A week went by. We were both too busy with work, to talk about what happened, but I would be lying if I hadn't jerked off half a dozen times a day thinking about it.
I was incredibly conflicted. On the one hand it would eat me up inside whenever I thought about them together, but then I would get turned on by the very same idea and it became all I thought about when I jerked off. I began searching for porn about it and only getting off to porn that featured women who were similar to my wife. I would fantasize that it was her in the porn getting the piss fucked out of her.
I was currently stroking as I watched this guy drilling a woman who had a similar body type as my wife from behind. I watched how he just manhandled her in a way I had never manhandled a woman in my life.
I thought back to all the women in my life and none of them had ever reacted that way to my dick. Almost all of them had cheated on me at some point and later told me how small my dick was.
It occurred to me that maybe I was better off letting my wife fuck him. Maybe if I was a part of it, it would be better than her sneaking around behind my back which would create resentment and eventually she would just pity me and move on.
I knew she would never get back with Colin, because he cheated on her non-stop and treated her like shit. Clearly the sex was the only thing that she saw in him. Maybe there was an agreement we could figure out where I could also benefit from her fucking him once in a while.
I couldn't deny that it turned me on more than anything else in the world and if it was inevitable it's better if I had some level of control and made it like something we were doing together. I didn't like Colin insulting me though. When my wife did it, she knew what to say and it turned me on, but when he did it, I would feel almost too pathetic.
I felt myself getting closer to orgasm as the video continued and suddenly I heard: "So this is what you've been doing every night instead of coming to bed with me!"
My wife had entered the room and I hadn't noticed. I thought she was asleep. I scrambled to pull my boxers up, but she sat down on the couch beside me and stopped.
"It's okay!"
I sat there staring at her. My erection throbbing. Not sure what to do. She reached out and slid her hand into my shorts and held my erection. I shuddered.
"You rather watch porn than come upstairs with me."
I shook my head.
"Then why didn't you come upstairs and at least try? It's Friday night. Guess what I was upstairs doing hoping you would come up?"
She took her hand off my dick so that I could smell her pussy on her fingers. My erection twitched.
"That turns you on, doesn't it?"
I nodded my head.
"I already came, but I was thinking I would let you fuck me since you're the best husband in the world for letting me fuck Colin."
"Did you?"
"Oh no! Not yet."
"But you will?"
"I think so. It clearly turns you on. And it's just sex baby. I would never leave you for him. I know I said some pretty nasty things, but that was just to turn you on. He may have a huge cock and know how to fuck me, but he is half the man you are."
"Really?"
"Yes. You're so brave to let me fuck him. It shows how strong our bond is. Do you want to fuck me tonight?"
"Yes, but will you feel it?"
"Sure. If I'm on top. It will be... nice."
That word. Nice. That's how she described sex with me. I'm sure it isn't a word she would use to describe how Colin fucks her.
"Or you can use the dildo if you like."
"I like hearing the sounds you make with it. The sounds you make with him."
"They fill me up. They stretch me so it hurts, but in a good way."
"I don't..."
She opened up her hand. We both looked at my cock. The same length as her palm.
"Not the same. But we have an emotional connection that makes it good too. Just different."
"Tell me how it's different."
"And make you cum right away? Don't you even want to fuck me?"
"I do. But I also like to please you and you look so bored when I fuck you."
"I'm not bored! Let's go upstairs and let me give you some pleasure!"
Just then her cell rang. I deflated. Who could be calling her this late? If it was Colin I was going to be disappointed and a little angry.
"It's Kelly! We were texting earlier. It will just take a few minutes. She saw me leaving the club with Colin and get into his car apparently. She wants details."
I looked at her shocked. "I can wait upstairs."