I still don't understand how I came to be the creature I am. I have bleached blond hair, piercings and tattoos in places that a few years ago I would blush at the mention of their names. A cunt and asshole that are both permanently stretched and waiting to be filled. Worst of all I have an insatiable desire and will do anything if a man takes control of me and tells me what to do. I have undergone a total transformation of what I was in looks and in personality. The changes started slowly at first and then gathered pace until I have become a complete and total slut.
When this story starts I was a married mother, I loved my children, was comfortable with my husband and generally had a happy life. I was 32, 5ft5, in between plump and having a good figure, a typical mum's figure. I was still pretty with dark brown eyes and hair and a face that looked younger than my 32 years. My kids were 9 and 11 and I had been married for 12 years.
If you're married you probably know how it is. You feel comfortable with your husband, you adore your kids and you get on with life. There was never any romance, never any passion and few arguments. I suppose you would call it a comfortable existence. Financially we were secure. My husband made good money as an accountant. He was a partner in one of the major Accountancy firms.
I decided to go back to work; both my children were away at Boarding School. If you are not familiar with England you may not know that the children of richer people get packed away to Prep schools at the age of 8. It is a miserable practice and I cry for the first few days of every term as my 2 boys are both taken away from me. The more I think about it the more I hate it. It's inhumane on boys and mothers alike. John my husband accepts it as normal, after all he was sent away at 8, as was his father, his grandfather his great... You get the picture.
As you can imagine, to go from being full time Mum to full time layabout is quite a shock. The first few days were great when I wasn't busy crying my eyes out. But it started to get very boring very quickly. Sure I could take hours to cook a delicious supper for John; I could go and have lunch with other mothers in the same boat. But when you have had an active life all this leisure time soon becomes very boring.
One of my friends had a brainwave, she got a job. And I thought I would get one as well. I broached the subject with John, he was not in favour but then, neither his mother nor his grand mothers had ever worked. He felt it was a reflection on him and his ability as a breadwinner if I worked. We debated the topic, as I said we had very few arguments, and in the end he gave his consent. Neither of us knew it but it was about the last thing that he ever agreed to in my life.
I was happy with him and so I put on my short black nightie as opposed to one of my many long white virginal ones. I like to reward John when he does something I like. When John sees this nightie, we have a marvellous pavlovian reaction. He always gets one of his little stiffys. That's right same as usual, quick kiss on the lips, tongue in once, lick and suck both breasts 30 seconds, Finger in my front bottom, stiffy in my front bottom, in out in out 5 minutes we can all go to sleep. The difference is John has the satisfied look of a man who has just done a good job. It used to annoy me and frustrate me because I used to get aroused. I don't get aroused any more and so it is just a chore having to wipe up the sticky mess. It also amuses me how we can have been married for so long and John has no idea that sex does absolutely nothing for me.
In the early days when we had just got married he used to excite me. I think he gave me an orgasm once. It was about the only time that we had ever done anything risky and we made love next to the Christmas tree in his mother's house. We had had a good snog under the mistletoe and one thing led to another. I guess it was the danger of being caught that made it more exciting and I had an actual orgasm. For a while after that I tried to make our love making more exciting, but it never changed.
I guess that explained my appearance. I wore my hair in short manageable style, my clothes were all muted colours my shoes were all sensible. I was the ultimate respectable married woman.
I woke up the morning after with a spring in my step. My good mood towards John continued and I gave him a fry up for Breakfast, something he normally only gets at the weekend. To cut a long story short I got a job with the local estate agent as a PA. Like a lot of Gals my age I did a secretarial course when I left school and so although I was a bit rusty I could handle all the work.
My boss, William, appeared to be a lovely man. He was in his 50s over weight, balding not attractive to look at. But when you met him you were instantly at ease, he made you smile, and you trusted him. All of these had made him a very successful estate agent. I loved working for him, typing letters organising the filing, making him coffee. Everything I did for him no matter how small was always acknowledged, he made me laugh, he made jokes. It was good fun.
One day he called me into his office and said I have plans for you. At the time I was flattered but if I had known then what they were I am not sure I would have been so flattered. But he told me that he thought that I would be a great agent and he wanted to start training me up. I could continue to work as his PA so I would have a steady income but as I became successful he would find another PA. As he said "PA's are easier to find than people who are good with people and that is what you need to sell houses."
I had been going for a couple of weeks and he took me to one side and said " I think it would help if you dressed in brighter clothes and added some glamour, underneath all that tweed you are very attractive." Although it seemed very innocent it still made me blush. The upshot was that we agreed that when I got my first bonus from a sale we would go shopping together and buy some new outfits.
I got my first sale and the following Friday afternoon when we had no appointments we shut the office and drove into central London. He took me for some lunch at a very expensive restaurant. It seemed a bit odd, as I had been there with my husband, when he was entertaining his clients. William made me laugh through lunch, gave me a martini before hand, the best part of a bottle of wine, he drank very little, his excuse being he was driving and then a brandy with my coffee. By the end of it I was feeling a bit squiffy and off we went shopping.
We bought a couple of suits and some blouses, or at least lets in my condition I was not able to choose. So I paraded around, William chose and I paid. When I thought we had finished William took me into another shop and said my treat. It was a designer dress shop. He made me try on about 6 dresses and he bought the last one. It was black and long and lovely. I felt very feminine.
When I got home I tried to show John my purchases thinking that he might be interested in seeing a more glamorous me, but there was no interest. I had been all set to put on my black nightie but I did not bother.
On Monday morning I was getting dressed and put on my new suit. I was surprised when I started to put it on. It seemed to fit me rather more closely and the skirt was definitely shorter than I remembered it. But I knew it was what I had bought. I put on this grey suit with a skirt that was some way above my knee. I wore a new dark blue blouse that seemed to hug my breasts and was a bit sheer. I felt very embarrassed and rather out of sorts but William had made a big thing about me wearing my new clothes on Monday morning and he had made me promise to wear this out fit into work.
When I stepped into the office he let out a whistle, smiled his smile and told me I looked fantastic. I was very self-conscious and relieved that I was not doing any showings today. At lunchtime William said he was popping out for a while and he went away with a grin. He came back with a package from a well-known lingerie store and went straight through to his office. After about 5 minutes he called me in and said, "I have been a bit presumptuous, but as your husband did not buy you any new underwear I thought that I had better." He had arranged a couple of mirrors in his office and he made me look at my bottom. There was a really noticeable panty line. I blushed as I had remembered queuing in the sandwich shop for my lunch.
He passed me a package and said these are for you. Inside were 5 thong panties, in s different colours, blue, red, cream, white and of course black. He said, "I have bought you one for each day of the week. Which pair do you want to put on now?"
I blushed again and said "I can't put them on here someone will see" He said don't be silly and left the room. As he was shutting the door he said, "Tell me when it's safe to come back"
Well what could I do, I thought for a second and then put on the white panties. They felt all strange and tight, my hair poked out of the sides and my buttocks felt very bare as they were only covered by a small strip at the back. I pushed my skirt back down and called to him to come back.
He entered the room with his jolly smile on his face. "I bought something else," William said and handed over another bag. Inside was a suspender and stockings. "These are for me, but that's because I am an old fashioned dirty old man and I like woman in suspenders. If you don't like them you can always sue me for sexual harassment."