I guess that this could be the second part of "Tam's First Time With Another Man", however, I didn't really write it that way. This is really a continuation of my chronicles. I would strongly suggest that to get the background on this story you read "Tam's First Time With Another Man" first. To the people that comment about my writings (and do so constructively!), Thank you so much! To the people that want to judge...well, Hubby and I are happy.
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I have been talking to a woman on the internet that told me that when a woman makes a conscious decision to have another lover in her life she becomes empowered by the knowledge that she is desirable and she becomes more outgoing and sure of herself. I think that her observations are correct, at least as far as my predicament is concerned.
It has been awhile since I had Kevin, the IT Manager from work, with my husband's push. Since that occurrence, I have found myself flashing without being asked by my husband, I have discovered that, at times, I deliberately do not wear a bra or panties so I can "put on a show" as my hubby calls it, and I have bedded several men...not because it turns hubby on, but because I LIKE SEX! Maybe I will write of some of these exploits in the future, but I would like to focus on the immediate progress made after I made the first choice of sleeping with Kevin. No, wait...since I made the choice of FUCKING Kevin!
It was about three or four weeks before our training program was ready for the new software our company had installed. As promised, the managers received the call to corporate headquarters in Ann Arbor, and I have to admit, I was a little nervous. I just didn't know how I was going to face Kevin after what had happened weeks ago when he was in Arkansas. Awkward didn't describe how I felt about this situation. I know I didn't have a choice about going, so I had decided to make the best of the situation. It helped that I had decided to contact the woman that left such interesting comments in my email in-box, because her insight greatly contributed to my changes.
Hubby and I talked about what had happened...a lot! He still seemed O K with what had happened, and was very supportive to me, which helped a lot. Our spark had returned to our marriage, our sex life was awesome again, and he was very attentive to me and my needs. In the end, I think that the decision I made was worth the effort! Like I said earlier, though, I was "growing". Even though I still love Hubby dearly, I was excited that I was a "wanton woman" that was growing very comfortable with being a woman and excited that I was no longer a "one man experienced" woman.
Monday evening Hubby and I headed to Little Rock so I could catch a plane to take me to the meeting. We arrived early so we could eat before I left, and we were having a wonderful time on the trip down. Hubby brought the subject of Kevin up, and asked how I was going to handle the situation. After telling him I hadn't decided yet, I would wait to see how Kevin reacted; he sat there quiet for a few minutes, obviously deep in thought.
"Baby, I know you have had a hard time with this, but I also know you really enjoyed the feeling he gave you in bed. I guess what I am saying is...if you want to try it again, I am alright with that. You have my permission!"
It was my turn to be deep in thought for a little bit. "Baby," I said, "I don't need your permission to do another guy. A couple of weeks ago, you made a decision that you swore you could live with, and I made love to another guy. You forfeited being the only one I could bed that day. I like the fact that I have fucked another man, and I am going to do it again very soon. As a matter of fact, I am going to fuck Kevin on this trip. I did it the other day to make you happy. I am doing it this time to make ME happy. The only choice you have in this matter is: can you live up to your part of the bargain and let me do what I want; or can't you. If you can, then I will tell you all about it when I get back Saturday. If not...you will never know if I did or I didn't. It's your choice, babe!"
Just for a minute, I saw a worried look on his face. "Tam, I love you and I plan to live up to my part. Fuck him every night you're up there, but go knowing that I love you and I don't want to lose you. I can't wait to see you when you return, and I want to hear all about your exploits!"
I reached over to kiss him, and promised that I would be back with all the details. As we were pulling up to the restaurant, I reached under my shirt and took my bra off. Hubby's eyes were wide at what I had just done, without being asked to do so. I deliberately left my shirt unbuttoned all the way to my belly button. Hubby and at least two waiters got to see a lot of my tits that night!
The next few days are not really part of this story. When I got to Ann Arbor, training was probably the most important aspect of the day. Between meetings and classroom sessions, the days pretty well passed by. I didn't see anything of Kevin, somebody mentioned he was on a business trip and would be back Friday. I left a voice mail on his work phone that I was in town, and asked him to meet me on Friday when he got back from his trip.
Friday arrived, and finished the day at the office without seeing Kevin. As I was going to catch an airplane in the morning, I was a little bit disappointed...I had already determined I was going to go to bed with him one more time. On the trip back to the motel, I got a call from him. He was running late, and wondered if that would be alright. I gave him my motel address and name, with the promise of meeting him there around seven o'clock. We chit chatted for a little bit, before saying good-bye.
Around six-thirty, I went down to the lounge to get a glass of wine. I was feeling very adventurous being away from my Hubby and knowing that I was working very hard on fucking another man tonight. All afternoon, I had thought about this, and not only was my pussy wet, but I had that old familiar feeling of my mouth being dry, my hands shaking, and my heart pumping wildly. I was very nervous, but determined to go through with it.
As the weather was fairly worm, I was wearing a thin cotton sundress. I normally don't wear these, but this one was built to flash in. It had a fairly deep neckline, which showed cleavage very well, and it was fairly short. Did I mention it was thin? It was MY decision to flash tonight, and I was doing this for me this time, not for Hubby's pleasure. I discovered that I was extremely excited by the prospect, which seemed to empower me more. I didn't put a bra or panties on that evening...I wanted men to see what my Hubby had and what another man of MY choosing was going to enjoy tonight.
The lounge was fairly quiet, it being a Friday night and all. There were only a handful of people enjoying the lounge, but there was a fairly constant turn-over. All the travelling business people coming in to freshen up before going out with colleagues kept the audience fresh, but still small. The guy tending the lounge was kind of cute, so I ducked out of the bar a little ways and unbuttoned a couple of buttons on my sundress. This opened up the dress quite a bit, and with the low neckline, my tits were basically not covered. I found if I made any movement at all, my nipples would literally fall out of the dress. I walked up to the bar and got a red wine, and for some reason, it took a little while for him to get my glass and pour me some wine. As he handed me my glass, I saw his eyes go to my exposed bosom and I just couldn't help but jiggle when he handed me my glass causing my right nipple to fall completely out. I pretended nothing was wrong as I took my glass and took a sip of wine while I chatted for a minute or so. It was so funny; his eyes never left my free nipple.