The Third Orange
PATRICK SUTTON WAS sitting at his favourite table in the coffee shop. He sipped a latte in a straight white mug while studying printouts of a client's balance sheet and comparing them to figures on his laptop. Part of his job was to put together financial reports and looking at the data in a coffee shop after work helped give him a fresh eye on the task. He was scanning a column of figures when a long navy-blue coat and a woman's hand holding the white cup and saucer of a cappuccino appeared in his field of vision. He assumed it was someone pausing near his table while looking for a seat, but then the woman spoke.
'Pat Sutton?'
He knew instantly who it was. His heart thumped and his breath came short as he saw in his mind Jessica Swann, the prettiest girl in the class. No, the prettiest girl in the
school.
Every boy had a crush on Jessica Swann. Even the boys who claimed to hate girls would get tongue-tied in the presence of Jessica Swann.
Patrick looked up at the girl who had kept his heart captive for seven years of his adolescence. She was now a woman in her mid-thirties, her long blond hair shorter, stylishly cut and darker at the sides. The pink flush of her skin was now dry from the tanning bed and her school uniform had been replaced by an elegant business outfit, but it was still her. The blue eyes, the sparkle in them, the quietly well-proportioned face and the feminine energy that seemed to emanate from her--he found her as lovely as ever.
Patrick rose to his feet.
'Oh, my god,' he said. 'Jessica Swann...'
'Well... it's Jessica Smith nowadays.'
'Oh.'
'Yeah. Not quite so cool, eh?'
'No... no, it's fine.'
'You're married too, I see.'
Patrick glanced at the ring on his left hand.
'Yes,' he said. 'Her name's Ruth. Ruth Tindell.'
'She kept her own name?'
'Of course.'
'Why "of course"?'
'She's a feminist. Plus, she's ten years older than me, so she felt it undignified to take my name.'
'Ah.'
They stood looking at each other. Jessica nodded towards the table.
'May I join you?'
'Of course!'
Patrick cleared the papers to one side and closed the laptop. Jessica took off her coat and folded it carefully onto the seat next to her. She wore a pastel blue business jacket and white blouse which Patrick found breath-taking. After all these years, he could still hardly take his eyes off her. Thankfully, he was no longer the awkward, stumbling teenager he used to be. As they sat across the table from each other, they shared memories and news of fellow classsmates, filling each other in on what happened to this boy or that girl. Patrick went to get a second round of coffees as it started to get dark outside.
When he sat back down, there was a pause in the conversation. Patrick knew they could easily reminisce for another hour, but he had something else on his mind. He would probably never see this woman again after these coffees, so he took a deep breath and launched.
'There's something I wanted to say to you.'
'Oh, dear,' said Jessica. 'Did I do something bad?'
'No, no... quite the opposite.'
Patrick swallowed and went on.
'I once asked you out for a date,' he said. 'Sometime in the sixth form.'
'I remember,' said Jessica. 'I was alone in the school library and you asked me ever-so-politely if you could ask me something. I thought it was going to be a question on trigonometry.'
'Yes, you said that at the time.'
Jessica looked into her coffee cup.
'And I turned you down, didn't I?'
'Yes, you did,' said Patrick. 'But the way you turned me down was very gracious. I didn't appreciate that at the time, but now having some life experience--and having had women literally laugh in my face after asking them out--'
'You're joking!'
'I'm afraid not. And I do see that it's a tricky situation for a woman. But what I also see is that Jessica Swann at seventeen handled it better than anyone I met since. You were honest about your own feelings while still respecting mine, and I want to say thank you for treating a silly, lovesick boy with such consideration.'
Jessica looked at Patrick, almost with tears in her eyes. On impulse, she stood up and went around the table. Patrick got to his feet as she approached and they hugged. Patrick stood holding Jessica Swann in his arms and she felt just as wonderful as he'd always imagined she would; his teenage self wanted to run around whooping for joy. But Patrick was also an adult male and he had an adult female pressing her body against him. Because of the height difference, his erection would be pressing through their clothing into the soft flesh of her belly, so the moment he knew it was going to happen, he pre-emptively broke the embrace. Holding her gently by her arms at a distance, he gave her a sad smile.
'Of course,' she said. 'Your wife. I'm sorry.'
Ruth hadn't actually been anywhere in Patrick's thoughts. Still, it seemed better to let Jessica think that than tell her the real reason. Patrick sat down and crossed one leg over the other, while Jessica went back around the table to her seat. They resumed sipping coffees and then Jessica cleared her throat.
'So how did you meet Ruth?' she said.
'Ruth's a specialist in property law,' said Patrick. 'I'm in finance and about five years ago, she was overseeing a project I was hired to work on. We clicked and, after the project was over, she gave me a call and invited me out for a drink.'
'That was very proactive of her.'
'It was.'
'Did she propose marriage as well?'
'Kind of. I was virtually living at her place and after two years, she said: "Isn't it about time we discussed marriage?" So we did.'
'Wow.'
'Is that a good wow or a bad wow?'
The question seemed to take Jessica by surprise. She considered it over a mouthful of coffee, then gave Patrick a very direct look.
'Do you love her?' she said.
Now it was Patrick's turn to be taken aback. Jessica saw his expression and recanted.
'I'm sorry!' she said. 'That was rude of me. It's none of my business.'
'That's okay.'
'No, it's not! I'm judging you, Pat, and I have no right. I'm not exactly in the best place myself when it comes to marriage.'
Patrick wasn't sure what to say, although he was aware that his heart was racing and it was not due to the caffeine. Jessica downed her coffee and put the cup onto its saucer.
'Look, I have to go,' she said. 'I was only coming in for ten minutes! But I'm wondering... would you like to meet up again?'
'For coffee?'
'Yes.'
Patrick swallowed. He had a pain in his chest.
'My heart says yes,' he said. 'But my mind says no.'
'Why does your mind say no?'
'Because I look at you and I still see Jessica Swann. The girl with the sparkling eyes. I was in love with you for seven years and... and it's like nothing's changed.'
'Oh, Pat...'
'Look, it doesn't make any sense,' said Patrick. 'But I feel what I feel. And I know from experience that pretending that it's enough for me to have chats over coffee with a woman I have feelings for is just dishonest. It's not fair on my wife, it's not fair on you and it's not the man I want to be. I'm sorry.'