Dave and I sat relaxing on the front porch of the lakeside retreat, enjoying the view over the peaceful water. We were feeling more comfortable now that we had settled into our cabin but the underlying apprehensions about joining the Sex Club were still there. We had assured each other that we wouldn't do anything with the other couples if it didn't feel right. We acknowledged to each other that we were intrigued by the possibility of intimacy with other people but neither Dave nor myself had really accepted that we would do it.
****
As planned, I had earlier talked to Amy, to express our curiosity about the Club. It took a few days to catch up with her due to her busy yoga instruction classes and my freelance accounting job. And when we did have a few minutes before going to get the kids from school she simply said that we were invited to their next event, a retreat for six or seven couples at a small northern resort. Apparently, we had been granted admission to the Club on the strength of Tom and Amy's recommendation.
And quickly lining up my parents to take the kids for the upcoming 'event', Dave and I took a deep breath and here we were.
*****
Around the corner, Sam and Danielle, the couple who had mentored Amy and Tom into the Club, strode up onto the porch with big smiles on their faces.
"Great to finally meet you folks. Tom and Amy have said so much about you two. We're thrilled that you chose to come to the retreat," Danielle said with a big smile. We had met the couple briefly as everyone arrived at the resort. I was curious to meet them as they were the first lovers that Tom and Amy had had sex with outside of their marriage. Sam was very very handsome, just as Amy had said. He was also poised and friendly. I knew him to be in his early fifties and I now understood why younger women liked some men at that age. He just exuded a relaxed confidence that I found really sexy. And I knew that Amy wanted them to give us our first taste of the Club.
After a bit of chit chat about the resort I was surprised when Sam said to us, "Lauren, lets you and I go for a walk around the resort. Danielle can keep Dave company while we're away." I shot a glance at Dave and he simply shrugged and replied, "Sam, I'll leave Lauren in your capable hands. Have a good walk."
I was still a bit surprised but I got up and stepped off the porch. I was even more surprised when Sam took my hand as we walked. I think he sensed how uncomfortable I was.
"Lauren, are you okay with this? You seem a little tense," Sam asked as we walked down the path. Tense was not all I was feeling. Sam holding my hand made the reality of what we were doing here just that much more real. I felt like running but I didn't
"Um, well... just a little nervous I have to say."
"About what Lauren? You know nobody here will hurt you or force you to do anything you don't want to do."
"I know, I know, but I'm still trying to get my mind around... around what goes on in the Club."
"Lauren, its really simple. We enjoy sex with each other, nothing more and nothing less and no-one gets hurt.
"And we do it with the full knowledge of our partner. There's no sneaking around in shady hotels or back seats of cars. I support Danielle when she's with another man from the Club and she really likes the women I sleep with who are also from the Club." If I wasn't blushing before I sure was now. I fanned my face at his forthright assurances.
"Hey, lets sit down on this bench and enjoy the view," Sam said as he guided me by the hand to sit beside him. He still held me close with my hand in his resting on his lap.
"Lauren, I do get why you're uneasy about all this. We all felt this way at the beginning and honestly, its not for every couple. Your marriage has to be solid and then you have to have that spark of adventure to make it work."
"Dave and I are really solid and we are intrigued by the possibilities but I can't shake the feeling of standing on a cliff edge, so to speak."
"So what would make you more comfortable with all this? You wouldn't be here if at some level you didn't want to experience what we do with each other. I know that if you really want this you'll be so happy you did. It's really safe. Its totally consensual and its totally fun, you'll see."
My mind was in a whirl. Of course it would be fun - for him. He wants to get me naked and fuck me. But that's what we're here for right? Don't I want to fuck him? Yes, if I can believe the fluttering in my lower parts - he is good looking after all. No, because I'm married to a great guy, but wait, isn't he now back at our cottage with Danielle, Sam's super attractive wife. Are they doing it right now? Why did we come here? Would I leave if Dave asked? I honestly don't know but here I am sitting with a guy who clearly wants to fuck me. Oh shit!
But what I said was, "Yeah, I know all that but I'm afraid I'm just too uptight to really get into it. And I'm taking so much of your time when there are other women here, Amy included, who would love to be doing it with you, right now as we speak."
Sam sat back and sighed while still holding my hand. We were quiet for awhile just enjoying the peacefulness of the resort. It really was a beautiful spot. Finally he spoke, "Lauren there are many reasons I want to be here with you right now but let me tell you the most important. I can tell that you are smart, funny and I just know that you would make a wonderful lover. I will be fully honest with you. I want to have you. The more I get to know you I realize I want you really badly. So there, full disclosure."
Yep, I can tell when a guy wants to fuck me.
"Sam, you're a gorgeous man. Why me?" Could I divert his attention away from me? Did I really want that? Why are we here? Oh yeah, to have sex with other people. Oh. My. God.
