The sun was shining brightly, and for late September, the air was unseasonably warm. I was sitting on our patio, sipping a nice cup of coffee, and thinking about how soon the weather would be changing. The beautiful fall colors would give way to cooler temps and then ugly snow and cold. I really hated winter. It was just so cold and dreary.
I heard the patio door slide open, and saw my wife walk through with her own coffee. She had on her bulky robe; the one I knew was her favorite. She took a seat next to me, and we admired the beautiful fall morning together... peacefully.
My coffee was nearing the end, and I went inside to get another cup. Lately, my mind had been all over the place, matching my emotions. I needed to slow things down for a minute, and this seemed like a good time to talk with my wife. I had been troubled by Bills question at the cookout, and I also had questions about the night of our anniversary. Something wasn't right about that, and I needed some answers.
I sat back down next to my wife and began, "I think we need to talk, before we go any further with our exploration, or spicing up, as you call it. I just want to make sure we're both on the same page."
She sipped her hot beverage, and nodded.
"How do you feel about what we've done so far?" I asked.
"I've enjoyed everything we've tried to this point. I can't think of anything that I wouldn't want to do again, and I can't wait for us to go on. I love you, and I love the road we've taken together." She said.
"Well. I've enjoyed trying new things with you too, but there are a few concerns that I have."
"OK?" My wife had a concerned look on her face, and she nervously fiddled with her coffee cup.
"I really don't know where to begin, or just how to approach this, and you know me... I can be a subtle as a brick sometimes, so please bear with me."
Again, she nodded, and I noticed that this time, she didn't make eye contact with me.
"I'm not exactly sure about how I felt about last night. Watching that guy from the bar put his hands on you... and, in a public place too was pushing the envelope for me."
"You mean Stan..." she said.
"Yes, Him. Anyway... On one hand, I wanted to beat his ass in to the ground, but, on the other hand it was exciting to see you exposed like that. As I said before, I'm not sure if I was enjoying what you were doing, or it was just that I was so damned horny at the time. It's completely possible I wouldn't have let it happen, if you hadn't been playing with my dick before that. If that makes any sense... By the way, what ever possessed you to do something like that?"
"Well... I just thought we could try to push some boundaries and see what we liked and what we didn't. I thought about what you said, about teasing him, and it made me feel a little guilty. I thought it would be something nice for him to remember. If it upset you, why didn't you say something? I certainly would've stopped... but you let it happen."
"Well. I would like to hold off on letting another man touch you... at least until I can get my feelings about it sorted out. I don't want there to be a time, when I go to jail for beating some guy like a rented mule... OK?" I dodged her question, but thought I made my point.
She looked a little disappointed at that, and just nodded at me, in agreement.
"The other thing that I need to talk about is Donna and Bill."
"What about them?" She seemed surprised that I would bring them up in our conversation.
"When we were over there, Bill asked me if we had talked about bringing others in to our sex life. What was that all about? Have you and Donna been talking about that?" I asked.
Now she looked away from me, and then took a deep breath, "Yes. We have talked about it, but that's not where I was trying to take us, and I'm not sure I would be comfortable with that. Donna told me that Bill and she had a different kind of marriage. Do you know what cuckolding is?"
"I came across some information on that subject on the internet, but I haven't really read much about it. Why? What do you know about it?"
"This isn't going to be easy, and I can't think of a delicate way to put this, so, I'm just going to say it. I don't want there to be any problems, or secrets between us. Complete honesty."
That statement worried me, and I sat quietly waiting to hear the rest.
"Donna and Bill have tried a lot of things, and the Dom/sub thing isn't the beginning. They've been doing different things for a long time, and Donna has told me how much stronger they are as a couple now. I want us to be that strong too..."
"I want that too dear, but we both need to be comfortable and happy in this relationship." I added.
"Yes... well. Donna and Bill have tried exhibition, swinging, threesomes, and cuckolding. She even told me that she's been gangbanged several times. Dear... you have to promise me, that you won't say anything to either of them about what I'm telling you! She told me those things in confidence."
"I promise. Now, please tell me what this has to do with us." I said.
"Donna has told me how much closer her and Bill are now." She began.
"Yes... I know. You've already said that. Please go on." I said, a little impatiently. I was really trying not to get upset, but she seemed to be beating around the bush.
"Right now, they are in a cuckolding relationship. She dates and has any man she wants, and Bill remains faithful to her. Please, please, promise me you won't say anything."
"I won't say anything, but what they do in their private life is their business. When he asked me that question, my first thought was that they wanted to swap with us... Is that the case?"
"Well... Donna has mentioned it, but that's not going to happen, unless we both decide we want to try it. I would never insist on a step that big. I look at us as a team, and we both have to work together, and agree to what path we take. Besides, with the relationship they have at the moment, I'm sure she wouldn't allow Bill to have another woman."
"So, you think she just wants me to fuck her, and everything will be right with the universe?" I asked.
"The other day, when she was here and you were naked, she told me that she would love to fuck you."
"And how did you feel about your friend telling you she wanted to screw your husband?" I asked.
"It made my tummy do flip flops. I wasn't prepared for her to say something like that, but then, I thought it might be pretty hot, watching you with her. I did enjoy her seeing you naked." She quietly said.
"You really would want to watch me and your best friend? I don't think I'd be comfortable with that... I mean they're our best friends. I could never do that to Bill. How would we ever be able to face them again?"
"I know... You're so right, and that's what I kept thinking. I'm glad we agree on keeping our friends, just friends." She said.
"It sounds to me like you are thinking about trying everything they've tried." I observed.
"Is there anything wrong with thinking about trying new things?"
"No, and I know I sound like a broken record here but... we both have agree to it, and that's why talks like this have to happen. I do enjoy seeing you showing off. I've always thought you have a beautiful body, and I'm proud of you."
"I agree, and thank you." She said. "Have you ever thought about having another woman? You can be honest... you won't hurt my feelings."
"You know I'm a voyeur, and I enjoy looking at beautiful women, and yes, I've wondered what it would be like with some of them. But, I've never acted on it. I always thought of it as, 'there's nothing wrong with window shopping, as long as I'm not buying'. Besides that, I'm not interested in being with another woman. You're all the woman I want, or need. Why? Do you want to try other men?" I was kind of dreading her answer to that question.
"I've thought about it..." Again she didn't look me in the eye. "You know, I was a virgin on the day we got married, and I can't help but be curious about other men. Please don't take that to mean that I want to compare you to other men."
This wasn't easy to hear. I knew she had been a virgin when we married, and I had been with a number of women, when in college. I'd even tried a threesome once, with two girls, but was it my fault that she hadn't explored her sexuality before we got married? Why did I feel a little guilty about that? I guess I should've known that this subject would come up sooner or later.
"I would never do anything behind your back... You know that don't you?"
"Yes. I believe so." I replied.
"I can't and won't deny that it excites me to think about doing it with another man, but... how did you put it? Yes... I've just been window shopping. Somewhere down the road, if you would be completely comfortable with it, then, yes. I would like to be with another man, at least once. But I won't do it, unless you are 100% on board and give me your blessing."
"I appreciate you not cheating on me, and I empathize with your situation. I know that there's no way I would be good with you doing another man right at this moment. It all depends on where we go from here, the new things we try, and both of us being comfortable with that. For instance; you seem to enjoy me eating my own cum, and while it's not my favorite thing to do, I don't mind doing it for you, if it makes you happy. I will promise to keep an open mind though."
"Thank you. You have no idea how much that simple little act means to me. Not only does it turn me on, but it tells me you are comfortable with your own sexuality. I always knew you were open minded and honest. That's one of the qualities that I love most about you." She smiled.
I was going to bring up our anniversary, but decided to let that wait for another day. I had had suspicions about that night, and I still thought about the way things went down, and what I could remember, but she had just told me she wouldn't do anything behind my back. I loved and trusted her to be honest with me, so I would let this go for another time. One thing was certain... I would have to learn more about this cuckolding thing before I got myself into something that I'd regret.
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