A Killer Wound
There is one thing I know for certain as the licensed owner of a hand gun. Once you pull that trigger and the firing pin hits the primer, that bullet is going to leave the barrel at approximately 1200 feet per second. There is no 'ooops moment', that projectile is heading towards its target.
If you're proficient and your aim is true it is going to hit that target whether it is a paper bullseye or flesh and bone.
I guess my only consolation is that the trigger I pulled that Friday night when I intended to do serious harm to my husband, was a figurative one. The result didn't physically injure him but it tore a hole through his soul and killed our marriage.
My name is Catherine Mastrioni, and have been married to Salvatore Mastrioni for just under ten years. We will probably not celebrate our tenth anniversary on the 15th of next month. We will still be married since divorce is a long tedious affair but we will certainly not be 'celebrating'.
Even sadder is the fact that we had long ago decided that on that day I would go off the pill and we would start our family, Sal has always been goal oriented. He never did anything haphazardly or impulsively. He plans everything far in advance. When we bought our house, he knew exactly what we wanted, where we wanted it and we spent a year working with a realtor until we got exactly what we wanted at the price we were willing to pay. When we purchased our last car he knew what make, model and color we wanted and that's what we got. Sal resisted the high- pressure sales practiced by the salesmen and after visiting several dealerships he negotiated the price he knew the car should sell for. When we bought furniture or lawn equipment Sal did the same extensive research. I guess it's true what they say: 'opposites attract' because I am an impulse buyer. If I see a dress, handbag or shoes that I like, I buy them. I don't look for them cheaper somewhere else. Of course, I often suffer from buyer's remorse. Recently I saw an ad for a case of wine for $69 so I got out my trusty credit card and ordered it. Why not"? I thought, how can you go wrong. Actually, when it arrived the wine was pretty good. However, the next month another case was delivered and on investigation I found that I hadn't read the fine print and basically had signed up for a "wine of the month" club. Four months and forty-eight bottles of wine later I was able to disentangle myself from that fiasco. Amazingly, in my professional life I am meticulous, I make sure every I is dotted and every T is crossed but in my personal life, not so much.
Sal is an attorney at a medium size law firm, specializing in mergers and acquisitions and I am an attorney at a large firm specializing in corporate tax law. At thirtyfive, he was just made a junior partner and at thirty two I have no ambition to rise the corporate ladder and am just another cog in their legal machinery. Our goal has been to remain relatively debt free, except for our mortgage, and for us to raise a family with me being a stay at home mom.
The plan was right on track until last Thursday evening. Sal had a long, stressful day at the office and arrived home a little later than usual. We had decided to make it an easy night and I had just ordered pizza when my sister, Mo, called in a panic.
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One thing that Sal and I were adamant about was fidelity. We had both experienced the devastating effects of betrayal. For me it was with Teddy, my college boyfriend. We weren't engaged but we were exclusive. We thought we were in love, or at least I did, and we had even discussed eventual marriage after graduation. Although we didn't live together we had been intimate for almost a year when Teddy decided to betray me. I say decided because infidelity is always a choice.
We were both seniors at the time and had been invited to his wealthy roommates' home for a party hosted by his parents at their estate. His roommate's father was a well-known neurosurgeon and his wife a VP of a financial investment firm. I expected them to be elitist snobs but in fact they were both very cordial and friendly during the brief time that we spoke.
There was a chill in the air that spring evening so most of the fifty or so attendees were scattered about inside of the house and although most of the people were friends and associates of the hosts there were a fair amount of younger people from the university that I knew, some just by sight and others that I had attended classes with.
The event was catered and there was a bar set up near the buffet table and although liquor and wine was available the crowd was lively but well behaved. The music was just loud enough to encourage some dancing but subdued enough not to interfere with conversation. Teddy and I had been together for the first hour or so but had drifted into different conversational groups. As a pre-law student, I and several other law students were having a conversation with an attorney who worked with the hostesses' company. We were discussing the merits of various graduate schools, their costs, the possible difficulty of admission and so on.
I noticed that Teddy had been to the bar several times accompanied by an older attractive blonde that I didn't recognize. I had seen them dance a few times but nothing unseemly occurred. Actually, they seemed to be talking and laughing more than dancing so I was not concerned.
As the conversation of our little group started to wane, the attorney, an attractive guy in his early thirties asked me to dance. His name was Malcom and he was as good a dancer as he was a conversationalist. After several dances, including a slow number, he lead me to the bar for another wine. He kept the conversation light and it was mostly about law along with a few stories about some of his more colorful clients.
I had noticed his wedding ring and casually asked if his wife was at the party. With a dismissive wave of his hand he exclaimed:
"She's here somewhere, he laughed. She's a bit of a flirt and likes to socialize". Then more seriously, he added: "We have a somewhat of an open relationship. We don't subscribe to the societal boundaries that are imposed by most marriages".
Malcom seemed a little miffed when the hostess just then approached and took him by the arm to introduce him to someone. However, being a little shocked and not having a reply to his last comment, I was quite relieved and moved off to find Teddy. After checking all of the rooms where guests were congregated I moved on to the patio to join a few hearty souls that didn't seem to mind the chill. One of my fellow law students, Liz, was out there finishing a cigarette so I asked if she had seen Teddy.
"Teddy"? she replied inquisitively. "Oh right, the guy you came with. I saw him a few minutes ago walking towards the gazebo."
With that she headed back inside and I moved toward the gazebo which was on the far side of the pool, nestled in among some trees. As I peered in Teddy was standing in the dim ambient light with his back to me and as I was about to call to him I saw movement in front of him. I took a few steps to the side and saw the slim blonde woman that he had been dancing with moving her head rhythmically on his cock.