Brenda attached the wire from her camcorder to our big flat screen TV while I was paying the delivery guy from Dino's.
Finished with the hookup, she took the box of pizza from me and put it in the warming oven to keep hot. She then suggested I make us another cocktail.
"Tom, maybe you'd better make them double strength this time." I looked at her quizzically. She added, "especially if you are going to react like you did that time on Hogback Mountain."
I really didn't need that warning; I was already in a state of mild shock and knew it showed.
I handed her a fresh martini and sat down at our kitchen table, then looked over at my lovely wife of over twenty years trying hard to understand what she had done.
"So, you left your job at the Denver library today and drove nearly up to the Wyoming state line to meet the man who raped you last summer?" I asked.
"I'm going to explain that Tom. It certainly wasn't something I wanted to do. I was very reluctant and ready to back out right up to the last minute. I hated the idea of doing it but I felt I had an obligation to you. I'd made up my mind that it was the best way to get you interested in life and sex and me again. You were depressed and needed sexual stimulation.. I had to do something shocking to get us out of the doldrums we had fallen back into. Can you understand that?
"Well in a crazy sort of way I suppose I can, but why didn't you tell me what you were thinking of doing?"
"Tom, I knew you wouldn't even consider such a thing, your male ego simply wouldn't permit it!"
"Yeah, I guess you are probably right!"
" I didn't go into this lightly! Finding a way to help you with your erectile dysfunction is something I've agonized about for weeks. Together, we discussed or tried all sorts of sexually exciting ideas. We tried making our own porno movie. I wore all kinds of sexy outfits for you. Remember when you wanted me to wear that skimpy little red dress without bra or even panties to your golf club? You perched me on a bar stool and I crossed and uncross my legs with all your buddies watching me. They all got good glimpses of my bare pussy. I know I had them all panting. It's lucky I wasn't gang banged! But it worked wonders for you later that night, you nearly wore me out.
I even agreed to get into wife swapping with Ted and Sandy from our country club.
Ted has always looked at me and Sandy was hot for you, She and I are old school mates and we talk very freely to one another. Sandy said she and Ted had tried swapping several times a month with another couple a few years ago. She enjoyed it, said it was a lot of fun, and it really pepped up their marriage. She likes you and immediately agreed to do it. She told me to just work out the details with you and tell her when. But, you ruled the whole thing out because you don't care for Ted and didn't want him to have sex with me.
At one point I even thought about making up a fictitious story about having an affair to make you jealous and to get you excited. I didn't, because you are just not jealous natured and the faith you might lose in me could hurt our relationship.
All together we have tried almost everything kinky a man and a woman can possibly do and I had run out of ideas!
"Back before Christmas I went to see a psychiatrist, Doctor Riley. I needed help in dealing with this. I told him what happened last summer up on Hogback Mountain.
He was quite interested in your reaction to the event and also my response to the rapist.
Dr. Riley said I should put aside any guilt I was harboring. The pleasure I admitted feeling during intercourse with the rapist, even though initially done against my will was not that abnormal under the circumstances. Especially for a highly sexed and experienced woman. Richard had been a big, aggressive, alpha male who was intent on having sex with me. My arousal had became an almost involuntary physical reaction for me once the concept of violence or danger had passed.
Dr. Riley thought you seemed unusually broadminded in your understanding of my part in the event. He said the immediate sharp increase in your libido right after and continuing later indicated a tendency toward voyeurism. He also thinks you are obsessed with me, have me up on a pedestal and view me as a "hot trophy wife." However this could definitely work very favorably in my plans to create ongoing arousal for you to stimulate our sex life.
He said it was obvious that you got a kinky thrill watching me being fucked by another man. Who the identity of the other man was and most other details were of little importance. It was my interaction in the sex act that fascinated you. Dr. Riley told me that a high percentage of men secretly fantasized about this sort of thing from time to time. He suggested I should go online and look up "wife watching" to see just how popular this is.
The main thing for you was seeing me, your woman and exclusive sexual property enjoying full sex with another male. It confirmed your view of me as being super sexy, and a "hot wife." You were enthralled at seeing and hearing me building up to an intense orgasm, the wilder the better.
On Hogback Mountain there was no jealousy involved as one would usually expect in most men. I was forced into it. Well, at least in the beginning I was. You also were sure that with my strong sex drive I could not resist responding to the physical effect of being penetrated and taken by a virile, masculine stranger. You knew I had no affection for the man that was fucking me. My having some pleasure was O.K. under these purely erotic circumstances.
Kissing him would have been unacceptable as it would have indicated affection. You consider that to be reserved for you alone. Most women, me included, would have trouble understanding how sucking another man's cock can be condoned but not kissing.
The rape on Hogback Mountain gave you an intense vicarious thrill. Although your voyeurism is considered a perversion he thinks it is fairly harmless as long we both accept it and you feel secure in my love for you and vice versa. He said it probably wouldn't harm our relationship for me to play this role again in your fantasy if I really don't mind doing it . Beside helping your E.D It could even broaden our mutual love and understanding.
I outlined my plans to the Doctor for making the sex movie. He listened carefully and did not disapprove. His opinion was that it could be beneficial and have a good chance of working in our case. However, he did warn me that there was some risk of jealousy and future mistrust if I exhibited too much fondness for my film partner.
He said I knew you much better than anyone and I had to make my own decisions on how far I could go regarding the making of this film."
At this point I had to interrupt, "So then Brenda, after going through all these preparations you phoned this brute up in the Medicine Bow Mountains and got him to screw you again, this time on camera?"
"Tom, stop the sarcasm! This is hard enough for me! But yes, I guess that's about what happened.
I spoke to Richard a couple times on the phone and we agreed to meet each other about half way at Wellington, Colorado. I made a reservation at a motel and we met this afternoon."
"Did you tell him why you were meeting him?"
"Yes I did, the first time we talked. He laughed, said he knew I had hot panties and bragged that he knew I would eventually want more of his big cock. I thought this was being rude and he needed to be set straight. I told him I could get better than him anytime I wanted right here in Denver. I surely didn't need to drive seventy miles to find a stupid arrogant male with a big prick and no morals.
I told him the only reason he was going to get lucky was because I needed to make a film to excite my husband and he was the Devil that we both knew."
He said he didn't take you for a wimp or a cuckold when he met you. So why did I think that would spice things up in our marriage?
I explained that my husband wasn't either one, but I was told by the psychiatrist he did have strong voyeuristic tendencies and was obsessed with me."
Richard said, "I don't blame him for being obsessed with you, I think I would be too if I had a beautiful sexy woman like you. But what in hell does this voyeuristic thing mean?
I laid it out for him, "Tom is sexually stimulated visually like all men. He gets excited and horny looking at naked women or watching people fuck, for real or in pictures.
However, when he watched you raping me on Hogback Mountain his obsession with me made it extremely intense for him. He became so aroused he was frantic to make love to me immediately afterward and this has lasted for over five months"
Richard said, "Hell, he sounds perfectly normal to me. But I take exception to your saying I raped you! I just gave you what I knew you wanted the first time I laid eyes on you. You needed a big cock and a good hard fuck so bad any red blooded man could easily see it "
"Yes, that may be true, but you got what you wanted through the use of force! Respectable People cannot condone that sort of thing, and you committed a criminal act."
"Ok, I get the picture, you want to jump start your husbands libido by making a fuck film with me. Tell me your plan!"
Tom interrupted again, "O.K. Brenda I get the picture, go on with your story, you drove up to Wellington today and met him at the motel, what then?"
"I told the library I had a doctors appointment and could only work a half day. It was an hour's drive up there and I registered at the Holiday Inn then went to my room. I phoned Richard on my cell and gave him the room number. He said he was driving and only a few minutes away.
I freshened up, turned down the bed to expose the white bottom sheet for good contrast lighting then set up the camcorder on a small mini tripod and placed it on the dresser. I checked the picture and saw that it fully covered the king sized bed as well as the doorway and about half the room. It was set to record by just pushing a button on the little remote.
There was a knock at the door and I started the recording. I left the camera running and went to answer. You can watch the video stored on the camera and it will show you what happened."
"Frankly, I'm a little tense right now Brenda. I think we should eat our pizza first, don't you?"
My suggestion seemed to startle Brenda from her thoughts for a moment. She was obviously ready to continue the story further but frankly, I needed time to think before hearing and seeing what I knew was going to be explicit details.
I swallowed the last of my martini without further comment, thankful for the warm fuzzy feeling that had begun to lower my tensions.
We sat at the kitchen table and quietly ate the pizza. Both of us agreed we'd had enough liquor. The pizza was good, and later I helped with the simple clean up and took the trash out. Brenda tidied up and moved to the living room couch. In a few minutes I followed and sat beside her taking her hand in mine. She turned and I met her intense gaze. She said, Tom, please kiss me and promise me that no matter what you think of this you will always love me. What I did on this film I did for you, for our love, and for our happiness.
I kissed her and told her that I would love her forever no matter what and held her tightly to me.