Janis sat quietly on the loveseat across from Darren, engrossed in his latest detective novel. She glanced meaningfully at him every so often, until finally he paused to meet her gaze.
Even after 13 years of marriage he could not help but marvel at his good fortune. Janis was the wife that every man dreams of, even at the age of thirty-six. Her shoulder-length blonde hair shone with a silky radiance that provoked a desire to fondle, to greedily run fingers through its softness and drink the fragrance of rose oil and peaches. She had intelligence, poise, and presence enhanced by a flawless complexion and sinewy athletic body belying that she was a mother three times over. How he savored her nakedness when he glimpsed her in the shower, or dressing, or those blessed times when he could indulge his passions in the full light of day. Ah! Her perfect breasts - her mouth-watering bottom - the neatly trimmed coif of her vee revealing just a hint of the perfect lips below! Yes, he was a very fortunate man.
Except he didn't feel that way. Things were not well between them. In fact, she had mostly avoided him since... well, since that time.
She sat on the edge of the cushion, leaning slightly forward, a half-smile contradicting her faintly furrowed brow.
"Hi," ventured Darren.
"Hi," Janis replied, her hands folded neatly in her lap, not breaking eye contact.
He sighed and closed his book, laying it deliberately on the side table, aligning it precisely with the edges. Darren was nothing if not precise. He sat looking at Janis expectantly, who remained silent, gazing at him with a strange expression, as if she was stifling a secret.
It had been so long. "I've missed you," he said, and meant it.
"I want to try it," Janis stated flatly.
"Try what?"
"That thing."
"What thing?"
"You know - the thing."
"I'm sorry -- I'm not sure I know what you're talking about."
She rolled her eyes in exasperation. "I want to have sex with another man. In front of you."
That was probably last on the list of all the things Darren imagined. He remembered with a rush of embarrassment how she'd discovered the porn he'd stashed on his computer, videos of husbands who had pleaded, begged their wives to have sex with friends or strangers, bosses or neighbors. Erotic stories he'd written, always featuring Janis and himself. She demanded to know, and he'd told her of his fantasies, of watching her with a lover, someone who was better than him, bigger than him, able to take her to heights of passion that she had never imagined, all while he watched and suffered, humiliated by his inadequacy. That was over a month ago. She had not let him near her since.
He finally asked, "Is this a joke?"
She rolled her eyes in exasperation. "Is it really so hard to believe that I would try something like that?
"Well, yeah, why would you want to try something like that?"
"Because it's what you want," she huffed.
"No, it's not what I want."
"Oh, really? I saw your computer. I read your stories."
"Maybe I'm just curious about it, OK?"
"Darren, there were 143 videos and eighteen stories. Lewd stories. Stories featuring you and me, and, and other men. Men that you know. Men that I know. Even your brother, for God's sake! No, this is much more than just curiosity."
"Yeah," he said vaguely. "Maybe I'm just working through some issues right now."
"So why don't you work through these things with me? You should talk to me. Tell me what you like."
"I like our sex life. I like it like it is!"
Janis looked at him in open-mouthed disbelief then blurted, "Our sex life is awful."
"Awful? Awful is a strong word."
Janis shrugged and folded her arms over her chest.
"Let's say it's... problematic. Like a problematic sex life. Why don't we say that?"
"No. It's awful," she said with finality.
It was like she'd stabbed him in the heart. "What is this really about? Are you trying to hurt me?"
"No! I just want you to want me again."
"I do want you."
"No, you don't. You want the women in those videos. You want me to be like those women. You want the me that's in those stories you wrote!"
"Honestly, I don't..."
"You do! You do, and you're too afraid to admit it. You're just a coward."
"A coward! I am not a coward. You can call me a pervert, because I probably am, but I am not a coward, OK?"
"You're a coward."
Darren rose and paced the room on the verge of anger. "Is this what it's going to take to get us back to normal? Back to being a husband and wife?"
"You tell me." Janis said flatly.
"OK. Then how do we do this?"
She sat back grimly.
"First of all, I'm going to choose the guy. And it's not going to be your brother, or anyone you know. Understand?"
"All right."
"Second, you're going to be there for the whole thing. You're going to help me pick out clothes, and lingerie, and perfume, and stay with me while my hair is styled to perfection. And watch while I'm waxed."
"Waxed? You mean..."
"Yes, waxed. Waxed down there until I'm bald as a baby. Isn't that what you want?"
"What else?" Darren asked stiffly.
"You'll find a babysitter, one who can stay overnight."
"Go on."
"Then when the time comes, you're going to draw a hot bath for me, and wash me, and help prepare my body. You're going to dress me and drive me to where my lover waits and watch as I greet him, and dance with him, and laugh with him. Then you will drive us to an expensive hotel and check us into a room and pay for it yourself. You'll ride the elevator with us while we entwine our bodies, groping each other like teenagers. You'll open the door to our room and usher us in, then as I passionately embrace him you will quietly close the door, sit in a corner, and suffer. Suffer as he undresses me, and I him. Suffer when you compare his majestic phallus to your ordinary, average prick. Suffer as he arouses me with his hands and his lips and his tongue. Suffer as he is overcome with passion and takes me right in front of you, takes me to places I've never been. Suffer as he drives me into ecstasy over and over again. And when finally our bodies are sated you will want me more than any man ever wanted a woman. You will implore me, plead with me, adore me, worship me!" She began to cry.
Her words hit him like a brick, for they were his words, taken from his stories. He wanted to scream at her, to beg and sob, to walk out the door and never come back. But his erection was so painfully hard in his jeans, and his arousal too acute to deny.
"When?" was all he could muster.
"This Saturday. It's already arranged. Find a babysitter and take Friday off, because we need to go shopping."
"Already arranged? With whom?"
"A man I met in one of those chatrooms you talk about in your stories."
"You've met?"
"Yes, I'm not stupid enough to pick up some random guy. Elliot Greene is a very nice man and I like him. We chatted and have met for coffee twice. I explained to him about your... predilection, and he's agreed that he can help your fantasy come true. This Saturday."