It's been a week since Beth's and my adventure at the ABS. Should I call it an adventure? That makes it sound fun in some way. While it was exciting and life altering, I hesitate to call it fun. I honestly don't know what came over me. I should have raged against the way my wife and her new friend treated me. There is no excuse for the cowardice I displayed in front of my lovely wife. I'm so ashamed with my behavior that I can hardly look at her now. But I felt as though I had no choice in the matter. It was as if the natural order of things was being sorted out for me and I was just a passenger in my own body as I did what I did. Look I can't even admit it to myself. I licked another man's cum from my wife's hand. I can't describe how humiliating that is to admit. I could easily say my wife made me do it, that Brad had made me do it. But the truth is, I did it of my own free will. And for some reason it felt right. Oh it was humiliating and degrading on a level I never knew existed but it was a natural act of submission on my part. I felt the need to submit to my wife. In all our years of marriage I always felt a bit inferior to her but now the die had truly been cast.
The dynamic of my relationship with Beth changed immediately. We didn't even make it home that night before I began to feel her power shift heavily in my wife's favor. She didn't say a word the entire ride home but I could feel the raw power emanating from her in waves. She knew what had happened as surely as I did and the satisfied smirk on her face told the story better than any words ever could. Beth had reduced me to a submissive, inferior, let's just say the word, cuckold, in a few short minutes and I did nothing at all to change things. Of course I'd read the stories. A big strong man whips out his huge cock and the quivering housewife is helpless against its power. So she does the only thing she can, she fucks him and emasculates her husband.
Bullshit. This is the real world and women don't just throw away their lives with their husband's over a big cock. Hell you can buy a big cock at the very store my wife strayed in. No, this had less to do with the size of Brad's cock and more to do with him as a person. His confidence was overwhelming. His charisma and ego were as powerful an aphrodisiac as anything ever marketed. The strength that emanated from this black beast made me feel weak. My wife is a strong, confident woman who had been pushed to the edge by my own inadequacies. I saw that frustrated look on her face every time we made love. I saw the disappointment in her eyes. For years, no decades she was left in a constant state of frustration till she could no longer take it and finally took matters into her own hands. Quite literally so it would seem.
So believe me when I say I was not at all surprised when one week to the day after our encounter with Brad I saw my wife's car parked outside of his business on my way home from work. I slowed down and even flipped on my turn signal as if to pull into the parking lot but at the last second I just continued on my way home. I just couldn't do it. I couldn't face them together again. I was scared. I was afraid of losing my wife, afraid of being humiliated, afraid of receiving a beating from Brad. You name it, I was scared of it happening. So like a complete pussy I just went home, changed into sweat pants and a t-shirt, made myself a drink and sat on the couch waiting for Beth to return.
I can't begin to tell you all of the terrible things going through my mind while I sat there waiting. I pictured Beth and Brad in every position imaginable the whole time I could see them laughing at me while they explored each other's bodies. At one point I even felt my eyes fill with tears as the humiliating images rolled past my mind's eye. My hands were shaking and my heart was beating out of my chest by the time I saw the headlight's of my wife's car turn into our driveway. I wiped a stray tear from my cheek and tried to look relaxed as I heard her key in the door.
Beth walked through the doorway, closed the door behind her, and strolled into the living room with a contented sigh and a satisfied smile then sat on the love seat across from me. She didn't even bother to hide her disheveled appearance or the very obvious smell of sex that permeated the room since her entrance. There wasn't a trace of care or even embarrassment in her expression as she smiled at me from across the room.
When she started speaking it was with a confidence I'd never heard in her voice before. She said, "I went to the ABS today to exchange that vibrator you bought me for a bigger model and ran into Brad."
"I know", I told her, "I saw your car there on my way home."
"Oh I thought you would and I'm not at all surprised that you didn't stop in" she told me. "In fact Brad and I both knew you wouldn't have the nerve to show your face there again. We had quite a laugh at the thought of you trying to stand up to him."
"But why", I asked. "Why would you do that? You know how much that would hurt me, why would you do something so cruel?"
She laughed at that and said, "Oh Timmy, it's not cruel at all. In fact you should be happy for me that after all these years I'm finally exploring a more sensual side of life. You should want me to find happiness and satisfaction in ways that you could never provide. After all you know you don't exactly measure up to a real man in the dick department. I mean it's not your fault you were born with an inferior penis. And let's face facts, you were definitely short changed when it comes to male equipment so there's no reason to feel ashamed."
"I never felt shame over my dick size", I said with a quivering voice that betrayed the words.
"Oh really? Huh, maybe you should then. Maybe all white boys should feel shame in their inferior equipment", she told me. "I mean you have to know you're not very big down there or anywhere else. You're rather on the short and slender side for a man and you haven't been able to get or keep a hard on for years. Now don't get upset honey, I'm only speaking the truth here and you know it."
I could feel my face turn red with embarrassment as my eyes filled with tears. I was shocked that my loving wife could say such hurtful things to me. She didn't even look sorry for what she'd said and in fact looked quite pleased with herself at finally revealing some long held truth that she'd been dying to tell out loud.
I tried to find the right words but nothing would come out. I was so humiliated, so hurt, that I was unable to form a coherent thought. Seeing how her words had shamed me into silence Beth continued with her tale crossing her long legs under her as she settled in to a more comfortable position. As her legs opened wider in the lotus position on the love seat I got a clear whiff of the scent emanating from her crotch. Even from across the room I could smell her secretions mixed with what I was certain to be the powerful cum of what she called a "real man" and she smiled at me as she saw the realization in my eyes.
I expected her to tell me immediately that she had sex with Brad but one look at her face and I knew she wanted to prolong my agony. She wanted to tease me with the whole story so I sat quietly and waited for her to continue.