Tag. Cuckold.
The Best Man Pt 6
The best description of the drive home from camping would be torturous. Made worse by a hour long detour to get some emergency contraception in Wagga. We pulled up outside the same pharmacist we visited after the wedding. I kept my seat belt on and the motor running.
"Aren't you coming in?"
"No, I'll get some lunch and we'll meet you in the park down there." I pointed to a green space with some trees two blocks down.
Angelica sat and glared for a moment then unclicked her seatbelt and got out. At the park everyone ate in silence. Back on the road the earbuds went in so I was treated to the faint sounds of three different genres of music. At my ex's house the kids got out. They told their mother they'd had a great time. David gushed as he retold his story of catching a fish. Only when the subject of our revised departure time was mentioned did their mood sour.
"We were supposed to stay today as well but Dad had some work emergency." My son huffed then walked inside the house with his bag.
"Well, he is such a busy man." My ex wife commented.
I couldn't help but note a hint of smug satisfaction that our adventure hadn't been a complete success. At least she didn't know the actual reason for our change of plans. She probably would have thrown an impromptu party inviting all our former friends to revel in my humiliation. When I got back into the ute for the last leg back into the city I saw my wife didn't have her ear buds in. I took that as a sign she wanted to talk.
"Was it the same pharmacist?" I asked after we had rounded the first corner.
"No, it was a man," my wife replied through clenched teeth. "He said I could have it for free if I blew him in the storeroom."
"He must have heard there was a high probability it would be a two for one deal." I retorted.
"Fuck you, you started this."
"Yeah, I made you a generous offer based on you communicating with me and showing some discretion." I thumped my hand against the steering wheel in frustration. "And what did I get? You sneak out to fuck your boyfriend out in the open just down from where my kids were camping."
"It was down past the toilet, a long way from where they were camping."
"I found you. What about if one of them had gone to the outhouse."
"You were specifically looking for me." Angelica's finger pointed at my chest then aimed lower. "And you watched for quite a while."
I didn't have a witty comeback for that so I lapsed into the silent treatment. That continued while we unpacked back at the apartment. I took off again soon after, taking the trailer to a local park. There I unfolded it before giving the inside a thorough going over with a cordless vacuum. Back at the apartment I was in the kitchen getting a drink of water when Angelica came in. Her hair was wet from a shower and she'd changed her clothes. She made her way cautiously towards me.
"I'm sorry Col. I really am most desperately sorry. I should have told you. I just thought I was going to give him my phone number." She came close enough to touch me on the arm. "I just... I didn't think and it escalated then he saw you watching and..."
"Don't put this back on me."
"I'm not. I know I let it go too far. I'm sorry, I don't want us to fight." Angelica came closer until she pressed against me. "Just hold me, please?"
I put my arms around her and she pressed her face against my shoulder and neck. Angelica's shoulders shuddered as she sobbed. I could feel moisture from her tears against my skin. When the flood had slowed to a trickle I eased her back so I could see her face.
"Can you forgive me?" Angelica asked.
"It's not about forgiveness. We need to clarify the ground rules."
"Okay," she said as she wiped her tears away on the sleeve of her shirt.
I had thought Angelica may declare our open marriage experiment was over. It appeared not to be the case and I wasn't sure I wanted it to be. We went back to the living area and sat on the lounge.
"When we discussed this before I stressed communication. I want to know what's going on before it happens. Not find out after you have snuck off."
"I didn't sneak off, you saw me leave."
"You said to the toilet."
"I did go there first, and I was just going to give him my number... it's just..."
"It's just what?"
"He... he wanted me to go back with him to his house. He said he'd bring me back before dawn. I said no, I couldn't because... because you didn't know so I had to get back."
"Why didn't you?"
"Um, god, this makes me sound like a slut... we were kissing and he was still trying to persuade me so I offered to suck his cock. I thought I could get him off then get back before you noticed."
"But that didn't happen."
"No, he was holding back and then he saw you watching. He said I didn't have to worry so we should fuck so you can see."
"So it was a power trip for you both."
"Not for me, and you didn't come out of the shadows and demand we stop."
"Would you have if I did?"
"Yes, the question is why didn't you?"
I had to ponder on that question for a few seconds.
"Probably because I didn't want to be humiliated if you refused or, or just ignored me."
"I wouldn't do that."
"Really? He seems to have quite a hold over you."
"Only when we're alone. I stayed well clear of him before then. You're my man, he's just a dalliance." I didn't reply so Angelica used the silence question me. "Did you get turned on watching? You weren't pissed about it when I got back to the camper or when I was riding you..."
"Maybe."
"That's not an answer."
"It's complicated." I deflected.
"Complicated how?"
"Watching you is hot. The first time with him was as well. Now not so much."
"What's the difference?"
"Um, I'm not sure how to describe it..." I wanted to jump up and run away to escape the questions but didn't. "Control maybe? The first time I felt I was directing what happened until, well you know when. Then, the other night the distance and muted light meant it wasn't as real... that probably makes no sense."
"Yeah, it does." Angelica put a reassuring hand on my face. "But if it bothers you why offer me these free passes?"
"Because... "
I stopped unable to say the words that had flashed into my mind. It was a moment of clarity I hadn't expected. In the end they had to be said.
"Because you need it..."
"That's bullshit!" My wife stepped back abruptly like I'd slapped her.
"Wait, hear me out." It was my turn to provide reassurance with a soft hand on her face. "Right from the start I've been mesmerised by you. You're smart, beautiful, loving and sexy as hell. My problem is every guy sees it. Even if you don't mean to, you play on it."
"No I don't."
"So you don't flirt?"
"That's a lot different."
"Is it? How many different cocks have you had in your hand since we've been married?"
"That's not fair. I didn't confess that for you to throw it back in my face."
"I'm not. It just illustrates my point."
"But nothing else happened."
"So nothing else happened in the toilet with Johnno the night we first met him?" Angelica's eyes dropped as she deflated. "I love you Angelica. I know you love me but I also know that sometimes you crave something else."
"And you think I'm such a slut that I can't help myself?"
"I think last night demonstrates that."
Angelica bought both her hands up to her face. The fingers spread as she pushed them up through her hair. Her head came back up and she rubbed her eyes in a tired way before looking back at me.
"Jesus, this is so fucked up." She said softly. "Why, no, not why. Um, how did it make you feel when I went on the date to the cricket?"
"Why do you want to know that?"
"I'm trying to understand what you get out of this arrangement."
"You come back to me, um, happier? grateful? recharged? I'm not sure how to describe it."
"But what about just before? And when I'm out? What are your feelings then?"
Now it was my turn to take some time out to ponder my response. I stretched my arms above my head then out in front as I mulled over my answer.
"Uncertainty, why am I doing this. Then anxiety, what if you don't come back, what if you do but your feelings have changed." I rubbed my hand over my face, then looked down at the floor. "And when you come back, like, when I hear the door open, intense relief."
I wasn't able to look at Angelica for a moment. I felt very exposed. When I did she gave me a little smile and I could see a little tear on her cheek.
"Wow, I don't think you've ever opened up to me like that before." She pulled me into a tight embrace. "I'm never letting you go mister."
We stayed close, our heads touching for a minute until Angelica pulled back and wiped her eyes.
"Now don't take this the wrong way but you stink Col. Wood smoke, sweat and river water." She stood up. "So it's bathtime for you."
I let her lead me to the bathroom. There she turned on the taps and left them running before she began undressing me. Not in a erotic or sexual way. More nurse like. After she'd checked the water temperature Angelica pointed to the bath.
"Get in and I'll put your clothes in the wash."
I did as I was told. Relaxing beneath the warm water. Angelica returned, got an exfoliating glove from the vanity, knelt down and proceeded to wash me from top to bottom. She even shampooed my hair. Once again it was all very business like until she declared I was acceptably clean. Then her hands moved to my cock.
"Hmmm, maybe I should stretch this out and make sure I didn't miss a spot?"
My wife fingers worked their magic. When I was hard she kept slowly stroking it.
"Maybe we should move this somewhere more comfortable?" I suggested.