I really do want to keep doing it. But, I don't know," Tracy paused a moment. "I don't relate to Trish's obsession, but I don't want to walk away. I guess I thought if someone else, someone who would have fun like me, got in on it, it might seem a little more, I don't know, reasonable?" Cathy could almost hear Tracy shrug over the phone.
The words rang true in Cathy's ears. She could see that Trish was a little scary with the whole set-up. But Tracy was only in it to get a missing piece of her life back. She didn't want to get caught up in the obsessive part. And how to keep the situation feeling normal enough not to scare her away? Bring in a friend, extra ballast to keep things from getting too far out of line.
Tracy needed a friend that would help her rationalize it.
Before this call, Cathy was pretty sure that she was going to say no to Trish. She wasn't going to let anyone make videos of her sucking cock, no matter how good her orgasms were, no matter how much she missed the feel of a man inside her mouth.
But now, well... Tracy seemed almost to be pleading with her. And it wasn't like Cathy hadn't been tempted anyway. The thought of having Tony in her mouth again was a powerful incentive in itself. The videos too, were enticing. She had been so close yesterday to giving in. Now Tracy was asking Cathy to do it so she wouldn't feel so alone.
"Anybody home right now?" Cathy asked her.
"No, not for about two more hours," Tracy replied. "Why?"
"Do you have any videos?"
"Uh, yeah," Tracy said with a slight hesitation.
"I'm on my way over. I want to see more before I make up my mind." Cathy hung up the phone and thought for a moment. Was she going to do this? She still wasn't sure, but she was insatiably curious about seeing more of the videos. At least she had an excuse to see what she wanted to see and still not commit herself.
* * * * *
Twenty minutes later Tracy was leading Cathy to her computer. Tracy had brought in another chair so they could both sit. The video on the screen was the one of Trish that they had started to watch the day before. Cathy was surprised.
"Trish gave you copies of herself?" Cathy asked.
"Oh, sure," Tracy said as if it was no big deal. "We've both seen each other plenty of times. I haven't seen you yet," Tracy added, "but only because Trish hasn't burned a copy of it yet."