I head out to my room and settle in for the night. I want to get a bottle of bourbon and get plastered but I know I need to keep my wits about me. I undress and take a long hot shower. As the hot water cascades down my worn body and the steam engulfs me, I hope that it will relieve some of the stress I'm feeling. However, the shower fails to work its usual magic. I dry off and crawl into bed hoping for but knowing that sleep would not be forthcoming.
Alone with my thoughts as the adrenaline finally subsides, the pain overtakes me as I lie there wondering what would make my wife fall for this asshole's line of bullshit. If something was amiss than its news to me. Until this evening I never had a hint of a problem. Over the course of the night and early morning I make some decisions. If she sees this asshole then we are through.
I decided that I need to find out everything I can about one Jonathan Winters. Unlike the late comedian of the same name, this guy isn't one bit funny. I check him out on social media and I find that he is married with two children. His wife Melody and kids are still in Chicago. I assume they plan on joining him after the end of the school year in 60 days or so.
I pay for and do a background search and I find that he left his last two jobs abruptly. I need to call these firms and see what I can find out come Monday. I get his address and phone number in Chicago. First thing in the morning I call my boss Dan Jenkins and tell him I need some time off due to a family emergency. I give him some of the details and he tells me to take whatever I need. I tell him a week no more than two.
I guess the trip to Disney World will be off. The kids will be disappointed that is unless I can resolve my problem before the end of the week. I grab a quick shower and clean up before heading to Molly's Diner for some breakfast. I get back to my house at 6:45am and I go and disconnect the phone wires again.
I wait at Jerry's until 7:30am before going into the house and getting my kids. I grab some clothes for them and telling them to stay quiet. I get them dressed, down the stairs and into my car. I take them out for breakfast while having more coffee. After breakfast I take them to my parents and ask them to keep the kids for a couple of days incognito until I can get things straightened out with Amber one way or another.
I get back in my car driving back to my house. It's time for us to come to an understanding. I pull in the driveway, get out and head back into the house. Amber is in the shower. She is unaware that the kids are gone. I take her phone out and call asshole. "Amber?" he answers.
"No asshole, it isn't Amber. If you know what's good for you then you better stay away from my wife. Don't call, don't come by. That is unless you want me to have an interesting chat with Melody! I'm sure that she Jon and Jason will be extremely interest how her husband and their father is occupying his time in Pittsburgh until they arrive." When I stop talking, I hear an audible gasp followed by utter silence. "Now that I have your attention you better hear and heed my words of advice asshole!" I disconnect the call.
I get up and make a pot of coffee and pour myself a steaming mug full of the life sustaining nectar and take a huge gulp. I hear Amber in the bedroom. I pour a mug of coffee with cream two sweeteners, yellow packet stuff for her while topping my mug off yet again. I take the coffee to the table and sit down waiting for her to descend the stairs into the kitchen,
Her eyes widen as she sees me sitting there. Before she can get a word out, I said, "SIT DOWN AND DON'T SAY A SINGLE FUCKIN WORD!" I can see the dark circles under her eyes that are red and puffy from crying as she sits down a bit frightened as I never ever use such a tone with her.
"I want to begin by apologizing, not for what I said but the way that I said it. Until last night, I never raised my voice or issued any type of ultimatum to you and for that I'm sorry. When you made the decision to carry on with that asshole, giving me an ultimatum, I felt backed into a corner. That is no excuse but it is what happened. She starts to speak but I put my finger to her lips, "Please let me say what I have to say then I will listen to you but not before."
She nods in the affirmative. "Amber, since we started dating and throughout our marriage and with our children, I have always done everything within my power to take care of my family. To protect all of you, provide for you and I treat you with the love and respect you deserve and I expect the same in kind. I deserve it and I dare say I have earned it during the past 14 years and 12 years of marriage."
I see tears streaming down her cheeks as I continue, "Last night you failed to give me any kind of respect, failed to show me any type of mercy and you tore my heart out. With your words, your actions and intended actions you cut me to the quick. I spent the entire night wondering what horrible thing or things I could have done to you for you to behave the way you did."
"If something horrible or inexcusable on my part exists then I'm clueless as to what I did to make you decide to date another man while we are married. I know we discussed in depth and detail what fidelity means to be and you agreed way before I asked and you said yes."
"I take my wedding vows seriously! I would never ever try to pull on you what you did on me, EVER! In turn I expect you to honor your commitment to me as well. Anything short of that then we are through! I don't want our family broken apart but I will not live with a woman that is less than 100% committed to us, to our relationship nor will I allow a stranger, a usurper into my marriage." The tears have given way to sobs.
"You have to decide that if a little fling with "Mr. Wonderful" is worth your marriage and your family. With something that important you better be sure you have all the facts. Did you know he has a wife and two children in Chicago? That they are waiting until the end of the school year before joining him? If you don't believe me look him up on Facebook." Her eyes widened.
"Yes, if you two decide to continue then your actions will cause a great deal of pain and suffering to our children, Melody his wife and their children and our collective extended families, friends and colleagues. You both need to ask yourself if it's indeed worth all the carnage.
"You're right I don't own you. You have already cheated on me by having an emotional affair and it's just as big a violation of my love and trust, just as big a betrayal and lack of respect for me as if it were physical, and I believe it would have been last night."
"I did horrific things in order to stop last night from happening. I took your phone and keys, called our sitters to prevent you from leaving the kids, and I waited and confronted that asshole outside our home. I did it to give us both time with the hope that you would see what is happening from my perspective and hopefully listen to reason and have a civil discussion about things with me. It is not my finest hour and I'm not proud of my actions. I resent being so desperate as to have said and done what I did last evening. I hope upon hope that you will come around but frankly my faith in that happening is waning."
I, directly and you indirectly, involved our children in adult issues. I'm beside myself with guilt for that. If that continues then neither of us deserve our sweet, innocent children. I for one won't let that happen again. So, from this point on its all on you, you decide or both of you decide what the future holds for us, them, for all of us."
"As you know I moved out last night. This morning I have taken the kids to my parents. I will leave your phone and keys here. The kids will stay with Mom and Dad for a few days unless you decide to go get them. If the two of you decide to date, fuck, whatever, just don't do it in this house, in my former bed or ever in front of our kids."
"You need to think long and hard about the future. I'm going upstairs to get the rest of my things and I will be out of your hair. I'm finished and as soon as you have your say I'll be leaving. I will stop by Mom and Dad's and tell them what's happening. I'll tell them to take your calls and that you will let them know when you're ready to pick up the kids. I'll explain things to them. I can't bear to hurt them any further than I already did when I lost my temper last night. I'll carry that with me for the rest of my life. Again, I'm sorry for doing that to them and to you."
Amber cried uncontrollably for several minutes before collecting herself to speak. "Alex, I want to say I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me. I'm sorry for hurting the kids and hurting you. I'm sorry for not talking with you instead of at you, sorry for giving you an ultimatum and backing you into a corner and I'm sorry for being a hurtful, narcissistic idiot. I'm extremely sorry for cheating on you in anyway, you do deserve better, especially from me. I love you and I don't want you to leave! PLEASE FORGIVE ME!"