NEW YEAR'S EVE
My name is Jeanette. I'm thirty-three and have been married for nine years. This is my first contribution to
Sexual Freedom.
I have enjoyed the accounts written by other women, especially the wives who have discovered how to find and enjoy partners other than their husbands. They have given me the courage to explore my own needs.
Needs, yes, but also urges, wants,
desires!
That's what we are discussing if we will only be honest with ourselves. We don't "need" the sexual adventures that fill these pages --- we want them! They represent the possibilities of sexual pleasure that few have the courage or determination to pursue. And we should have them. There is no reason on earth why we should not. I am one of the more fortunate ones; I have been able to in large part because my husband has encouraged me to.
My husband and I have always been adventurous. We have actively sought new challenges and experiences in every part of life. We've had adventures of a non-sexual nature all over the world. But that's not our focus here. This is about sexual pleasure and our story, I think, will instruct and inspire and
--- I hope! ---
encourage others to explore fearlessly their natural libidinous proclivities.
I work as a very highly paid administrative assistant and office manager for a law firm. My husband, Richard, is a physicist and science writer. We are not wealthy but financially comfortable; we love our work and we have a wide circle of friends. Our sex life has always been great, but this past year, has seen improvements that I had never imagined were possible until I began reading this publication. I came across it first and, after reading a couple of issues, I gave it to Richard and asked him what he thought. Predictably, he was intrigued and we decided that we would look for opportunities to introduce new excitement --- and new partners --- into our marriage bed.
Naturally, this gave rise to discussion. As I remember, the decisive conversation went something like this:
"Look, I know that husbands are, --- well, territorial --- about their wives. Are you certain that you could allow me to be with another man? Could you tolerate someone else doing with me --- the things we have done?"
"Yes. And I am just as territorial as any man but I'm sure that we are discussing sex, not the deep and abiding love that I feel for you and I think that you feel for me. Can you see yourself leaving me because of a particularly intense sexual experience with another man?"
"No! Of course not! What we have is too valuable to give up for mere orgasms."
"Could you stand knowing that I was with another woman --- even if she were younger?"
"Yes. Yes, I'm certain that I could --- if it were just for pleasure and nothing more."
There was a pause as we looked for clues in each other's faces, still not certain what the other was thinking or how the other felt. Richard broke the silence at last.
"Jeanette, do you remember that night a few weeks ago when you were undressing before the mirror and I came up behind you?"
"Yes!" The memory flooded into my brain and stirred me.
"I began to fondle your breasts while you watched --- we both watched --- in the mirror. You enjoyed that, I know."
"Yes. I made no secret of it."
That night had proved to be an awakening. Richard had caressed me for several minutes that night while we gazed at our reflections in the big antique oval mirror. I watched as his hands, big and powerful, roamed over my breasts and thighs and bottom. He turned me and felt me deeply, his fingers probing, seeking, almost bruising my flesh until finally his hands drifted down between my legs and his fingertips softly stroked as I moistened. My stomach stirred as I remembered how I pushed back against him and felt his exciting hardness in the cleft between my cheeks. I couldn't take my eyes from the mirror! I was fascinated! My limbs looked pale in the lamplight and the shadows sculpted our bodies in a manner that appeared new --- alien in some way. It was almost like watching it happen to someone else --- almost like watching two strangers in the mirror! I felt detached from the images yet aroused! I could feel what the man was doing to the woman in the mirror --- I was both the participant and the watcher --- actor and audience!
Finally Richard gathered me up into his arms and carried me to the bed. He was thoroughly aroused, trembling with passion. I hadn't seen him like that for nearly a year! He put me down on my back and pulled my legs roughly apart and entered me with one long hard thrust. I welcomed him with a cry and locked my legs around him. There followed a long session of intense and highly satisfying lovemaking such as we had not experienced in a long time and through it all the images of the man and the woman in the mirror floated in my mind.
"We are both voyeuristic, Jeanette," he continued, "We share that and I would definitely enjoy seeing you pleasured by someone else."
I knew immediately that he was right. And I wanted him to watch me with another man! I wanted to look into his eyes as I took another man's hard cock into my mouth --- into my cunt! And I wanted to watch him with another woman --- preferably a younger, more innocent woman. My thought processes stopped at that point, leaving me curiously suspended --- as if the thought were unfinished somehow. I trembled and smiled at him.
"We are agreed, then?" I asked quietly.
"Yes, love, I think we are."
With his characteristic objectivity, Richard suggested that we take the time to find high-quality people --- no "pick-ups" or impulsive plunges. The point was, after all, to create intense pleasure for both of us.