The three of us sat in the hot tub and I could feel that the other's were as nervous as I was, after all we had called him over for what we had talked about for years, a wife sharing session between friends that had danced around the subject of extramarital sex since 2008, We had almost talked it to death, and although we all had wanted it for years, none of us was willing to admit it to ourselves. Okay, it was a big step, he had coveted my wife since we were in college, although neither of us was man enough to admit it.
He had flirted with Claire, rather openly, for years, and I'd just accepted it as part of being best friends, but for a while I didn't think much about it. Then I started hearing about the Hotwife concept and got to thinking about it as a possibility. I started to fantasize about sharing her with someone and it got so I thought about it a lot. I'd picture the two of them having fiery sex, passionate and wild, hungrily feasting on one another's body like rutting animals, kissing and licking and sucking their way to orgasm after orgasm. I would read stories about wife sharing and hotwives, and it got so I could think of little else. Finally, in a moment of weakness, I told him one day about my fantasies and he laughed and wanted to know if I was into swinging.
"It's not that I want to fuck other women," I told him. "It just seems silly to put so much emphasis on monogamy and sex, when there are so many other important things to a relationship." I said a husband would not care if his wife enjoyed anything else without it being him, so why is it that only sex cannot be enjoyed with someone else? He agreed and said he understood. "So why do we put so much emphasis on sex and fidelity then?" He agreed in principle, but said he never could let someone else fuck the woman he was with, no matter what.
After talking with Jake I confessed one night to Claire that I occasionally entertained the idea of wife sharing, telling her about the Hotwife concept and how many societies practiced wife sharing, where men often offered their wives to guests. She listened, then asked me if I wasn't just looking for ways to fuck other women. I assured her that wasn't the case, and told her I was content but was only talking about sharing her with other men. "I'm fine having sex with you," she said. "I don't need to fuck other guys to be happy."
"I know you don't," I said, "but don't you ever think about it? Haven't you ever been attracted to other people and wondered about what sex would be like with them?" A few days later, after we'd gone to bed and had sex, she tearfully admitted that she had thought about sex with other men. We cuddled and I had tried to reassure her, assuring her it was no problem, that it was natural and I didn't mind her thinking about other men sexually.
I even said it would be okay with me if she actually had sex with someone else, that I could handle it. She didn't buy it, saying that it just wasn't right, but after some long talks about the idea of sexual privilege and trust and about the most important things in relationships, she finally began to come around to the idea that extramarital sex may not be the worst thing in the world. "We know we love each other, unconditionally, right. Having sex with someone else would not change that," I argued.
It took a least another month of my coming up with counterarguments for her to finally concede to some degree that the idea of sexual flexibility was not absolutely crazy, and she eventually confessed to me who she had had fantasies about. Jake happened to be one of them.
"So, what if it was a real possibility? Wouldn't you like to be free to have sex with him without repercussions or guilt? After much discussion and back and forth, she finally agreed it would be exciting and could see herself enjoying it if the situation was right. I then proposed the idea of at least trying it out, seeing how it went. That's when I came up with the idea of inviting him over for a hot tub evening, and seeing where things went. Reluctantly, she agreed.
Even though he and I had discussed it, talked about it like a couple of college pals, and he agreed with everything I said on principle, we never quite got to the "okay let's do it" step. I had told him quite truthfully I thought I'd enjoy seeing her fuck another guy, but I don't think he really took me seriously. Two days later I stopped by his place and asked if he remembered our talk about wife sharing, about my considering letting her have sex with another guy. He said he did and stared at me for a long time.
"Well, I think we're there now," I said, "and we'd like to have you over for a soak in the hot tub and maybe a little extracurricular activity. He looked at me like I had asked him to supply a kidney. "You would enjoy fucking my wife, wouldn't you?" I asked as bluntly as I could.
