She was out again. Late. Always late. I lay awake in bed, trying to read, but instead thinking "Where is she? Why doesn't she want to stay at home with me? Why does she have to be so late?" I couldn't concentrate on my book as I lay there alone in an empty house.
Things hadn't exactly been perfect since the wedding. Her career had taken off while mine had faltered. We still did the same things, but I could tell there was some resentment there on her part. Some gradual loss of respect. We argued more often, and the sex which before the marriage had been going great, became less frequent.
We'd tried to spice things up by telling each other our fantasies. She asked me to be rough with her, to force myself onto her. We tried it one night but I was too concerned about hurting her and kept asking if she was ok, which spoiled the fantasy for her and she cut me off in a huff and we both slept unsatisfied and hurt.
I confessed to her some submissive fantasy I had about being tied up by a woman, which we never acted out like hers. Instead she had me masturbate while she described a scenario which was ok but I think she was still angry about me fucking up hers. We did this pillow-talk thing a few times, but she put a stop to it one night, accusing me of being selfish. I sensed there was some disappointment in her that my fantasies weren't so masculine, and it made me regret being open with her.
When I lost my job last month our relationship hit a new low. We hadn't had sex since, our arguments grew worse, and she'd taken to regularly going out after work with her workmates drinking. When I complained she'd snapped at me, "When you have a job, then you can go out. I work hard all week paying the bills, I deserve a bit of fun."
Her fun had lasted to two in the morning this night.
I heard her keys at the door and switched off my light and pretended to be asleep, lying face down. I didn't want her to know I'd been staying up worried. I didn't want to give her the satisfaction of seeing how hurt I was.
I felt her get into bed beside me. For a while she did nothing, then without warning she rolled and put her legs over mine, and her body on top. I could feel her breasts pressing into my back , her pussy on my ass, and smell the alcohol on her breath from her mouth on the back of my neck.
"Do you know what time it is", I murmured, pretending to wake.
"Sssshhh", she whispered.
She started grinding her pussy into my ass, thrusting in an out as if she were a man. I wasn't sure how to react, but it had been so long since we last had sex I decided to go along with her role play. She continued in silence for some time, pushing her weight down on my ass with her pussy. I found myself moving to meet her rhythms, wondering if this is how it felt for women. She kept going, kissing and then lightly biting the back of my neck.
After a while I felt her hand snake down and her finger pressed against my asshole. I tensed at the sensation. She was drunk and wasn't so gentle, and her fingernail hurt as it pushed, trying to open me. As I reacted in pain she brought her finger around and hooked it into my mouth. I could smell my own shit on the finger which was unpleasant, but it was clear she expected me to lube it with my saliva, so I sucked it as best I could. As I sucked her finger she gave a little slighly derisive laugh, as if this had confirmed something in her mind. I didn't like that laugh, but thought maybe this is part of the game and didn't stop sucking.