With my last story, 'An Issue of Trust', my readership hit 4.2 million. All I can say is, WOW. If you'd told me when I joined, I'd be publishing the 62
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There is no sex in this one, sorry.
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"You must be Mrs. Brown."
"Call me Sandra, please. You are Mark?"
"I am. Now, what is all this about, Sandra? You said on the phone that this was a matter of life and death."
"Yes, it is. Not mine you understand, but a... man I know. I believe you have been counselling my husband?"
"Yes, off and on for ten years now. I hope you understand that us military psychologists are bound by the same code of ethics that civilian ones are. I can't discuss details of what he and I discussed."
"Wow, ten years. I had no idea. Sure, I knew he was in the army, but military counselling?"
"Once in, never out, is our motto. Your husband was a sniper in an infantry regiment. We see more than a few of them here at the clinic. You see, most soldiers fire their rifles or whatever and never see the guy they may be hitting. Snipers are different. They see whether the guy has pimples or not, and know exactly who they hit, and what their bullet does."
"So, Dave killed people?"
Mark saw the blood drain suddenly from the face of the obviously terrified woman opposite him, so he poured her a glass of water before continuing.
"Oh yes, Sandra. And not only soldiers either. As you know, the stoushes the Australian Army were involved in during the last Middle East fiasco weren't one side in uniforms shooting at other guys in different uniforms. Most of the enemy were in civilian clothes and, er, they didn't shy away from using children to deliver grenades and rockets. Your husband's job was to ride shotgun on his company and protect them from ALL threats, if you know what I'm saying."
Sandra did read between the lines of what the khaki-clad counsellor was saying and knew why her quiet, gentle husband had needed help. Still, it was disturbing how much she didn't know about him.
"Dave never spoke about his time over there to me."
"Oh, he wanted to; needed to really. But from what he's told me, you've been pretty wrapped up in your own woes recently and he didn't want to burden you with his issues. Is that why you came to see me? He did say that your problems seemed about over, and he was going to open up to you. I've done just about all I can. Now he needs someone he loves and who loves him to open up to. He needs acceptance. He was looking forward to receiving that from you, I can tell you. I don't think I'm breaching confidentiality to say that the burden of carrying all that pain around was really getting to him."
"Um, no. Tell me, has he spoken about me, I mean, recently?"
"No. I haven't seen him for about a month."
"Well, god, this is really embarrassing. What if I gave him some bad news? Could he become violent? He threatened to kill someone, um, close to me. I need to know; is he serious?"
"I tread a fine line here, Sandra, but well, without knowing the details, off the cuff, I'd say no. Dave's reaction to his experiences in the army, if anything, made him more gentle than he was prior. It would have to be bad enough to trigger him regressing to his past; to the time where he had to kill without compunction to save something he valued above anything else. Can you tell me what the bad news you gave him was? I have plenty of time. I have no more clients and my wife is away this week."
He waited patiently while the interplay of emotions ran like a kaleidoscope across the attractive woman's face. Underlying it all was sheer, unadulterated terror. He surmised what she had to tell him was humiliating for her, but that wasn't going to stop her getting the peace of mind she obviously craved. Finally.
"I don't know what Dave told you about me. My problems."
"Just start from the start, Sandra. From when you met him until he made this alleged threat."
"I met Dave eight years ago. I was instantly convinced he was my soulmate. We married within a year. I was waitressing at the time but always wanted a career. Dave supported me finishing the degree I'd had to abandon when I ran out of money. We kind of had an unofficial deal that I'd work for a few years, then have the babies we both wanted.
"It was all going to plan, but a couple of years in my mum got sick; breast cancer. They did a double mastectomy, chemo, all that stuff, but eventually she died. Dave was great. He helped me survive all that. I suppose that's what you meant when you said he was so busy supporting me that he didn't have a chance to tell me about his past; his problems."
Mark nodded and waited.
"I got myself tested for the breast cancer gene and they found I had it. Even though they caught my mum's early, it was still too late. Dave supported me in my decision to have both my breasts removed; I just couldn't take the chance. It was classed as elective surgery, so our insurance wouldn't cover it. Dave wanted the best surgeon for me, so when I didn't have enough saved from my job, he made up the difference without hesitation."
Sandra paused as painful memories, long buried, ate at her.
"Tough, was it?"
"Unbelievably. Although the surgeon insisted on counselling before I had the op, it wasn't till afterward that it really hit me. I felt like I wasn't a woman anymore. I'm afraid Dave didn't get any, um, intimacy for a long time. I just couldn't stand the thought of him seeing me or touching me naked. Thoughts of kids were shelved as I tried to come to terms with it all."
"Yes, Dave did talk about that time. He understood, though. Not many women would have a guy as patient and understanding as you had."
Sandra dropped her eyes as the truth of the statement hammered into her extremely bad conscience.