I've always had a very low opinion of those who cheat, both male and female. Examples of men who cheat, I only know by hearsay but when during my gap year and three years at university, there were times when I seemed surrounded by girls who treated lack of loyalty as a virtue. The fact of having a long term steady boyfriend seemed no bar to a girl opening her legs on a one night stand and more than once a friend has said to me in justification, "What harm does it do? I'm certainly not missing out on a good shag just because he happens to be away for the week and anyway, what he doesn't know can't hurt him."
I just couldn't be like that. Even when it looked certain that a relationship was in its final stages I wouldn't go out with someone new until it was officially over. Yet most other girls seemed to grab every opportunity to play around. Three different times I have been a bridesmaid and watched a friend walk down the isle on the arm of a doting husband, knowing in each case, that she had been fucked by at least one other man during the course of their courtship. One of the three was actually pregnant and I hope her hubby never sits down and actually works out the maths. I don't really think I was a prude but I certainly wasn't promiscuous. I had full sex with only three different men before I met Jim and the first of those doesn't really count. Both of the others were fairly steady relationships and I only went to bed with them after we'd been together for a couple of months. There were quite a few other guys where we had a few dates and there was a degree of mutual groping but even that fell well short of any kind of oral.
When I was eighteen, a girlfriend was throwing an all night part while her parents were away. During the early evening I was having a marvellous time dancing and drinking but I gradually realised that other girls were only partially dressed and there were couples doing more than just make out on the different items of furniture around the room. Suddenly there seemed to be boy's hands pawing at me from all directions and, even though I was pretty drunk, I knew I didn't want to be there. I found my friend to say I wanted to go home but I hadn't any taxi fare and she was unsympathetic. One cue her older brother offered to run me home. He had been drinking but was far more sober than I was so I accepted gratefully. I admit that I had a bit of a crush on him but it was of long standing and he had never shown the slightest interest in me. He helped me into the rear seat and I think I just lay there semi-comatose.
Part way to my home he pulled into a patch of woods and climbed into the back seat with me saying, "Right you little tart, you've been asking for it all night and now you're going to get it." With that he planted a few slobbering kisses round my mouth and the next moment I felt an excruciating pain between my legs. The next bit is a blur but know I screamed, he must have paused, looked down, saw the blood and panicked. I remember him saying, "Oh shit." Then he kind of shook me and swore, "Stupid cunt, why the fuck didn't you say you were a virgin?" I didn't answer and he switched to being conciliatory and trying to clean me up but all the time insisting that I had really wanted it. It ended when he made a kind of bargain, "Tell me you wanted it and I'll take you home." I just wanted to be safe in my own bed so I said what he wanted to hear. I've never told a soul about this until now β not even Jim but you can possibly understand why I couldn't be free and easy with the opposite sex after that.
I reaped the reward for my restrained lifestyle when I met Jim. Ironically, I had just decided that I was missing out and had gone to a party with the intention of getting laid when he happened to be the first guy to ask me to dance. We stayed together all evening and, although indulging in some very passionate kissing, he never pushed for more. It was almost three months before we first had full sex and by then we were firmly on the path to marriage.
Jim is 5'10", average build and although not conventionally handsome, I think he is very attractive. It was actually his character rather than his looks that appealed so strongly to me. He's very intelligent with a quick sense of humour and I think he is the kindest man alive apart from possibly my dad. Jim is also an intensely loving man. He was perfect and I was so glad that I had saved myself for him, more or less. We had met when we were both in the final year of teacher training, got married after graduation and last year celebrated our twelfth wedding anniversary. There are three primary objectives in life β excitement, pleasure and happiness. Many people, especially the young, go for one of the first pair or a combination of the two but right from the start I was set on finding happiness, following the example set by my parents long, devoted monogamous marriage.
Those twelve years had produced two children, Steven 7 and Aimee 5 but a combination of child bearing and total contentment meant that I was now carrying more than a few pounds too much.
I am 5' 6" tall and was always slim with a lithe athletic figure which unfortunately included a bust rather on the small side. I was pretty then and still am but apart from that my sex appeal had definitely deteriorated. As a teenager my strong points used to be very shapely legs and a bottom that was nicely rounded but compact β when going out it was always hard to decide whether I should wear a nice short skirt or my tight jeans. Passage of time resulted in heavier thighs, a bum that I was sure was too big and a certain bulge round my middle. When your tits are too small, a nice concave stomach can accentuate what you have but when your tummy instead bulges the opposite way then it's a disaster for self esteem. During the two pregnancies my breasts swelled up nicely, to Jim's great delight, but sadly my bust is the only part of my body that did return to normal.
When Aimee started school I returned to full time employment. I had done some part time teaching during the previous two years but now I started full time at the local junior school. Throughout the marriage Jim had been teaching at a senior school in the city and was now head of a department. My fellow staff members were almost all female and they split into two distinct groups with some half a dozen early twenties with the rest being more matronly ladies aged in their late forties. At thirty-three, I fitted neatly into the middle but couldn't decide which group to gravitate towards. Figure wise I belonged with the older women but spiritually I felt far more on the younger wavelength. In my teens I'd been the adventurous type. At different times I done both mountaineering and potholing, thoroughly enjoying both and I also tried bungee jumping and para-gliding but only to get the T-shirt.
The conversation attracted me to the probationers group but the contrast between my figure and theirs was a great incentive to get myself back in shape. I started jogging round the streets for half an hour every evening and it was gratifying the way the surplus weight started to disappear. By the return to school after the following Easter I was nicely back in shape, just when the conversation was all about a fun run in aid of charity that was set to take place in the autumn. I was full of enthusiasm but after studying the leaflet, in my current fit state, I was more attracted by the challenge of the proper half marathon run on the same day. After talking it over with Jim I put my name down for the more serious event and started planning a more intense training schedule.
My new svelte shape had the side benefit of causing my husband to become a degree more frisky. I always considered myself to have a fairly low sex drive. Jim's drive was only slightly stronger but this did ensure that he almost invariably took the initiative. Even in the beginning, making love was never our overwhelming preoccupation but in the early years we still managed to average a healthy three times a week. Unfortunately, by the time I started working full time again our sex life had deteriorated to a once a week Saturday night ritual but having got back in trim, just looking sexier made me feel sexier so I welcomed Jim's renewed interest.
While maintaining my evening jogs I decided to rise an hour early on weekend mornings to get in a much longer run and still be back in time to do breakfasts for the kids. With the long summer break coming up I planned to train most mornings and bring myself to peak condition just right for the event. We live right on the edge of town and within minutes of the house there is a countryside track that skirts the base of a large hill. I calculated that to the other side of the hill and back would nicely fill the hour I had allocated.
Stepping out into the early sunlight and fresh morning air was unexpectedly invigorating and I found real pleasure in the sense of solitude and the feeling that the world was empty apart from me. So after twenty minutes it came as a shock to see a male figure in the distance, heading towards me along the track. There was some reassurance in the fact that he was also a runner but also a reason for worry as well. When out during the dark evenings I had run defensively but my main peace of mind had come from knowing that I could almost certainly outrun anyone who tried to accost me. Now from the easy way this tall stranger was moving I knew he could give a 100yards start and still catch me with ease and I suddenly wished there were other people around.