Tim had just finished up with Bill and Julie. Although they'd had a good time and Julie clearly seemed to enjoy being the centre of attention for both men, Tim was still a bit put off by Penny for not wanting do a full swap.
Tim and Penny had been dabbling in the swinger world for a couple of years. Penny was reluctant at first, but willing to give it a try. Up until now all the events had been private parties. The couples were carefully chosen by the hosts and most often the sexual encounters were swaps -- where two couples would meet and get to know each other then have sex with one another's spouses. Penny didn't have much enthusiasm for these events.
The thing that irked Penny about the couple swap thing is that she usually felt like she was being "set up" -- by the party host or by Tim -- with some other woman's husband. And truth is that Penny was usually the hottest woman at the party so those introductions tended to be driven by which couples want to get to know her or by which men Tim wanted to steer her away from or which wives Tim wanted to fuck. Penny felt her own desires being subordinated. While she was more than capable of standing up for herself there was something about that closed environment that made her reluctant to do so -- she didn't want to insult the hosts, she didn't want to come across as snooty (always a problem for beautiful women) and she saw very little point in staking out a position at parties where often none of the men much interested her anyway.
Tim suggested that the way to address her frustrations, was to try a swingers club where there would be a broader cross section of people. She agreed and undertook to pick a club, which Tim thought was a good sign. When they got there Tim promptly met another couple - Bill and Julie -- and tried to arrange a swap. Exasperated Penny realized he'd missed the whole point and promptly excused herself. Julie saw that Penny wasn't interested and pounced on the opportunity to take the two men to one of the private rooms.
As Tim parted ways with Bill and Julie to look for Penny a sense of foreboding came over him. He was pretty sure that she was irritated with him for trying to set things up the way he did and his awareness of his own controlling behaviour swiftly permeated his consciousness. And as he thought about the possibilities, he realized that his best case scenario was that she was quietly brooding. If so, he had better be nice. He quickly went from being put off to anxious to make amends.
As his anxieties compelled him to think about what Penny wanted his consciousness seemed to crack open as he landed on the obvious and unsettling conclusion he had been avoiding all along. She wanted to pick her own sexual partners. Why wouldn't she? Why would such a beautiful and sexual woman let him be in control? She had never indicated any willingness to abide by his vision of how this would all work. He had pushed and persisted and ignored all signals to the contrary, all opportunities to turn back. As awareness swept over him, his illusion of being in control of these events slipped away.
Briefly he hoped maybe she had left the club which would mean he was in big trouble but at least his greatest fear now evident would not be realized. But he checked the location of her smartphone and it was still at the club.
The absurdity of it all was surreal. Tim had seen his gorgeous wife Penny have sex with other men before. It was his fucking idea. He had seen her curvaceous soft hips move up and down as she mounted another man, watched her spectacular natural 36E breasts heave as another man caressed them or as their bodies moved in sexual unison, watched as other men observed the way her perfect curvy, supple, infinitely womanly body entered the room on 4" heels in a dress that verged on the obscene. But all that was ok as long as.....as long as what? As long as he could believe that he was her best? As long as he could reclaim her at the end of every night? As long as he was in control?
Yes, that was it. But she had never agreed to that and now he realized that he never had been in control. She had tried her best to indulge his desires and given him plenty of signals, but signals of what? Did she dislike this lifestyle, or did she dislike his constraints? The former might be disappointing but now seemed comforting. The latter was what frightened him. What if she had shaken off his weak attempts at making her a prop in his fantasy and had now taken control? How long until she chose a man that would sexually, please her in ways he never had?
Inevitable. Not because he wasn't a good lover or "enough of a man." But because his 5'4" firecracker brunette wife could -- if she wanted -- have virtually any sexual experience she wanted. And he or any other man would be fooling themselves to think they could control her if she chose not to be controlled.
This had been all his idea. He'd pushed his luck thinking he could control the outcome. Thinking he could control her. And now, in spite of no tangible information yet to the contrary, he realized he was not in control anymore. It was frightening but slipping into exhilarating. The ground was shifting under his feet, but he wanted to know where it would go.
"Tim. Are you ok?"
Tim looked around feeling disoriented.
"Um. Yes Julie. I was just looking for Penny. She must be in one of the private rooms."
"Ok sweetie. But maybe check the voyeur room."
"What is that?"
"Go down the hall of private rooms and through the curtain at the end."
Tim had been down that hall but only saw closed doors and had turned back. Even in his excited state he wasn't going to burst into every private room hoping to find Penny.
Tim took a long pause, so Julie took his hand. "Come on let me show you." she said with a pleasant smile.
As she led him across the room and down the hall she said. "You know tonight is singles night right?" At the same time she gave a knowing wave to a nearby bartender.
"I hadn't noticed. What does that mean? I mean I thought this was a swingers' club. Just married couples."
"Yes. But once a month we invite a certain number of singles to come to the club. It is like one single man and one single woman for every ten couples. Or it could be fewer. They keep the ratios consistent." Julie pulled Tim closer to ensure his arm was up against her breast as they walked down the hallway.
"Ok. What does that have to do with Penny?"
"Well, we chose the singles to be especially supportive of the members who want to interact with single women and men. As you can imagine their physical characteristics are a key consideration. And as you can imagine some members interact with the singles more than others. Honey, do you know what it means to be blacked?"
Tim paused. The bartender who doesn't normally leave his post brought Tim a double of their best scotch.
As he took it, he looked at Julie and said. "Yes, I think I do."
Tim felt heavy and light at the same time. He was frightened of what he was about to see but was drawn to see it like nothing had ever drawn him before.
Just before they walked through the curtains Julie had one more thing to say. "Tim almost every woman here has been blacked. I am one of them. As you can see, I am fully devoted to my husband Bill. It usually happens after a couple has been here for a while. But some start earlier especially when they are as gorgeous as Penny. It happens naturally because all eyes are on her and we all desire her. You know that right Tim? You are a very handsome man Tim, but Penny is in a league of her own."
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When he passed through the curtain Tim saw a window into a big room. Across from the window was three rows of bench seats arranged bleacher style with room for five or six people on each row. Julie directed him to the back row. She scooted across the bench to be next to another woman. There was another man at the far end. Tim slid next to Julie. The benches in front of him each had five people. All the people on the benches were in various stages of undress. As he slid across the bench the contents of the room came into full view.