Chapter 2.
This doesn't even feel like my home anymore. Analyze the situation, break the problem into parts and solve one part at a time. That's what I always do when there's a difficult problem at work. You have to stay sane and not let that feeling of hopelessness take hold. I cannot believe she really cheated. I was sure it was just teasing. Something has to change radically now, otherwise I lose my mind. It's pretty clear now that I can't turn Lana's head around in this, so there's no point in trying anymore. I can't stand this, that's clear. That Rick option doesn't work for me. If I wait here until Sunday and be here when Lana comes, the situation has not changed in any way. The same problem is ahead and there is going to be a terrible argument. I've never been humiliated like this. All my dignity is gone. I cannot face her like this. This rumination must be stopped. I must find some chore that takes the thoughts away. I can't bear to see Lana for the time being, so I have to disappear somewhere. But to where? I don't have any friends I can go to. Rick is out of the game because of Lisa. I hate motels. So I have to find a place and get out of here by Sunday night. Well, at least that keeps me busy.
Fortunately, we are financially separated and I have enough savings to get by. I probably don't have a tenth of what Lana has, but I don't want anything from her even if we divorced. But where can I go? I can't stand an apartment building. I have to have space and things to do. That means a detached house. The money is not enough for a new one, so an old one. After all the goal was to stay busy. Let's see what is available on the market.
40-year-old, slightly dilapidated detached house, 2000 square feet and a large yard. Pretty close too. You can see from the pictures that it badly needs renovation. But it's not so bad now that you can't move there right away. And it's already free. The money would be enough for that and there would still be left some for renovation. I'll call that broker right away.
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"It does feel quite appropriate. In fact, better than I imagined. Who sells this?"
"The seller is an old couple whose husband got Alzheimer's disease and they need money for a nursing home. Mary already moved to an apartment building near the nursing home and now they need money quickly for expenses. The offer on this could go through quickly if it was close to the asking price."
"OK, let's do it this way: I'll offer the asking price for this, the offer is valid for two hours. If the seller accepts the offer, I want the keys right away and move in at the weekend. The deal can be finalized as soon as you get the papers in order."
"Could you pay 5,000 in advance right away if the seller accepts?"
"Yes."
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"The seller accepted the offer. If you make a bank transfer to this account, you will get the keys. The deal will be finalized next week. I will then announce the date."
"Great...Well, there you can see the transaction on the screen. Send me a message about the final trade. Thanks for the quick action."
"Thank you, thank you. May I ask what the rush is about?"
"I hit a brick wall with my wife and I need to get out immediately."
"I'm sorry, in this profession these stories are unfortunately familiar. Good luck, though."
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That was the last box. I have surprisingly little junk. If there were no tools, they would have fit in the pick-up truck. Should I leave a message for Lana? So what could I say on that. Something bitter. What would that help. Some wishes for a future life with the swimmer boy. Doesn't sound very honest. Isn't that enough of a message if I leave the keys and the ring?
I still have to pick up the Ninja by a cab, then this is over.
Pretty good performance in one weekend, it's only three o'clock on Sunday. There was so much to do, that my head is still quite together. Lana hasn't called or texted once. The love couple has been busy. Should I start divorce proceedings? I wouldn't like that at all. Let's put it off for now. If only a miracle were to happen. Well, your thoughts are now in the wrong direction again... Disassemble the things and plan the renovation. I'll do it one room at a time, so it stays more livable.
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"Sorry Mark, I have been busy. I didn't have time to call. Did you get that vacation spot? See you soon, xxx".
What would you reply to that now? I think I'll just put her on boycott for now. I don't even have anything to say to her. Nasty slandering would make me only more miserable. Yes, the silent treatment is the way to go for now.
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"Oh, it was a nice weekend Lana. You're a really hot package. I'd like you all to myself. I feel miserable thinking that you're going back to that loser today."
"Brian stop it. Even though Mark is a bit of a loser, he's still my husband and I love him. Don't bother messing with him. That's not nice behavior and I don't appreciate it at all. I'm actually a little worried. Mark hasn't called all this time and he didn't reply to my message. It's not like him at all.
On Thursday, he accused me of cheating and listed the evidence he invented to support it. Are you sure you've held your tongue on this? If Mark finds out about this, we're going to have a hell of a fight. Even though I made it very clear that I have the right to this, he still pretends that he doesn't accept. I have to let him live in that self-delusion as long as he is better able to handle this. His ego is so fragile in these things."
"I haven't told anyone. But now that you said it, that might be a good strategy. Then I'd have you all to myself when everyone knows about this."
"If you do that, you can be sure that it will be the end of us too."
"It was just a joke. I wasn't serious. Mark was just showing his mind. It's not very nice when the wife leaves him alone for the weekend. And the man lives without, so it's no wonder he's grumpy. I don't like your holiday talk at all. I don't want you to put it out there."
"Stop it. The details of our relationship don't belong to you at all. I have to get it back on track. I may have dragged it a little too far when I think about it now. Well, that's about to change. Brian, I'll tell you this very clearly: our relationship is the main relationship of this thing and you are my side relationship. If I have to choose, I will choose Mark. Now is that clear to you."
"Yeah yeah now don't get all bothered."
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"Mark honey, I'm at home! Why didn't you answer me anything? Are you still mad at me? Now come here, and we'll make up."
Why is it dark in here? Where has he gone now? Huh, I guess he's still having a tantrum. Well, I guess he'll show up soon.
Damn, where have his clothes gone. Now, this is going too far. There is a limit to tantrums now. What's that on my pillow? The keys and the ring. This isn't funny anymore. Such a drama out of nowhere. Just when I had decided to fix the relationship. Did he found out something? He's probably just showing his mind. And where exactly has he gone. Probably for Rick, where else. I'll call Lisa.
"Lisa is Mark there?"