"Lauren, is there anything wrong?" Amy asked as she pulled her shopping cart up behind me. I knew she was in the store and I tried to deliberately 'not notice' her. But seeing Amy this close was uncomfortable. And that was a new thing for me. We were best of friends, or at least I thought we were before the previous Saturday night. After that, I wasn't so sure.
"No, not at all," I replied in a higher pitched tone than I was shooting for. "What makes you think that?"
"Well for starters you haven't replied to my texts about coffee. You're kids haven't come over to play since last week. I don't know, it just feels like something is different." There was something different but it all seemed so petty now. Yes, I was hurt, but mostly confused. Amy and Tom had hosted what seemed to be a pretty big and boisterous party last Saturday with lots of cars up and down the street and people coming and going with laughter and loud music. I had thought we were close enough friends to be invited. Amy hadn't even mentioned it on the Friday when the kids were playing in their back yard pool. We would have needed time to arrange a sitter but there was no mention. I just felt Dave and I had been left out for some reason and I didn't know why.
Amy looked at me closely for a few seconds and then asked, "Lets finish groceries and would you then come over for a coffee? We can talk. The kids won't have to be picked up from school for a couple of hours."
"Are you sure you want me there?" I replied, stupidly I might add. Amy was really my best friend in this new neighbourhood and for what ever reason we didn't make the guest list of their party it was not my business. Still, I couldn't hide my hurt.
She looked at me hard and spoke slowly, "This is about last Saturday night isn't it. You're wondering why you and Dave weren't invited. Believe me it had nothing to do with you or him. Lets hold this conversation until coffee. One hour, okay?" I nodded my head and we parted.
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"I hadn't said much since sitting down in Amy's kitchen, a place that had seemed so familiar and friendly before the weekend. I knew I was being difficult but I couldn't shake the feeling of rejection.
Amy took a deep breath and started, "Look, it wasn't anything you did. Tom and I love you two and wouldn't do anything to hurt you. We've only been friends for a few months since you moved onto the street but we really do value and love your friendship. I wasn't planning on going into this as... well, it can be a bit awkward but here goes. Tom and I belong to a club, well sort of a club. It was our turn to host and yeah, a party ensues and it can get a bit raucous. This club - and I know this sounds a bit... well pretentious may be the word - but new members have to be vetted by a committee of sorts. So we couldn't just invite you or any of the other neighbours."
"Okay, I think I'm beginning to understand but, please forgive my curiosity, it does sound a bit mysterious."
"That it does, but really, we're just out to have fun. We're not a bunch of witches or weird cult crazies."
"Good to hear that. My kids and cats are safe it seems," I replied a bit sarcastically but also a bit relieved.
"So let's plan for you and Dave to fire up the BBQ here next Friday?"
"Great idea, lets do it but I have to tell you I'm a bit curious about your 'club.'" I actually used air quotes.
Amy sighed, "It's really nothing just a bunch of people getting together for... well, for fun."
More curious than ever, I probed, "Well Dave and I like fun. What do we have to do to join."
Amy stirred her coffee a bit nervously, "Not everyone likes this sort of fun. We're not sure you and Dave would be up for this and well, we don't usually have close neighbours participate. It could get awkward."
"Hmm.... now I'm really curious. Are you sure you don't sacrifice miscreants or commune with aliens."
"Ha! No, nothing quite so exotic. Trust me, no one is sacrificed to the evil gods."
"Well, even if you do dance naked around a stone effigy Dave and I wouldn't report you to the Taliban." Her eyes widened for a sec and I realized it was at the 'dance naked' part of my joke. Whoa, what's really going on in this corner of suburbia? We were both quiet for a few minutes drinking our coffee.
Then she looked hard at me and asked, "Do you really want to know?"
"Well not if you have to kill me after."
Amy laughed. "No worries there, but you might want to kill me,"
"Okay, here goes. It's a sex club. Couples get together and have sex with each other. That's all, nothing really much to it," Amy said quickly while looking at her coffee and stirring it again.
So really nothing at all. Really?? My sweet adorable PTA attending, church going, beacon of responsibility and good judgment is a sex club member?? Perhaps she just hosts and hands out drinks and ensures everyone is enjoying the party. My mind just simply blanked at the thought of Amy having sex with other guys. No, that really couldn't happen, could it?
A long silence ensued. She finally looked up at me very tentative like and raised her eyebrows. Neither of us spoke for a minute or two longer. I was still in a mild state of shock. Finally Amy asked, "Are you disappointed in me?"
"Amy, No! I would never judge you or anyone else who does that, whatever that really is. I'm just processing what you said and yeah, I am a bit taken aback, that's all. But I'm okay really," I babbled out in a long string.
"Good. So you're still okay to be my friend even though I'm a bit of a pervert," she said with a giggle.