My heart was racing 100 miles per hour when I got home. The lights were off in the house. It was well after midnight, so I assumed Kate to be sleeping. However, I was wrong. As I boiled the kettle to make myself a coffee, I switched the torch on my phone on, so as not to wake Kate by lighting up the house, and sat it on the counter. I could feel a presence behind me and as I turned I saw the silhouette of Kate standing in the doorway. My throat instantly dried as my mind wandered to the argument that was looming. She didn't say anything, just stood there. Although it was dark I could feel her eyes burning into me. I'm not sure how, but I managed to speak.
"Uhm, hi. I didn't mean to wake you, sorry." Was all I could muster. The tension was building, I could feel it. Kate instantly cut through it though with her calm and loving demeanour.
"I wasn't sleeping. Did you have a good night?" She replied. Her softly spoken words led me to believe that she was unaware of what happened tonight with Donna.
"Yeah, it was okay, nothing special." I answered, downplaying the events of the evening.
"I hope Donna was accommodating." She said. That was it, that was the response that confirmed she knew everything. She dealt my hand and it was my time to play it.
"What the fuck's going on? I done something really stupid tonight, yet when I was leaving Donna's house she said that you were in on it. Why would you want to put temptation in front of me, knowing that in the face of sex men are weak?" I asked her. I was in the wrong here and I knew it, yet somehow I was angry at her for putting me in that position.
"You seem annoyed at getting a free pass to fuck another woman." Her calm demeanour hadn't changed, which made my blood boil more.
"Of course I am annoyed, and I am confused why you aren't."
I have friends at work who are into the swinging lifestyle. They have only recently told me about it, things like partner swapping and that sort of thing. It made me think about what it would be like, you being with another woman, and to be honest I quite enjoyed the idea. Donna and Colin have been having their problems in the bedroom lately. As in he isn't interested in her, so we got talking and jokingly I said why doesn't she spend an evening with you. She laughed it off but we spoke a bit more of it, then her night out came around and Colin was out, so I suggested you go." She was very 'matter-of-fact' about it all.
"Why didn't you talk to me about it? Instead of offering me up as the sacrificial lamb to the slaughter?"
"Because I didn't know how to bring the subject up. We don't talk much about our fantasies and I decided to act this one out and keep everything crossed that when you got home we could talk about it and move forward."