I spent the next six months of my life contemplating what had happened to me and how my wife had become such a slut seemingly overnight. Mainly I thought that I should have done something before I saw my wife fucked by five men that fateful night. I should have spoken to her when I saw her at the bar before she took those men home.
My children became my priority and I just tried to be the best dad I could be to them. The six-year-old twins cried every night before going to bed because mum wasn’t there to tuck them in. I wanted to tell them that I almost cried each night too because of what had happened.
Then, out of the blue, I received a letter from Jen. It carried the postmark of our home town. I wasn’t sure if she was still living there or not because I hadn’t seen her but I hadn’t actively pursued her.
I waited until all the kids were in bed that night before I opened it. I didn’t tell them about the letter just in case it contained something awful for them. I wasn’t sure what to expect but I was interested to see what she had to say for herself. I was almost hoping she would ask for a reconciliation, which I wasn’t prepared to give her at this stage. When I opened the letter I was completely surprised by its contents.
It was quite long and went as follows:
“Dear Scott,
I hope this letter finds you well. I am although I am missing the children terribly. I miss you too but in the last six months I have learned some things about myself that it’s better that you do not have to live with.
I am not writing to you to beg for you to take me back. When I have finished you will never want to take me back again. And, as much as it kills me, it is probably best that the children forget about me altogether.
(She had me really intrigued by this stage.)
I am writing to let you know what has happened to me since I kissed you goodbye.
Well, I left our house that morning with no idea where to go or what to do. I did not want to see any of my friends because I was deeply ashamed. I did not want to go to my parents because they would have asked questions I wasn’t prepared to answer. I finally decided to go to David’s house. He was one of the guys from the night before. He was single and had said to me before that I was welcome anytime.