Roadtrips are a great way for friends to bond. For my husband Sean and I, it was especially good to catch up with friends who had come over from New Zealand to partake in a road trip around Australia. It had been business as usual as we took in the sights, visited historic locations and drank a lot of wine. One of the more magical weekends on the trip happened to be at Margaret River in Western Australia, a premier wine growing area I had dreamed of visiting ever since I moved to Australia. It was a rather warm night in August - unusually warm actually. It meant we gathered around the campervans with our friends and we were really enjoying the company of dear Callum who I knew from an old job back at home. After a lovely meal of steak with roasted vegetable salad, we knocked back a few local wines overlooking the vineyard we happened to be staying at. It was just really pleasant and a great way to chill out.
Whilst everyone else decided to go to bed early, Callum retreated to our hotel suite. The cushy furniture was perfect for drunken lazing about. The three of us kept looking at each other, and I suddenly remembered something Sean had said a couple of years prior. You see, Callum and I had a prior history that did end rather badly and had only been really rectified in the last couple of years after Callum's marriage ended. I thought I had got the idea out of him out of my head with seemingly so much water passing under the bridge. There was Sean on one side and Callum on the other with a glass of red looking precariously like it was going to topple over and stain the pristine carpet. Sean made the move.
"Hey...Callum...there is something I feel I need to confess. You know what my past was like. I think you always knew I liked you in a slightly different way. But can you answer something for me?"
"His past" being the fact he deemed himself bisexual and in fact, dated men before he met me. Well fuck me, this is dΓ©jΓ vu. Callum looked a bit perplexed, and I don't blame him.
"You, Kylie. A close relationship, right? The way you look at her sometimes makes me think you want to fuck her and to fuck her hard too. Would I be right?"
Sean sounded quite serious. It had me worried. Callum looked at me. "I have wanted to do that for years. Ever since we ended things..."
I spat out my white wine, my face went burning red and I ran off. I hadn't been quite prepared for that answer and for it to be so forthcoming. I hid in the toilet of all places. I could overhear the two of them out there. It was like listening to a half tuned radio station, I could only just make out what they were talking about. The conversation had revolved about how happy Sean would be if Callum did indeed fuck me, and how Sean would even like to be able to watch. OH MY FUCKING GOD. Am I really hearing this???
I wanted to sink even further down the loo. I had my face in my hands and felt like my long black fingernails were somehow protecting me from the porn I could hear. I felt even more ashamed that my underwear was soaking wet and I was horny as hell. I can't just stay in the loo now, can I?
Callum had been wanting to do me for years.
The first thing I said to him when I came out was why he hadn't done something sooner. He said some bullshit about wanting to protect the apparent sanctity of our friendship. He felt I was untouchable in some way. He said he just got more confused as I continued to flourish especially given he knew my husband and I were swingers.
Callum sighed. "I can't quite believe this. I thought I would be kidding myself if I ever thought there was some chance of "going back there".
Sean had a smile on his face but had something else to say. "We are drunk. Really fucking drunk. Maybe we should sleep on it, and see how we feel in the morning".
I whispered an "okay" and said goodnight to Callum. However, I felt incredibly unsatisfied. I always get horny when I was drunk. Sean and I had sex of course, but it felt a bit odd. I wasn't satisfied and neither was he.
To my surprise, I woke without a hangover - it must have been all that water I chugged back post-coital. Post-faroutthatwasreallyfuckingbadsex more like. That was not normal form for Sean and I. I put my robe on and crept into the other bedroom. This robe was a winner. The silk would magically stick to my curves and my tits looked stunning in it. It was a gift I had received from a former lover the year before who thought it would be a good thing for me to wear when I was pregnant. But it was so sexy.
When I looked through the ajar door, Callum was lying there. I didn't realize he was awake and looking at an empty bottle of wine and a selection of porno magazines I had no idea he read. You learn new things about people on the road. Callum's room was always locked and the door was always shut when he was in there. He must have heard my footsteps and he knew straight away it was me. He rolled over and looked right at me and I felt like he had just stared into the deepest part of my soul.