I am trying to get all of this down in some sort of order. Its harder than I thought. My wife had been drugged, four men had fucked her while she was drugged, three of them right in front of me, a fourth after I had left. The drug she had been given was ecstasy in huge quantities, so much so that it could have easily killed her. All of this happened a week ago. Thank God she is free from infection. She had a series of tests for STDs and she was clear on all of them. We talked and talked for hours about what happened. I wanted to do something to the bastards who did this to her but she wanted to let it go, move on, forget about it. Like I could ever forget the sight of my wife being filled with three cocks! Not going to happen!
But I don't blame her and that is the key. She had no control over what she was doing. None at all. She was even hallucinating, such was the potency of the drug she had unknowingly taken. A week later, things were calm. I sometimes looked at her with a mixture of compassion and thinly disguised revulsion, quickly hidden if she looked my way. We talked it about it at length after leaving the doctor's office. We talked again when her test results came back, Dave had really pushed them through for me. We decided to never speak of it again. As far as I was concerned, I had a faithful, loving wife who had been victim of a horrendous crime.
We had made love a few times and it still wasn't the same. I had those images in my head to contend with and she was not as responsive as she had been. I accepted this as a result of what had happened to her and hoped time would be a great healer. We had plenty of that ahead of us.
I had returned to work a few days later, trying to avoid the bastards who did this to her. It wasn't possible but I faced the leers, the jeers and the suggestive comments, safe in the knowledge that we would not be in this position if they had not broke the law in such a vile way. I did have one surprise though. A man from Mergers and Acquisitions came to see me. He was so uncomfortable stood in front of me. I barely knew this man so I was intrigued. He just came out with it.
"I....I fucked your wife."
I reddened with anger. "And what? Come to gloat have you? Come to rub my face in it? Well it isn't going to work so you might as well just leave now." How dare he?
"No no!" he stammered. "That's not it. I just found out it was your wife. I had no idea. I came to say how truly sorry I am. I would never.....look, you don't know me that well but I promise you, a man's wife is sacred. I had no idea. She....well, you don't want details, I am sure. She didn't act like a wife."
I stuck out my hand, almost smiling as he flinched back. "Thank you" I sighed. "It's good to meet an honest man." He shook my hand, looking relieved. "That took a lot of guts. I appreciate it."
"So" he continued, nervously. "Are you and your wife ok after...after what happened?"
I smiled an ironic smile. "No," I told him the truth. "But we will be."
"Man!" He exclaimed. "You are a bigger man than I am. How do you get back from something like that?"
So I told him. I told him everything, swearing him to secrecy first. He was appalled, to say the least. I also told him that she didn't know who the fourth man was and that I certainly wasn't going to tell her, at which he looked even more relieved. Again, he said sorry, walking away with a mostly clear conscience. And so life went on for a whole week. I was feeling positive again, not totally positive but I knew we could make it back from this. In fact, my wife was meeting me for lunch that day. I was going to take her to a little cafe we used to go to in our student days. I thought surroundings like that, where the spark of our love was born, might help to rekindle the flame, so to speak. I was really looking forward to it. I was until I checked my mail.
Honey
So sorry but I won't make lunch. Something has come up and I couldn't say no.
Love you
Tinkerbell xxx
My heart sank. I had really been looking forward to lunch with my wife. I sighed and said "oh well" to myself, sitting down at my desk and losing myself in work. I did think the wording was a little off, "Couldn't say no" , but we had enough concerns without trying to correct each others grammar. I smiled at that and started on the reports on my desk. An hour went by with me sailing easily through simple clerical work when at five minutes before 12 the door to my office opened and I looked up. My heart leaped to see my Debbie framed in the doorway. She looked absolutely stunning. I looked more closely and something about her appearance triggered a worm of unease deep inside. She was wearing a beige raincoat, buttoned up to the neck. I looked briefly out of the window, no sign of rain, just a typical sunny summer day. So why the coat, I wondered. It finished about four inches above her knees, showing a lot of her shapely, black hose-clad legs. I was surprised to see her here in the office, where the perpetrators of her rape would be. I had most definitely not arranged to meet her here.
"Darling!" I exclaimed, standing up the moment I saw her. "I thought you couldn't make it?"
She walked towards me, slowly, her eyes flicking momentarily to the clock on the wall. The bottom of her coat opened slightly as she moved, giving me a brief glimpse of stocking top. I remember thinking she must have a really short skirt on.
"I am not here for lunch, John" she said, a serious expression on her beautiful face. Its funny how details come back to you, isn't it? Her beautiful face had a lot more makeup on than usual. Her full lips painted a deep crimson, her eyes smoky and sultry. The effect was overwhelming. "You had better sit down," She continued. "We need to talk."
That worm of unease had grown into a decidedly sick feeling in my stomach. No conversation that begins with 'we need to talk' ever goes well. I sat down and watched as she sat opposite. I got a whiff of her perfume, as intoxicating as the sight of her.
"Honey," she looked levelly at me. "This is going to be so hard for you and I want you to know in advance that I really am so very sorry. I also want you to know that when I say that I love you, I genuinely mean it. I truly do. I love you more than anything and the last thing I ever wanted to do was to hurt you but this is going to be very hurtful and again, I am so very sorry for it."
That sick feeling grew into a burning, shaking desperation. "What are you saying?" I croaked. "You are leaving me?"
"No," she shook her head definitely, once again her eyes flicked to the clock on the wall. "I would never do that. I really do love you but I can't stop thinking about what happened last week, how it felt. I know I was drugged, I am not talking about emotions here. I mean the force of the physical sensations was very real and so absolutely incredible. I have never felt anything like that. I had more orgasms on that one day than I have in my entire life. I know we have made love this past week and I love making love with you, honey. I do. I love the intimacy, the closeness. I love you but it.....I am sorry...it was not at all exciting, not after what I had done. I have spent the entire week craving those feelings again, needing to feel them again. And that's why I have decided to do this."
My heart was pounding painfully in my chest. There was a roaring in my ears as her words sunk in. "Do.....d-do what?" I whispered hoarsely. I think I knew but I could not, would not, accept it.
"I have to do it again, honey" she said softly. "I can't not do it. I have to feel it all over again. I love you too much to go sneaking around behind your back. You don't deserve that, so that's why I am doing it like this. Peter has phoned me every day, telling me how much they all want to fuck me again. Oh, I tried to resist, I really did, but every time he phoned, it triggered the need more and more. So this morning, when he phoned, I couldn't say no."
Couldn't say no!
I collapsed back in the seat, my mouth hanging open. "Oh God!" I moaned plaintively. "Please, Debbie, I am begging you, please, please don't do this. Please. You are my wife. Oh God! You can't do this. You just can't.! I was crying openly now. This was an even worse nightmare than before. This was my wife coolly and determinedly telling me it was going to happen.
She placed a hand on my arm, gently, perversely lovingly, in light of her words. "I have to" she whispered. "I just have to."