"You want to do what?" Asked Dawn, surprised but not offended.
"I want to submit your picture to Beaver Hunt?" Responded Gary with visible excitement.
"Seriously. All of your buddies down at the plant will see your wife's snatch on full display."
"So. They will all be jealous. Most of them have never been even close to a woman as hot as you."
Dawn smiled a knowing smile. He was right. She was a 9 or maybe 9 ½ out of 10 on her worst day and she knew it. The few times she had met any of the guys from the plant they ogled her constantly.
"I will think about it."
Ever since the first time she cheated on Gary, their sex life had changed in unexpected ways.
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That first cheating episode had happened five years earlier. At the time, Dawn was 28 years old, 3 years out of a masters degree in English literature and working as a barista.
She was also intensely sexually conflicted. She had a very high sex drive but had been raised in a conservative religious family where female sexuality was actively oppressed. Good girls married men with traditional values. Sex was for procreation. Monogamy was assumed.
That was the context in which she had chosen Gary as a husband. Frankly she counted herself fortunate that he didn't turn out to be a dud. Gary was a good lover with an open mind. She loved him. Yet she wondered would she have chosen him as a husband if she'd had a few more years to put some distance between herself and her parent's oppressive views? Or maybe she should have played the field more before getting married? She wasn't unhappy or out of love with Gary. She just wasn't settled.
Gary was a good guy and a solid 7 ½ out of 10. Obviously looks aren't everything but she was out of his league and she had plenty of other suitors who she didn't really consider just because they didn't sit as well with her parents. She knew that was shallow thinking. It wasn't suddenly all about looks and sex. But she had come to the view that her sexuality was important to her and wished she had considered it more before having made so many key life decisions.
It was in this context that she decided to go see her younger sister Kathy in Portland for a long weekend. Kathy picked her up at the airport around 5:00 p.m. On the way back to her apartment she told Dawn about how she had just dumped her boyfriend and taken up with some 22-year old stud. Kathy had always been more liberated than Dawn. She was only 18 months younger but somehow saw the pressure their parents put on Dawn and managed to avoid it. Being around her always made Dawn feel more relaxed and at home with her sexuality.
By 5:30 they were back at Dawn's apartment. By 6:00 Kathy's new young stud came by with a friend named Patrick. By 8:00 two bottles of wine were empty and Dawn's perfectly painted toenails were pointed at the ceiling and curling in orgasmic ecstasy as Patrick plowed her married pussy with the biggest dick she had ever had.
When Dawn got home to Boston after the long weekend she confessed her infidelity to Gary. She told him that it had been a "one thing led to another" and "too much wine" kind of a thing. She didn't tell him that the morning after, sober and with deliberate planning she sought out Patrick and spent most of the weekend riding his big cock.
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It was Gary who drew the details out of her over a period of weeks. Patrick was taller than Gary by 3". He was very handsome. He had a much bigger cock and incredible stamina. He gave her mind blowing, body shuddering orgasms including her first ever squirting orgasm. And he enjoyed fucking another man's wife.
As far as getting at a cuckold's insecurities and jealousy it couldn't have been much worse. Each knew revelation felt like punch to the gut. Dawn answered his questions honestly, but she didn't embellish so he just kept coming back for more. At first it was just so that everything was all out on the table or so he thought. But Gary soon started fantasizing about what might have happened. He sometimes jerked off three or four times a day thinking about it.
About 6 weeks later through the fog of his own mixed feelings Gary had a moment of clarity. Dawn's experience with Patrick was not some isolated incident induced by exceptional circumstances. It wasn't some weird outlying anomaly. It was a reflection of her sexual desire. The only reason she wasn't doing this all the time was because of her marital commitment. He could try to compel her to suppress that desire or deny it but it would return.
The appeal of being with such a beautiful woman who possessed such desire started to worm its way into his head. The gnawing jealousy and insecurity slowly yielded to titillation and excitement. At that 6 week point his questions became less about coming to grips with her infidelity and more about exploring his own urges and Dawn's sexuality.
When 3 months had passed Gary started to try to step up his game in the bedroom. He got in better shape. He bought her pretty things. He paid more attention to what she did or didn't like during their love making. Maybe he was just being a chump but he started to see past the fact that she had betrayed him to consider why she had done so. Much as it hurt him, she hadn't done it with callous disregard. Her actions were a reflection of a part of her true nature which up until then had been suppressed -- a part of her that he very much wanted to know.
By the time 6 months had passed, the idea of sharing his wife was actively in Gary's imagination. He saw that no matter what he did or how good of a lover he was that monogamy was a constraint on her true nature. The efforts she made to repair the damage were laudable but doubling down on monogamy was not sustainable and it would make her unhappy.
Dawn saw the changes in Gary. She didn't understand them but she was grateful for his understanding and felt as though the relationship was better than it had ever been. The fact that she was still unsettled was a source of guilt but she didn't know what to do about it.
Over the next 2 years Dawn and Gary made a point of talking openly about sex, sharing their kinks, indulging in porn and accumulating sex toys and slutty lingerie. She indulged most of his desires including additional revelations about her time with Patrick and past boyfriends. She was hesitant at first. As a result, she noticed that when she held back a few details then revealed them later she created an aura of mystic -- that there was always something more to be revealed -- which really excited Gary.
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Three years after Dawn had first cheated on Gary her father died of a heart attack. Her mother who had been suffering from dementia was moved into a critical care home. They were both still only in their 60's so it was a devastating time for Dawn. But it did remove one obstacle to her ongoing sexual liberation in the form of the judgment of her parents whom she loved very much notwithstanding their antiquated views on sexuality.
A month after that, Dawn and some of her co-workers at the coffee shop stayed past closing time to have a few drinks to celebrate the Christmas season. She was assistant manager at that time. She and her manager were the last to leave. They ended up making out on the couch on his office after which he bent her over his desk and fucked her from behind.
He was nothing special. Not a stud like Patrick. But she was in a mixed-up state of mind. Sad about her parents and still unsettled sexually in spite of the strong relationship with Gary. And horny. Besides she and Gary had talked about such a scenario in their role-playing so maybe this would be fodder for a future session.
Once the line has been crossed, it becomes easier to do it again. Dawn fucked her manager regularly over the course of the next month. She knew she would tell Gary but she kept putting it off. When the manager got transferred the time had come. Gary forgave her again and told her he thought something was up. He wasn't even really angry. But this did not seem like a tryst that had excited Dawn or helped expand her sexual horizons. He had already contemplated the idea of her with another man but this what not what he wanted for her.
But he recognized one thing. Her being in control and deciding when and what to tell him added to his titillation. There is a strong argument to say that the only way to do this was negotiate and agree the terms of non-monogamy in advance, but her cheating was what made it exciting for him. Some people will say that if she gets to have other lovers then so should he, but that was of no interest to him.
Is it twisted and fucked up? Maybe. Is it dangerous to the relationship? Yes. But we want what we want. Gary had reconciled himself to the reality that he couldn't have all of her desire. He understood that before she did. He could have part of it or none of it. If he chose the latter, he would almost certainly end up with someone far less exciting to him. As time went on Gary was more than reconciled to the idea of sharing his wife's desire. The idea of it titillated him.
Dawn knew this on some level. But it was a dangerous game. For them to come right out and say it would make it an accomplished fact and take away some of the excitement, especially for Gary. But to carry on with the occasional cheat knowing that maybe all was not well was a risk to the relationship. The hinting and the roleplaying and the regular discussion of her past lovers kept communication going but the whole mix was volatile and not really under control.
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Dawn and Gary had clawed their way back to a place of relative happiness when Gary suggested submitting her picture for Beaver Hunt. Their sex life was great but Gary sensed Dawn needed something more. She would cheat again. Dawn resisted the notion. He wished it would just happen and they could get on with accepting that she would not be monogamous, but pushing would not help.
The day after he asked about the Beaver Hunt submission she agreed.
Now for anybody not familiar a Beaver Hunt submission is explicitly about cunt. Amateurs submit pictures of their pussy. It isn't just nudity. It is explicit and raunchy.
"Listen baby if we are going to do this, we are going to do it right. Sending a picture of my pussy is already trashy enough. I'm not going to be one of those sluts who doesn't even seem to know how to trim her pussy properly."
"No baby. You are a very sophisticated slut."
"Damn right. Don't you forget it. We don't have the money for a full spa treatment to get me buffed up. Go get a wax kit. You'll be making me smooth and silky."
"How about you get your nipples pierced too?"
"I thought this was all about the pussy?"
"Ya, but you have great tits too baby. And when you are all spread out you can be sure that the boys will be looking at them too."
"Ok you little pervert."
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Gary was right. The idea of posing for Beaver Hunt really tweaked a sexual response from Dawn.
Gary sat quietly on the toilet in their bathroom (there was only one in their tiny apartment) as he watched Dawn wax her legs and arm pits. She even used the little strip she told him to buy to remove any hair above her lip (not that he could see any at all). Then she carefully plucked her eyebrows to eliminate a few incongruous hairs.
When she was done she looked at him and said. "Now it is your turn."
"What?"
"I need you to wax my pussy and ass crack sweetie. I am flexible but I can't get there all on my own."
"Ok."
"We can't really set up properly here so let's go do this on the kitchen table."
They went into the next room. Dawn climbed up on the table and spread her legs wide.
"Do like I showed you. Spread the warm wax on a small area, apply the cloth then pull it off. No not that direction. Pull the other direction. And make sure to hold the skin and stretch it just a bit so that it is taut when you pull off the cloth. Ouch."
