Again, a sincere thank you to Harddaysknight for his critical read of my story before publishing. Real life and a lot of hours working sometimes takes my concentration away from my writing, and he spots those lapses for me.
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I was more interested in writing and history than I was interested in math and science for most of my school years, with the exception of my eighth grade year.
Mrs. Blackstone taught science my eighth grade year, and for one year at least, I was interested in science. To be honest, I wasn't that much more interested in the subject that I had ever been: I was a 14-year-old hornball, and I had a thing for Mrs. Blackstone.
It's not that Mrs. Blackstone was a young beauty on the verge of being a Sports Illustrated swimsuit model. She was about 45 at the time and a little chunky, but she was fairly pretty and had big solid tits, and there was just something about her that gave me a hard-on on a regular basis. It was somewhat embarrassing, and I always felt she somehow knew how she affected me.
Not that she ever did anything to encourage me, of course. I knew it was just in my own head, but I could have sworn there were several times where she would look at me, know she got me hard, and then give me a little smile. Then I would go home that night and have a wet dream about her. I probably would have killed someone for her had she asked. As it was, I made it through the school year without totally embarrassing myself, and my science grades for that year jumped from the 80s to the 90s.
I went into the high school the next year and forgot about Mrs. Blackstone.
Fast forward four years. I was coming out of the high school boys' gym locker room after baseball practice, and Mrs. Blackstone was coming out of the girls' locker room probably after working out in the high school weight room, as several teachers did on a regular basis. She had gotten dressed back in her regular clothes and was walking toward the parking lot, ahead of me. I didn't recognize her from the back side, but I did notice that the middle button on her blouse was undone, and the back of her white bra was showing. I know it was only the back of her white bra, but again, I was a teenage hornball, and I started to get turned on. I came to my senses enough, though, to realize that I should probably say something to this woman.
"Ma'am. Ma'am," I called after the woman. She turned around and faced me; that's when I realized it was Mrs. Blackstone.
"Well, hi, Robert. How have you been? Do you like the high school?"
"Uh, yeah, Mrs. Blackstone, I like it. Excuse me, but you've left a button undone on your blouse," I said.
She blushed deeply. She had a gym bag in one hand and a folder in the other, so she would have to put both down to button her blouse, or ...
"I could get that button for your, Mrs. Blackstone. I've done a button or two for my mom over the years," I volunteered.
"That would be very nice of you, Robert. Could you do it quickly, please, for obvious reasons?"
I stepped over to her and did up the button as she turned her back toward me.
"Thank you, Robert. Your mother raised a gentleman."
"You're welcome, Mrs. Blackstone," I sputtered while remembering I hadn't taken a breath in about a minute.
Mrs. Blackstone went off to her car and I walked the mile to my house, thinking that I was only four buttons away from unbottoning Mrs. Blackstone's blouse. I had a wet dream about her that night.
I thought about Mrs. Blackstone for the next five days, and on the sixth day I saw her again at the high school, this time with her blouse all buttoned. We talked briefly, then as we were both ready to go our separate ways, she gave me a bone-stiffening look and asked if I had turned 18 yet.
"About a month ago, why?" was my quick answer.
"Thought so, no reason," was her reply.
Admittedly, we teenage boys can be so totally clueless, but when I saw her again the next week I got the feeling it wasn't a coincidence. She looked a little nervous as she asked me to join her inside the gym, and we went to a deserted corner.
"I have a proposition for you, Robert, and I'm sure it's unlike anything you've ever heard, so we need to go someplace quiet. How about one of the literacy rooms in the library?"
I nodded and started to follow her, watching her round ass as we headed to the library. The library seemed empty, but still she headed for a literacy room and closed the door behind us.
"I want to ask you something, but before I ask, I need to get your sworn promise that what we're about to talk about will never go any further than us, just you and me. It's really important that what we're going to talk about never gets discussed with anyone ... not your parents, not your friends, not even your dog. You got that?"
Despite the fact that we were in an enclosed room in a seemingly empty library, Mrs. Blackstone was practically whispering. Whatever was coming had to be damn serious, I thought.
"I will take this with me to my grave, if that's what you want, Mrs. Blackstone."
"That's exactly what I want, Robert."
She looked as serious as a heart attack. I thought she was going to pass out on me, but she finally spoke.
"My husband has an incurable neurological disease and is slowly dying. We haven't had sex in more than two years. It hurts not to have sex with the man I love, but I can make do. However, my husband thinks I should find a discreet sex partner to help me deal with the stress, so I don't fall into bed with the wrong person at the wrong time and wind up hating myself for cheating on him. I don't want to cheat on my husband, but he says this wouldn't be cheating if I was discreet and still respected him. I want you to be my sex partner."
The words came out in a hushed rush, and I had to listen very carefully. It was a good thing I was sitting in a chair while she was talking to me, because I'm pretty sure I would have fallen down had I been standing up.
"Me?" I croaked. "Why me?"
I'm sure most 18-year-old hornballs wouldn't have hesitated to say yes, but apparently I'm a special kind of stupid. I remembered the old saying that said if something seems to good to be true, it probably is.
"Partially because you asked the exact right question, rather than just say yes to what appears to be gratuitous sex," Mrs. Blackstone replied.
"I understand what my husband, in his loving way, is saying. I didn't even consider it for the first year, but after a second year and with who knows how much longer this could go on, I see what his fear is. But it still seems so wrong.
"It's supposed to be sex, without emotion, without love. Normally that's not how I'm built, so even considering the act with someone other than my husband has me blown away. But with you being a kid and all, it wouldn't be anything where I have to worry about emotions creeping in. I'm not going to get emotionally attached to an 18-year-old kid, and you're not going to ever get emotionally attached with someone who is probably older than your mother. If you could even stand to have sex with a woman my age."
She was blushing stop sign red while she was talking. I could see she was incredibly uncomfortable, but at the same time I was starting to get excited. I shook my head a bit to clear it. Could this woman that I've had wet dreams about really be asking me to have sex with her? Wasn't there a movie like this with Dustin Hoffman in it about a million years ago? I know I should have felt more compassion for her considering her situation with her husband, but what can I say, I'm 18, and -- holy shit -- this woman just asked me to have sex with her!
I tried to answer, but there were no words coming from my mouth. I started to hyperventilate. She had been looking at the ground while talking, but she finally looked up when she heard me wheezing.
"Slow down, try to breathe normally," she offered.
It took about 30 seconds before I regained my composure, and when I finally did, Mrs. Blackstone figured it out for both of us.
"I'm sorry, Robert. I didn't mean to do that to you. I get it. You're 18. You don't need to say a thing.
"OK, then, now that we've got that out of the way, let me do a little more figuring, then I will have some ground rules to set. Remember, no talking about this ... to anyone, ever."
"Yes, ma'am."
To say the least, I was more than a little distracted for the next week. It was even tough to concentrate on the baseball field. Seemed like every few minutes I was fantasizing about having sex with Mrs. Blackstone. I got a late jump on a ball hit out toward me in center field during a game on Tuesday, and it dropped in for a hit. Coach knew I wasn't totally concentrating, and I got pulled when we came in to the bench for our turn to hit.
"Damn it, Jarrett! Unless you want to spend the rest of the season riding pine, you'll get your head out of your ass when you're out there. You get to balls most center fielders can only dream about most of the time, but you were out there daydreaming on this one. Thinking about your next at-bat. Don't be. I got you out there for your glove son, not your stick. If you weren't such a good fielder, Hickey would be my center fielder."