My husband and I have known each other since we were teenagers and while we did some wild and crazy things as kids, nothing comes close to the intense experiences we have had since we decided to include others in our sex life. The emotional and physical intensity we experience from watching each other with our friends was a total surprise to us.
Our first time with another couple was almost unexpected, despite the months of plotting and planning that led up to that night. We had only been talking about including new people in our sex life for about six months, and at first D had confessed he wanted to see me with another man. He had expected me to be shocked, or upset, or something other than the reaction which he got from me, which was a sly smile and infinite gratitude. I was not only flattered and intrigued by the idea, but I was also forced to confess that being taken by two men at once was one of my bigger fantasies. For as long as I could remember I had had fantasies of giving head to one man while being fucked by another. D also knew that I had had a few limited experiences with women and really enjoyed them and wanted more. So the librarian in me went to work and the more I looked into adult dating sites, talked to friends or found information online, the more I kept coming back to swingers. We both liked how the lifestyle stressed honesty and communication and a strong foundation relationship, and viewed sex as fun and recreational but also required respect and trust: sexual non-monogamy with emotional monogamy. We found a regional swinger's social networking site and put ourselves out there. Brianna and Sam were one of the first couples we talked with. They were new like us and we clicked quickly through online chats and emails. They were both younger than us, in their early 30's, but smart and funny and down to earth. We kept stressing we wanted to take it slow, and they agreed, so after a month or so of sexy back and forth, we decided to meet. No pressure...no expectations...just to meet in person and get to know each other. We were thrilled and really really nervous....
We were to meet at a large Chinese restaurant outside of the city, see how it went and go from there. That night I was a wreck. I was visibly shaking. I hadn't dated in 15 years...my confidence was all over the map...feeling like a sex goddess one moment and then like an utter and total fool the next. D was calm and cool but I knew he was feeling the same inside. I kept thinking of the advice a more experienced friend had given: Just remember that once you do it, you can't take it back. Yikes! But D and I had both talked and talked and become wildly excited and fucked thinking about this night for weeks and we knew we were ready to do...no expectations...no pressure. Sure. OK!
We looked great. I had on a black cocktail dress, knee length, short-sleeved, low cut. I wore a drop necklace with a red stone that lay perfectly against my breasts. Red leather heels and black lingerie...just in case. D was handsome, dark, tan and strong. We looked great but were mush on the inside. We arrived early, and the hostess seated us at a table next to a child's birthday party. The place was packed. We couldn't ask to be moved. We tried not to laugh but knew our conversation would be strained trying not to mortify the kids' parents! I walked to the front to use the bathroom and on my way back saw them. Brianna is tall, curvy, long light-brown hair, beautiful eyes and mouth...I recognized her instantly from her profile and we hugged hello. Sam came in then..also tall, boyish good looks, nervous smile. I hugged him too and brought them over to our table. My hands were shaking as I ordered a drink. D squeezed my hand and I calmed, but I was sitting across from Sam and he across from Brianna and I couldn't concentrate. Brianna was beautiful...her low cut dress clearly highlighted her large breasts, and she wore a long pendant similar to mine. We were all nervous and as Sam took off his coat he paused and looked at us all and said,
"Can we all just get it out in the open right now that this has been pretty nerve-wracking leading up to this?" We all laughed and the tension was broken.
One of the biggest hurdles I knew I would have would be feeling comfortable with another guy. Women were not so much of a concern with me, but I knew I would not be able to just have sex with any guy. I would have to like him, respect him, feel comfortable with him and obviously be attracted to him. I looked at Sam across from me and caught his eye. He looked back at me and grinned and gave me a very quick wink. I squeezed D's thigh. I suddenly realized that I was in. I could see D and myself doing very dirty things with these people.
Dinner was a blur or nerves and small talk. I felt like I had made a connection with Sam and D and I needed to get a feel for Brianna who seemed much more nervous. In our chats I had mentioned that I had never been to a strip club and she suggested that they pop my cherry and take us to one that was nearby. After our meal everyone kept asking,
"So, what do you want to do now?"
I kept looking at D. He seemed to want to defer to me, and I wanted to defer to Brianna who suggested the strip club. We drove there in separate cars. D and I desperately needed some caffeine. It was 11 pm and we were already tired, but every store was closed and the strip club didn't help any, strippers plying us with drinks and massages. D and I had talked in the car and we were both ready and willing to go with them to their hotel, but we both felt unsure about how Brianna felt. At the club we chatted and flirted a little. It was all I could do to not look at Brianna. I suggested we go to the bathroom to commiserate and she happily agreed. My intention was so corner her, tell her how hot she was and then kiss her, but a slew of off-duty strippers paraded in behind us and the opportunity was missed.
"Sooooo...what do you think?" I managed to ask her.
She smiled at me and said, "I'm having fun. Let's just see how it goes."
Ahhhh!!...ambiguous...intriguing, frustrating...We sat back with the boys who had grins on their faces...D and I were tiring of the club. The dancers weren't very good and we were now pretty positive we would rather be getting down in their hotel room.
Sam and I had a great flirty banter going. I was complaining about how all of the coffee places were closed on a Friday night and he said,
"We have coffee in our hotel room."
"Really?" I said
"Sounds good" D put in
"I'm ready for some coffee." I added