Chapter 1: A Memorial Day
"Tara, are you up there? We are out of margarita mix."
"Yes, Bob. I'll be down in a few minutes." As I try to catch my breath and wrap my mind around what just happened.
I am a church going, 40-year-old married mother of one son. I work part time as a book keeper and really don't think of myself as anything but a plain Jane homebody. I am 5'3 about 110 pounds, long straight auburn hair, green eyes, and not very gifted in the chest area, I am a small 32B. My husband, Bob, and I have been married for twenty years. He is a very conservative man that is a business lawyer, and loves his golf. Oh, and he is much older than I, he just turned 54 last month. We met at a church picnic and he has taken care of me so I have had no worries, but he has never been an exciting person.
Now that you know about me, let's go back to that day two years ago, when my world changed.
It was the Saturday of Memorial Day weekend and Bob and I have always thrown a big party for all of our friends and family. There were about 50 people there, having a great time eating, swimming, playing games, and, of course, drinking. It was about 6pm and it was still hot so I decided to soak in the pool just to cool off for a few minutes before going back to playing hostess. I was in a lavender and white flowered bikini top with a matching bikini shorts bottom. As I was just standing in the shallow end cooling down, a bunch of kids and other people were clowning around in the pool. All of a sudden, Josh grabbed me from behind and picked me up. I screamed "NO! Put me down," as I was kicking my legs, but too late, Josh pulled me backwards with him and under the water I went.
Josh is my my best friend Krista's 20-year-old son. Krista is a friend from church, and is 5 years older than I am and recently divorced after her abusive husband took things a little too far. I have watched Josh grow up as he is only two years older then my son, Colton, and they have always gotten along pretty well.
So there I was gasping for air, standing in the pool looking like a drowned rat. I had had no intention of getting my hair wet, just a little cool down in pool. So, I climbed out of the pool as everyone had a good chuckle at my expense, and I just laughed along. I grabbed my towel and dried off some and decided I would go upstairs to take care of my hair. I looked around to find my husband to tell him so that he could play host. As I glanced around, I saw he was busy playing horseshoes and decided not to bother him. I told my son, who was having fun playing chef on the grill, that I would be back in a few minutes. He said that he had things under control, so I went in and walked upstairs to the master suite.
I walked into my room, only partially closing the door, and walked into the bathroom, leaving that door wide open. I was standing in front of my vanity with a towel on my head drying my hair, and when I took the towel off my head I looked in the mirror and jumped Josh was standing right behind me.
After my heart slowed down some, I looked at him in the mirror and asked, "What are you doing up here?"
He didn't answer the question. I felt his hands on my hips and his breath in my ear. "You are by far the best-looking woman at this party. I'm sorry for messing up your hair."
"That's okay, and thanks for the compliment." I looked at him in the mirror. I expected him to leave, but he didn't and I didn't ask him to.
I started running a comb thru my hair with his hands still on my hips. I had a million thoughts go through my head in about one second. Then as I combed my hair to the side, Josh leaned over and gently kissed the base of my neck. I sternly said "Josh, stop that! What do you think your doing?" Without answering he pulled my hips back into him and started kissing my neck and ear. I kept telling him "Stop, I am a married woman. This is wrong," but I wasn't physically making any attempt to get away from him. As he continued, the most amazing tingling feeling went through my body. I hadn't felt that way since I was a teenager. Josh continued his assault on my neck and my body started betraying me even though my mouth said "NO".
"Please stop, someone could have seen you come up here, and your mother and my family are downstairs." I can't believe that my concern wasn't that it was so wrong, but that we might get caught. Then without thinking, I stopped pretending to comb my hair and put both hands on the vanity, and pushed my butt back into him. He took this as a sign that I was okay with this, and started thrusting against me as I was pushing back. I just closed my eyes, and continued to tell him to "Stop" but my body said yes, and my tone of voice drastically changed.
Josh's kisses started turning from gentle kisses to soft nibbles, it drove me crazy and my breathing changed. I was starting to breathe harder and a few soft moans even escaped. The hands that were on my hips started to slowly push my bikini bottoms down, and with no thought about the party or my husband downstairs, I started wiggling my hips to help him slide them down my legs. When they hit the floor, I stepped out of them and parted my legs. I have no idea how or when but Josh's swim trunks were off and I could feel his hardness resting on my butt. I then opened my eyes and looked in the mirror and saw Josh not as the boy I had seen growing up, but as a man that I wanted. We made eye contact in the mirror and I know I had lust in my eyes. He asked me politely, "Do you want me to stop?"