Last Hug

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I rolled into the old home town. I was just passing through on the way to the coast after a trip to the mid. west for a fiftieth high school reunion.. Where I had seen my old girlfriend and given her a long and soul healing last hug. I was heading for the coast and would stop by and drop off some things for the two grand kids. The kids should be in school so I would just quietly stop by and drop off couple boxes and maybe see them on the way back in a couple weeks. My daughter and her 2 kids lived with my X wife. She and my daughter both worked weird shifts and never returned phone calls or messages.

I parked on the street and brought the boxes up to the house to put them inside the gate and out of sight of porch pirates ... The squeak of the gate set off a dog in the house and as I set the boxes down, my daughter looked out the door looking like I woke her up..." Something for the kids" I said as my X pulled into the driveway interrupting us before I had a chance to talk with my daughter...

We were together for a year and married for almost 40. She had a huge part of my heart and soul ... She had been a good fit most of the time even if she never forgot to remind of every single mistake I ever made, over... and over...and over... Like bad stitches in a repair that always rubbed you raw to remind you its there ...

I reminded myself not my problem any more...It had been almost 5 years since we split. I knew what I had to do to heal myself ...

This would be hard but I needed it... I could feel a fluttering when she pulled up. When she opened the door it was like a anxious puppy wanting out as our auroras sensed each other.

My daughter went in, I turned to the X as she was getting out of her car. It had been a couple years since I had seen her, she still looked good maybe even lost a few pounds and a little more gray...

As I took the couple steps towards her I said " I'm headed to the coast and I just stopped by to drop off some things for for the kids, can I have a hug? "... She looked at me skeptically as I stepped close not really giving her a chance to answer and pulled her in for a hug....She was stiff and unyielding... I had started the separating of our souls. Did she know and understand what was happening? was it long over due?

Knowing what I had to do. I opened my heart and soul expanding my aurora and encompassing her. Our auroras, our souls had recognized each other, knew each other well...they swirled and mixed fully again, a bitter sweet reunion some happiness and yes still some love there but threads worn and abraded in spots and patched in many others.. she was one, of only two woman I had ever loved.. dam this is hard to do.

I hugged her a little more tightly pulling her in close as she relaxed a fraction she fit nicely in my arms so comfortable and familiar pressed up against me, our auroras, our souls, swirling and dancing, they knew each other well she put her arms around my neck and I rolled my hand up her back in that spot I knew and got a couple pops, she relaxed a bit more leaning into me ... I missed her more than I could ever tell her, my old best friend and companion, the mother of my children ... was it a couple seconds a couple minutes some things are instant but timeless..

In my minds eye the swirls of our auroras were sticking to themselves as they were swirling around, gathering all their parts into themselves, growing like two nebulous balls of cotton candy floss rolling up larger. Different shades of Vapors being pulled from one larger swirling dancing multi-colored cloud... We were both Geminis, best friends and lovers. Together for so long like twins we were hard to tell apart and separate like the shades of red in a sunset ... The threads of our lives interwoven in the tapestry of life for so long... A rip, what a shame.

I concentrated more and pulled more of me into me and guided her gently back towards herself like passing off a dance partner ...

The swirls, separate now like layers of clouds in the mountains, moving stratifying, separating condensing.

And then a struggle to hold back mine as it tried to reconnect like a energetic puppy, ignoring me, I controlled myself with difficulty...

This was so much harder than the first time last week when I did this with the old girlfriend...

The X wife and I had been together so many years and so many mostly good memories. Everything we shared through two thirds of our lifetime's, the many adventures with each other, with the kids and family's. The births and birthdays, holiday gatherings, weddings and deaths of parents and siblings throughout the years together, the many years together, as our time together flashed before my minds eye like a fast forward video.. I remember as mostly all good in the timeless, long/short instant we hugged.

I pulled back and could see her confused questioning look in her beautiful eyes, my eyes were getting wet, did you feel our souls parting too? Did you hear and feel the horrible Velcro like sound as they separate? I wanted to but didn't kiss you. I knew better...it would be...

Did you feel it like I did?... like a my heart skipped a beat or two as I turned away...

As I walked to my rig I heard your car door close and then the squeak and clang of the little front gate as you went through it. Yea I look back ... you still have a cute butt. ... Dam allergy acting up again I have to wipe my eyes before I drive off to a new start...