The title of this work is obviously stolen from Tina Turner's infamous song originally released in 1984 but still often played on many radio stations today. The title is probably not perfect for this story, but pretty close. This story contains cheating; if that disturbs you move on.
I've never before tried to write a story as a first person account by a woman, so I thought that I'd give it a try here. That will reduce the scoring since the majority of "fans" of the Literotica "Loving Wives" category are men and they are much more tolerant of male cheaters who write in first person than women ones even though for every woman cheater in a heterosexual relationship there is also a male one -- I've never been able to figure that out, but then again I'm not the smartest guy I the world.
I was raised with normal Midwestern United States religious, cultural, and societal values. I never questioned them growing up, maybe because I didn't become an independent thinker until much later in life. It's ironic that the person who helped me most in becoming an independent thinker is someone who probably would have most disliked the results of that. Fortunately, like more than 50% of female cheaters, I -- Deborah Winston -- was never caught.
First a note about statistics; if you do a search on the Internet you will find a wide variety of statistics about what percentage of cheaters in heterosexual monogamous relationships get exposed. For example the Daily Mail in the UK ran a story in 2012 that supposedly relied upon an actual survey of 3000 cheaters that showed only 5% of female cheaters and 17% of male cheaters were ever exposed. Another supposed actual survey in the US several years later got vastly different results: 47.8% (can you really accurately evaluate something like this to a decimal of a percentage point?) of female cheaters got exposed and 39% of male cheaters.
There are other alleged survey results that fall between the two extremes set forth above, and I for one am not willing to believe that female cheaters in the UK are so much more careful, or have so many fewer cheating sessions when they cheat, than in the US that the exposure rate is 1/10th that in the US. Regardless, the only thing that I've gleaned from all of the Internet statistics is that if I'm careful that I have less than a 50% chance of being caught.
But why would I cheat given that the Midwestern US religious, cultural, and societal values that I grew up with that scorn cheaters? I can only answer for my particular situation.
I guess that I was pretty normal for a decent looking woman growing up with my background. One quality that I and many of my female friends had was that we went along with expectations of our parents and society. Those expectations included getting married if you fell in love -- assuming that you knew what love meant.
I married right out of college -- like many of my peers -- to my college boyfriend who was a year older than I am. Ajax Winston is an intellectual man -- someone who I consider much smarter than I am -- and one who knew that he would be successful and did become successful. He didn't have the normal view of traditional male-female expectations that most of the males that I knew had at the time that I met Ajax, and he was the first person in my relatively sheltered life that gave me the intellectual curiosity to start to determine what I wanted out of life and to think independently. Thinking independently in a relationship was something new to me -- for example my mother, both grandmothers, and two aunts were politically in tune with their husbands. Ajax convinced me that that wasn't necessarily the way things should be, and in fact although our politics are not diametrically opposed they differ significantly so that we have voted for different people in eight out of the last ten significant (not just national ones but state and local ones included) elections.
Anyway, since Ajax had many desirable qualities, treated me very well, was certain to be successful, was adored by my family, and seemed besotted with me, I agreed to marry him. It was only after three years of marriage when I read "The Unbearable Lightness of Being" by Milan Kundera that I started to question things. By then I was four months pregnant with our first child, liked many aspects of my life, "loved" Ajax to the extent that I thought possible, and had no desire to "rock the boat;" yet I strangely felt unfulfilled. Attempting to later intellectually evaluate my dissatisfaction I ascribed my new state as the result of my pregnancy hormones and the Kundera book.
Fortunately my delivery of my daughter Astrid was uncomplicated, as was my recovery. Working with a personal trainer and getting assistance from both my mother and mother-in-law within six months after delivery I felt better than before my pregnancy. One reason that I felt better was because I had enjoyed nursing Astrid.
I went back to work when Astrid was six months old, blessed with good child care at my workplace which I took advantage of four days a week, and weekly alternating one day each of childcare by my mother and mother-in-law both of whom considered it a blessing rather than a nuisance to take care of their only grandchild once a fortnight.
I worked as a paralegal in a large law firm which had strict rules against fraternization between attorneys and staff. I believe that was fortunate as far as I was concerned because there were a number of aggressive male attorneys who seemed to consider me more desirable than I considered myself, which could have led to messy situations without the strict anti-fraternization policies which were enforced by a senior partner who nobody wanted to mess with because of his stature, physicality, and status (which is different than stature).
One lawsuit that my firm had required legal expertise that it didn't have in-house; therefore my firm brought Roger Morgan on board as co-counsel. Roger was an attorney at another local firm who had the requisite level of expertise in the subject matter of the suit but didn't have the ego problem that many lawyers have so he was happy to 2nd chair the case and let a trial attorney from my law firm be first chair.
As the suit progressed I became in charge of handling documents for discovery and ultimately for trial. I worked closely with Roger. Roger always spoke almost reverently about his family and I could see why when I met Roger's wife Cornelia and his two young kids at his office one day when they popped in for a visit. Roger was always a perfect gentleman and a very good attorney; but he was also something else. He was as hot as a man could be -- at least in the opinion of the many women at my workplace of all ages and marital statuses who commented about him.
While a number of other women in my workplace were vocal in their lust for Roger I never said a word about that aspect of his being, although I felt the same attraction to him that the vocal women expressed.
During the course of the discovery process I often attended depositions that he conducted and handled the documents for him. We spent a significant amount of time together -- just the two of us between breaks in the deposition and travelling to and from them -- doing that. We were always respectful and circumspect, yet exceedingly cordial, in all of our dealings with each other. Then an unusual circumstance arose.
We had a deposition scheduled in a suburb of the city our firms were in and Roger picked me up at 9:00 a. m. for the thirty minute drive to the deposition location. We went over documents and what he wanted to accomplish on our way there -- nothing out of the ordinary, except that I had a skirt on that accentuated my legs very well and that I often got compliments on. As we were riding Roger put sunglasses on even though it was cloudy.
The deposition was of an out-of-town witness in a conference room at the Four Seasons hotel in the suburb and was likely to last the maximum of seven hours called for by the court rules of procedure. However, the witness was exceptionally forthright and the deposition was concluded by noon. Roger had gotten everything he wanted and was in a good mood.
After we both packed up our documents when we got back to his car the day had turned from cloudy to bright sunshine and we both were in a good mood. After we stowed our documents in his trunk he asked "Since we got done early would you like to go to lunch?"
"What did you have in mind?" I innocently asked, although for some reason in the bright sunshine and with his tie loosened he looked even better than normal and maybe my question was Freudian.
"That's a really open-ended question," he laughed.
"How so?" I responded with a big smile.
"Well it could have other connotations than eating a meal at a restaurant," he replied this time without the laugh but with a grin.
"Well give my supposedly open-ended question your most honest answer."
After a pregnant pause he replied "What if my answer is brutally honest?"
"I'm a big girl, I can deal with brutal honesty," I replied with a sneer on my face.
After an even longer pregnant pause he said "I'd like to go back to the Four Seasons, get a room, and fuck your brains out."
After yet another pregnant pause during which we both stared at each other I asked "Your treat?"
Through a diabolical smile he replied, "Oh, most definitely my treat."
Shocking myself so profoundly that I didn't even give the situation conscious thought until much later I answered "OK -- but no PDA -- and no love, just lust."
Roger shrugged his shoulders "OK," and we walked back to the hotel without touch or talk. We didn't touch until we got into the elevator to go up to room 1412 when he planted a ten second kiss on me which was so steamy that it caused smoke to blow out of my ears; and then no other touching until he opened the door to 1412 and carried me over the threshold without objection from me and without either of us saying anything.