My wife's high school buddy, could be called a boyfriend, was coming to visit in a month. I quizzed her on their relationship, but she was reluctant to give details. "We're you 'friends with benefits?'" I asked. She said that was pretty persona, so I said, "So the answer is 'yes'?" She shrugged and said they were close friends.
"Have you fucked him?" I asked, coming right to the point.
Again she refused to talk about them. "He will be in our house. Tell what to expect," I said. She said to expect him to be polite and easy to talk with.
"You two will talk sports and he will want to chat with me about old times," she said. "You don't have to entertain him," she said.
"But will you be entertaining him?" I asked. She gave me the "look" and turned and walked away. "So the answer is yes?" I said at her back.
"You're so insecure," she said over shoulder.
"And if things were reversed and it was one of my old girl friends, would be all 'secure' about it?" I said before she left the door. After it closed, she poked her head back inside and said, "You have an old girl friend you want to invite?"
"That's you. You are my old girlfriend," I said.
"That's not my fault," she shot back.
She was right. I am insecure when it comes to my wife's sexual history. I have heard about guys who let their wives fuck other guys, but I am not sure how they do it. I know sex is not the most important thing in a marriage. I understand other couples do it, but could I? What if they did have an intimate relationship? Would that mean they would again? Of course not. Not necessarily. Obviously. I thought about it constantly up until the night before he arrived.
In bed I turned to her and said, "Okay, I am insecure. I admit that. So help me out here. Are you expecting to be with him at night while he's here?"
"Okay," she said. "Sean and I did have sex." I didn't say anything, not knowing what to say. "We thought of asking for some time together while he is here. I should have told you. It would only be sex, not love. I love you. I lust after Sean. Yes, I think of him that way. I still do. I admit that.
But I am not looking to replace you. I do want Sean to fuck me. But if you object, I won't. I promise."
After she stopped talking I shrugged and thanked her for telling me. "If I said no you would not do anything?" I asked. She nodded, but there was regret in her nod. "You really want to, don't you?" I said.
"I have to be honest," she said. We stopped talking, there was no more to say. We both rolled over and turned off the light. I tried to sleep, but all I could think about was keeping from doing what she really wanted to. I tossed and turned throughout the night. Would she end up resenting me for keeping from doing what she wanted to? Would she end up regretting she married me? I finally dozed off around three that morning.
The day he was to arrive, she was quiet most of the morning. I wanted to talk, but I didn't know what to say. We both were feeling the other person out, trying figure the situation out. When he arrived things seemed normal, but neither of us could talk to one another.