Tom and Tonya talk about Sharing
Tom and Tonya have been married for five years, enough time to know each other fairly well and to begin to have thoughts about expanding their sexual experiences.
They watch a movie on Netflix where couples swap and it brings powerful emotions to the forefront.
But just jumping into swinging has given Tom cause for concern.
He is somewhat ashamed of his insecurity, but Tonya supports him.
They begin a frank discussion of their feelings and how they can manage them and move on to explore sexual meetings with new lovers -- safely and without harm to their love and their marriage.
Some talk of sex as they discuss potential options then some nice sex play at the end to reward your diligent reading.
Tom
It was just another Saturday night and Tonya, and I were sitting in watching Netflix. We've been very happily married for five years and while we were never the hard partying type, we were adventurous when the situation allowed. The movie that they were watching was becoming steamy and at the same time somewhat disturbing and he couldn't get past the feelings of butterflies in his stomach.
The movie was about a couple on vacation that are seduced by a beautiful local couple and swapping ensues. The movie wasn't pornographic but, it was hot and both he and Tonya had moved closer on the couch and were lightly stroking each other as they watched.
The movie came to climax as the next morning when, after a night of uninhibited sex with lovers other than their spouses the vacationing couple see each other for the first time. The tension rippled and he felt his heartbeat rising imagining it was Tonya facing him across that kitchen. He felt himself experiencing a range of emotions that frightened him and made him decidedly uncomfortable.
When the movie ended, they were sitting entwined on the couch but the raw emotion of the lovers on the screen had left them stunned and so they sat speechless for several moments as the closing credits ran.
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Tonya
My heart was beating so fast I was sure I was going to pass out if I didn't get hold of myself. The movie we had been watching was a torrid erotic romance where a relatively naΓ―ve couple vacations at a beach house and meets two older and experienced seducers.
As I watched the wife eventually succumb to the advances of the local couples' husband I was wet with excitement and at the same time near sick with worry. "Could I do that?" I wondered to myself. And in the final scene when they re-unite after a night of wickedness with others it seemed for a tortuously long moment that a line had been crossed and that the two had shattered their marriage. My stomach flipped and all I could think of was "What would I do? What would I say?"
Then finally, the pair went to each other and embraced, their love supreme to the temptations of the carnal and I was crying like a little girl. It was a powerful movie. Tom and I sat dumbstruck taking it all in for a long moment as the credits began to roll.
"My God!" I exhaled. "I am so excited on so many levels, what a powerful film."
We began a spirited conversation about what we had seen and how it affected us. I was shocked to hear Tom tell me how he was so moved in the final scene as well. He said he felt scared, truly scared during that moment and that revelation gave me pause. I would have to ask more about that. Later though when emotions were more settled.
As we talked about the critical element of drama in the film, where the two couples finally exchanged spouses and retired to separate bedrooms Tom again expressed how this part of the film caused him to get anxious.
I was intrigued and he seemed open to talking so I asked the natural question. "Did you imagine yourself in his place?"
He flushed red and turned his head to hide his shame for being so transparent. "Yes." He sighed.
"And you imagined me going off with someone else to be alone and intimate?" I continued.
"UGGGGGGHHHHH!" Tom let loose some combination of a grunt and a cry of desperation. "Yes, and it hurts me in a way I have never felt before. In fact I'm getting worked up again just thinking about that."
We had spoken about the idea of trying another couple, in the privacy of our home or their's, neither of us expressed and interest in a sex club scene but, I didn't recall this level of concern and asked him about it. "Baby, I know it was just fun pillow talk but, we spoke about what it might be like to try to swap with another couple. I don't remember you showing such emotion then. What's troubling you sweetie?"
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Tom
My heart was still beating with the vision of Tonya walking away with another lover without a backward glance, imaging she in place of the actress in the movie. That idea shrunk me and now Tonya was picking at that scab with her continuing questions.
"When we talked about it, we had just gotten done making love, well Fucking really, that was the night of Sally's birthday party and we got a little lit, all that dancing and flirting; we hit it like two teenagers when we got home. Remember?"
"I do." She smiled up at him.
"Anyway, it was in the abstract I guess, I wasn't thinking about the actual feelings I might have until we watched that damn movie. I have to be honest, it hit me hard." Tom let out in a burst.