My wife, Alice, has never seen the need to talk about our relationship especially our sexual relationship. When I first proposed to her on a Caribbean island, after we had dated for a few years, I expressed to her my fantasies, sexual desires, and the need for intimate conversation. I thought she understood and was supportive because she nodded her head and said everything would be fine. She didn't reciprocate or express any fantasies back to me, but I chalked it up as inexperience and thought we would grow together mentally, sexually, and emotionally as our marriage progressed and we knew each other better.
That was not reality. Seven years had passed before I truly realized the trap I had placed myself in. Our marriage was fraught with arguments, misunderstandings, and simple lack of communication. It made me turn a wandering eye to see what I was missing, what went wrong, and why did I still feel the need to explore all the fantasies I had opened up and told her about all those years ago.
Alice, on the other hand had yet to open up and express any desires to sexually explore our relationship. She was content with her own idea of a civil marriage plan that included a husband with a monetary career, a nice suburban house, and a few kids. Beyond that she had no plans to expose herself to any of the sexual urges that I had told her about.
Soon after this self realization clouded my mind, I found the internet a safe place to begin to explore my internal sexual dialogue.
Amazingly, I found others, married men and women, in an online forum that expressed similar sexual interests and though we all felt trapped at times in our own marriages the emails, chat, and forum entries let us know we were not alone.
It was on this online site that I met Sarah. Both of us were married, had sexually disinterested spouses, and were looking for something special without having to get divorced. We would IM (instant message) all day at work and keep our emails within the safe confines of the online site for security purposes. It was easy to express my feelings to Sarah and I was pleasantly surprised at how far she would take our discussions into the realm of mutual sexual fantasy.
Sarah's profile described her as a tall leggy brunette with average breasts and a great ass. She wrote about her love of sex, and how she always had sex on her mind. She confided in me that she had yet been able to fully explore her deepest sexual desires with her husband or any other lover.
"It's like he doesn't want to listen, or is simply interested in keeping things the way they have always been," she confided in me over IM one fateful day.
"I know exactly how you feel," I wrote back. "As I've told you before, my wife and I go round and round about what I fantasize about, but in the end she doesn't make the connection that we should pursue and explore my ideas. She doesn't even offer up any ideas of her own."
"In one ear and out the other, with a 'Maybe, Babe' thrown in to look as if they are listening," Sarah typed.
"Exactly," I responded. "I wish we had met each other years ago."
"Do you mean that?" Sarah asked.
"Mean what?" I typed.
"Do you really want to meet me?" She clarified.
"Well, that would be difficult. Don't you think? I mean, I really love chatting and fantasizing with you on this site, but going through with anything could really complicate things, for both of us."
"So you don't want to meet me," she typed. '"I thought you were different, Steve. I thought we were developing something more than what we had in our own sterile marriages." Her text looked angry now.
"We are," I quickly wrote. "I just didn't realize that you would want to meet me... for real."
"Well of course I do, dumbass! Why do you think I was bearing my soul to you? I really like what we have here in this place, but to keep everything locked up forever is not what we have. We both have kids and don't want to get divorced, but we have something special here too. Don't we?"
I was a little spooked about meeting her. We both had pictures without showing our faces on our online profiles. Mine showed my chest and my jean covered crotch. Sarah's showed her with an open white blouse, an exposed red laced bra, and a pierced navel. I couldn't think straight for a moment imagining actually meeting the beautiful body I had lusted for in my fantasies. A new thrill took over my mind. I felt my dick harden in my pants.
"What if we don't like each other in person?" I asked.
"Whenever we chat or IM my pussy gets really wet," she replied. "In fact, my pussy is really wet right now thinking about the bulge I can see in your shorts from your profile pic. We have to meet Steve! Please! There is just way to much chemistry between us for us not to move forward. Don't I make you hard?"
I looked down at my crotch, and then adjusted my hard dick to a better spot. "Yes! I'm hard and horny and really would love to fuck your brains out while we talked about our fantasies. But, and online affair is different from an actual flesh on flesh affair. How would this work?"
I had to wait a while for her reply. Finally she added her reply, "Sorry my colleague stopped by to see if I wanted to grab some lunch. I had to minimize our IM. She can be nosy like that."
"That's ok," I typed.
"Anyway, wear were we? Oh yeah... Well, I live in Maryland just NW of DC wear are you?"
My mind skipped a mental notch. "I'm just south of DC in Virginia, but I work in DC."
"Wow, I commute too. I work in NW DC at a law firm, and you?"
"SW near 18th street, I'm in IT communications," I quickly typed really starting to see were this new line of talk could lead. We had never tried to find out where the other was in real life.
"We are just a few minutes or more from each other right now. I need to show you something. BRB," she wrote.
I waited for several minutes and then got a pop up.
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