Don't get me wrong it's not what your thinking, I didn't fancy dave and besides he was married and quite devoted to her. This was just a bit of fun between the three of us.
It never went anywhere and I didn't want it to, not with dave anyway.
Although john would have wanted it to, he later told me.
What this episode of our lives together did, was to highlight something we had kept secret from one another for a long time.
It was john that took the first step and revealed his innermost fantasy to me.....
One night, after a few drinks too many we got onto our favourite subject of fantasies. Dave and the pictures were brought up, john knew I didn't fancy dave so he posed the question hypothetically, asking that if dave was my type would I have been tempted to take things further with him?
I knew what he was getting at and answered his question with my own.
Would he want that to happen? Me with another guy?
John gave out a nervous laugh and adjusted his position on the sofa, then while looking down at the floor slowly nodded, answering.
"Yeah....I would"
These few words were the start of a very long conversation that night, which continued in bed. In hushed voices as the boys were nearby in their bedrooms.
John told me how he had always fantasised about me with another guy but was afraid to tell me because he believed I would think he didn't love me.
After all we are married and before john I'd only had one other boyfriend, and I was only with him a couple of months.
At that point we'd been married 15 years and neither of us had strayed.
We are loyal to each other. I can still say that after all that's happened since because I am loyal to him in my heart. My love for john has not changed.
I asked him lots of questions. One of the first being.
"How long have you felt this way?"
He replied that it was a long time, starting shortly after we'd been married.
I also asked.
"Would you want to just watch or join in?"
John told me it was mainly watching but also some taking part.
As we discussed the subject, I found myself becoming aroused. I could feel it getting moist down there.
John's hard on was obvious, I could feel it brushing against my thigh while we lay in bed.
It was now my turn to make a confession.......
John already knew about my old man fantasy. But what he didn't know was how, when we lived at church view I had the hots for george, the charming old guy who lived near us.