I love oral, giving and receiving. My wife loves it too, up to a point. She won't let me lick her pussy if she doesn't feel clean enough down there. And she loves the feeling of going down on me, but she'd prefer it to be foreplay rather than the main course. It could always be the main and only course and that'd be ok with me.
So when there are special occasions coming up, the type of special occasions like birthdays or anniversaries where spouses get to tell their spouse exactly what they want, I'll be thinking about oral sex, and usually about sixty-nine. Somehow it's almost better when I know it's not what she would have chosen. We'll fumble into position, with her a little bit reluctant to be in an orientation where I can lick as much and as deeply as I like without her being able to push me away. Can we do it on our sides? Maybe access doesn't quite work that way? Is she on the bottom, letting me push down on her and control the rhythm? Or is she on top, feeling like her whole pussy area is all over my face, squashing me and making her feel exposed.
Right now, I'm planning how I will get her into this situation. She wants me to force her a little bit, so that she can allow herself to enjoy sex without being the slutty woman who initiated it. I haven't done it before, but I'm preparing to blackmail my wife. I also have another card in my hand. She's asked me many times before about my sexual history, the details of what I got up to with the ex-girlfriends, as well as some more secret experiences I've only hinted about. I've always insisted on my right to privacy and been coy if I've told her anything at all. Now if, in bed, I make the right suggestions, I can probably get her to agree to swap Truth for Dare. She likes to be pre-commited, to have agreed to "do anything I want".
A hyperobject is an object which we're deeply entwined with and in, but can't fully grasp or even get close. We are used to the idea with other human beings that we can deeply love them, embrace them and internalize their existence, but yet not really know anything about them, not even that they're not a robot or an illusion. Lots of 'things' can be like this, in the theory of hyperobjects. A hyperobject is not an abstract object like justice or nature. It's a real object, but one which is complicated, sticky and hard to perceive, bound or understand. Sometimes the idea of an 'object' seems to mainly refer to simple, contained objects like cups, tables, cars. Nebulous, open-ended, pervasive objects seem to be the exception. Once you start to look for hyperobjects though, they seem to be everywhere, and 'manageable' things present as exceptions, or resolve themselves as the tendrils or projections of hyperobjects.