It was one of those days when there's nothing to do but sit by the pool and ruminate on what could have happened if she hadn't married Ted. She'd have none of the things she had, she assumed - the grand house in Greenwich, the two BMWs, the kids away in boarding schools, the help, the money, the vacations, the clothes. Yes, she worked too, marginally, helping out at the Japanese/American exchange 10 hours a week, but that was hardly anything compared to Ted's ironman week of rising at 4 every morning to run, then the train into the city, and rarely back before 8 PM, not to mention the travel, the meetings in London, Berlin, Reykjavik, Tokyo, San Francisco, nearly weekly! She was alone a lot and it didn't matter, she thought. She had her quiet work, her book group, Al Anon, hot power yoga, and the dog.
September was being hot and humid, and she was in her orange bikini on a chaise lounge by the pool at 1 in the afternoon, drinking a bottle of Pellegrino next to a glass of Chardonnay with ice in it. She had her long black hair bunched high up on her head and skewered with chopsticks to let the back of her neck get some air. She fanned herself with her Marie Claire magazine for a second before letting it drop with a flap by the chair. Absently, she reached behind her neck and undid the knot holding the top of her bikini in place and let the straps fall in front of her. It felt good to have that small release, to feel the hot sun around her neck, to feel the trickles of sweat running down into the hollow of her neck and between her breasts. What the hell, she thought, and she released her bra and let the sun onto her naked chest, dropping her top on the ground. Yes, she thought, that's good, and she picked up her glass of wine and took a long draught from it. She closed her eyes and the sun made the back of her eyelids warm and she saw auburn images against them.
She must have fallen asleep, she thought, because the next thing she heard was raking from behind the hedge and fence that surrounded the pool. It was a Wednesday, the day the local kid, Carlos, came and did whatever yard work Ted thought needed to be done. Carlos was in his low 20's, she mused; he lived on the other side of Greenwich in the more working class area, and, she thought, maybe he's in community college. She wasn't sure, exactly; she hadn't seen much of him this summer, and barely remembered what he looked like. He must be raking the mulch around the new trees, she thought, and relaxed back into her chair again. Next he'll be weeding around the driveway, and then perhaps he'll have to vacuum the pool.
So sleepy, she thought, closing her eyes again, imagining what the weather must be like in Iceland, where Ted was for the next few days. Did it snow in September up there? Was Ted in one of the famous hot springs? Should she maybe smoke a joint or take a klonopin? She reached into her beach bag by the lounge chair and found her little pill container, and took one, swallowing it with another sip of her wine. Should eat something, she thought, with the near simultaneous thought, what the hell. The joint. She had one half-smoked in her bag; she rummaged around, found it and her lighter, and settled back. She lit up, took a deep inhale, held it, and then let the smoke float out of her nose. She rubbed her belly, firm and tanned, slick with suntan oil and a tidy pool of sweat in her attractively "inn-ie" belly button. That was enough. She felt rich and warm and her body was taking in the day's heat and starting to radiate its own.
She was looking at the photos in Marie Claire when she heard the latch of the gate open and Carlos appeared at the far end of the pool, a long-handled pool sieve in his hand. He didn't appear to notice her as he turned and closed the gate and then moved to the edge of the pool. He was wearing khaki shorts and no shirt, just a black Yankees flat-brimmed ball cap, and she could see his hairless chest glistening with sweat. She watched him work, and then, to let him know she was there, she moved her chair slightly and waved.
He startled, looking around before he saw her, and said, "Oh, Missus, I'm sorry, I didn't realize..." and averted his eyes from her to study the hedge. She waved a hand dismissively.
"Don't mind me, just do what you have to do," she said. "We're all friends here."
"I can come back," he said, slowly letting his gaze wander from the hedge to the listless pool surface and to her side of the pool, where she had let her magazine fall again and held her wine glass in one hand while with the other she reached up to disengage her chopsticks and let her hair fall naturally to her shoulders.
"Just do what Ted told you," she said. Then, thinking for a moment: "And for God's sake take a a swim if you like, it's so beastly hot today."
She watched him walk slowly along the edge of the pool, skimming its surface for errant leaves and bugs, and occasionally dipping the net down deep to the bottom of the pool to get the leaves and whatever crap had accumulated there. Not much. It had been a windless day, the trees were still, and there were no mosquitoes or gnats. She watched him dip the sieve, in and out, it's long aluminum shaft bright in the sun and wet with the water. God, did she love the taste of chlorine; it was almost as good as the taste of salt on her skin from swimming in the ocean. She liked to lick her forearm and her lips to taste it all.