Shake it off, Amy.
You trained with her for one hour.
Think about the big picture, Amy.
The gym felt lonely and sounded hollow without Hannah chatting to me, so I plugged into my favorite playlist and spun hard. Kayleigh's warm-up routine fared no better because, for no reason other than my competitive nature, I'd blasted ahead of the peloton and had nobody to talk to.
It's no use.
I need coffee and someone to talk to.
I leaped off the bike, leaving class ten minutes early. I had enough of a sweat on to record my training session as a success, but I needed company.
Pushing away someone who wanted to befriend me was a new experience for me. I usually gave people a chance and let them in, at least until discovering whether we were compatible.
This time, I pushed Hannah away, and it felt hurtful. My rationale was sound, but the method used might have been a little too robust.
I pushed open the door to Victor's industrial kitchen, surprised by its scale and how well-equipped the place was. Three chefs continued food preparation in a double squash court-sized pristine catering emporium. At the same time, I stood near the pass, looking back into the decorative house kitchen, keeping the door between both open with my foot outstretched.
The two kitchens couldn't be more contrasted. One served pre-cooked food from the other, appointed with brand new, never-been-used ovens and hob. That kitchen had beautiful blue ceramic tiled splash guards and walls, with granite and highly polished wood surfaces. The other kitchen was a plastic, half-walled, stainless steel hard-core catering hub capable of feeding hundreds.
A disapproving cough behind drew my attention, and I saw the man whose domain I was neither entirely in nor out. He smiled, nodding at my offending leg.
"Someone might trip over your foot, hurting themselves or you."
"Oh, sorry."
"In or out, Amy? Choose now."
"I'm all in, chef."
"That's what I heard about you. Fancy a coffee... chef's style?"
"Extra strong?"
"Overwhelmingly so. Guaranteed to keep a Columbia Law student awake for weeks. Could it be one of your last for a while?"
"How so?"
"Pregnancy and coffee aren't a favorable combination."
A thought struck me as I sat on a stool near the pass that Martin, head chef in Victor's household, kindly provided.
I researched surrogacy, not pregnancy.
"I'll take proper advice when the time comes, Martin."
"We'll construct a diet to energize you for all that study work ahead. You might fart a lot, but at least you'll stay awake."
"Didn't you know girls don't fart until you marry them, Martin?"
He laughed heartily, slid a triple espresso across the stainless steel work table to me, and then went off to issue instructions.
I can do this. Learn about pregnancy next.
I should relax, though.
Try to find Hannah and make things right.
Martin returned, looking grumpy, eyeing me like I might have done something terrible.
"Am I allowed in this kitchen?"
"Yes, of course, with my permission. If I'm not here, I'd rather you didn't because the younger chefs might become distracted and slice off a finger or something equally dumb."
"Are you annoyed with me?"
"No, not at all."
"You look grumpy, Martin."
"I just heard that Hannah left without even saying goodbye. Her name got scratched off the menu like she was never here."
"Ahh, sorry. That might be my fault."
"How could it be? You've been here two days... unless she finally gave up on reconciling with Victor."
"She did."
"Well, that's a good thing, right?"
Oh dear god, you like her.
Martin's face brightened immeasurably on news that Hannah might be available rather than departed. His cheeks flushed, and he beamed like a Cheshire cat. I instantly knew what a crush looked like and felt sorry that my almost new best friend wasn't here to enjoy his excitement for herself.
Martin was very handsome and precisely the kind of man I might date were I not embarking on a surrogacy adventure, which I was, so I couldn't.
"You have a crush on her."
"Nah... Hannah wouldn't be interested in me."
"That's a silly thing to say."
"Is your's a legal opinion or as a houseguest whose food I prepare?"
"That's a good point. You have the opportunity and means to poison me; I shouldn't provide a motive."
He chuckled, still rolling warmly in an emotional bath of Hannah's availability. After sipping a good amount of espresso, I pursed my lips, enjoying how it ignited my body, preparing me for the day.
"Do you know where Hannah went, Amy?"
"No idea, sorry."
Stick with the truth and don't offer anything you don't have to.
"Okay, well, that's that. I'll track her down."
After I smiled and said goodbye, guilt struck me heavily. I carried my burden to the elevator, where powerful pulleys and steel cables took over, lifting it to my bedroom floor.
If I told him about the other house Victor has, he could track down the chef and ask about Hannah. He probably already knows the address.
I could have told him that Victor knows where Hannah is.